DEAR FRIENDS,
I just realised that I am still upset with baskaran for bullying me to be at the wad-psy-1 (ward-psychiatry-1), of GH, KL and also for involving my family members in all thing that he does. i.e. he just came by to check my car that refused to start – it had suffered abuse under his care from the May 2002 until recently – end of April 2007 just as I have been suffering his personality that is not very pleasant – the moment I was on the telephone with the mechanic of kia service centre, he called my brother Khairul Nizam bin Abdullah and complained/reported/etc. I am sick of him trying to mess with me and my family. Yesterday, my brother realized that baskaran had 2 personalities that he requested for the good doc. who was checking me out to provide councelling for baskaran and also give him the mood altering/stabilizing abilify and episilon - I think..lemme check… its Epilim 200 – please let me know if these pills are ok to be consumed. From what I understand, baskaran had made special request to give me the tablets that are still new AND Sample type… new in the market I think…am I a guinea pig or what .dfapoewet49wpj ;o34862 34jtg;o9n6iy new in the market I think…am I a guinea pig or what .dfapoewet49wpj ;o34862 34jtg;o9n6iy3w lkgR”eo…fucker baskaran.
Pavin is also not coming to see me today, am so tired and fed-up that I’ve moved into my head, coz being in the heart hurts…tak mahu (DT: Don’t want) masuk hati (DT: enter heart). Actually its also my fault…I don’t know what I want. I just want to BE. BE with no plan but to write all my thoughts and read and think and contemplate and BE silent and dance and sing and dance again and sign again and travel and talk to the birds and the bees and walk around in circle and BE just BE. Is it wrong? What to do-lah! I want to go and dance with Shah Rukh Khan now. See you later.
Sexing/Rexing with baskaran the son of balaraman - what is rexing? or T-Rexing? or sexing?
Actually I am healed now because the New Earth www.newearthrecords.com played healing music -Reiki- by Terry Oldfield and more for the Earth Community and it made me move back into my heart and I cried my wounds out. I feel healed. Thank you very much New Earth Records, we love you too.
I also thank the malaysian community for coming out with lovely messages that made me realise that I am accepted and am being heard/listened to. the once voiceless environment has many voices, thanks again. We love you too. We would like to thank the people of Permai Court 2, the couple, pregnant mother, mother with 2 children, women with a dog, young man with fire, 2 men with saw and wood, another 2 men with a wheelbarrow full of rooflings (does this word exist?), local authority of Ampang for the beautiful energy saving (is it) lamp posts and lamps, and many more. I cried. still gonna cry, cry baby when I move to my heart but am finally balancing heart and head as went into samadhi (small time or big time) today. We LOVE MALAYSIA AND THE PEOPLE OF EARTH - OUR SIBLINGS OF THE WORLD. Please stay with me for awhile longer as I/we have much to share.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Dear Friends,
I will write about why I ended up at wad-psy-1 (full version: ward-psychiatry-1), general hospital of Kuala Lumpur or rather why I was beaten up by thugs and thuggy (female thug), it involves a certain Indian national called Moorthy - a 19 year old demised boy/young man...who was working at the thuggy's provision shop at Permai Court 2, my current home/office/abode/haven/meditation place...the following happened at ward...it was all happenings that opened my already opened eyes to many new experiences that I treasure...I love those folks/inmates there that I bought them all vanilla coke and sweet corn each when I went for my appt. on Monday 25th June 2006. I had some cash stashed from the insurance policy that I sold...more money coming tomorrow for pigeons etc. but I need them to survive for the next 6 months (min), so please be kind to the pigeons of Kuala Pilah and give them a home and some food.
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I am sitting in a single bed with my back leaning over the bed stand, biting through a green apple that my dear friend Joanna had bought for me earlier today. Someone had said “an apple a day keeps the doctor away”. The apple is crunchy and juicy and sweet (I am typing as it is without any changes – cutting out all those that I deleted) & sour. As I munch it, I think of my ex friend Sant Kaur back in Kuala Pilah in between the years 1980-1983(5) (lower primary from 1-3). Post script – actually it’s until 1985; from 5 – drugged stupor or short term memory lost – dunno. She was/is a popular money lenders daughter and had a huge house and a cash to spare. Since my sisters (p/s kannagi and valar as van was carted off to India in dunno – for – ya…1977 – 1981 – I think…more later) & her sisters were friends, we were thrown together due to same age group and she would always have to go to the provision 7 fruit shop and pick out best green apple and polish it with hankerchief (p/s does this word still exists? Correct spelling ah?) until it shone and then bit with relish. I used to watch with wonder (p/s and hunger). Guess what? (p/s DT: tamil word: ninaikkireh yennaa; not DT: yennaa ninaikkireh). Kandasamy too noticed it. (p/s Kandasamy raped….read: amaravathy1.blogspot.com). He says it’s a beautiful site to see this women of 16 eat/consume apple. Have you ever wondered why we don’t eat apple core? I read in Readers Digest (I think) that the seed is the most nutritious part of a fruit as it contains the entire tree of the species. Does this make sense? Today I started eating the entire green apple and it felt so good because I no longer practice waste culture. Deleted item: however I did choke can someone confirm if I am doing the right thing?
The inmates of war-psy-1 (Direct Translation: Psychiatric Ward 1) throw apple core out in between the plants that can be seen and touched through the bars. There are white trumpet plants – ready to bloom, bouginvilla of red, pink and orange (p/s I think I mucked up the colors because of drugged stupor…or maybe just didn’t notice the colors well) and some very young plants yet to be identified. What am I doing at ‘wad-psy-1’ of General Hospital Kuala Lumpur? I know. I know too much. I fee too much. I hear too much. I love too much. I write too much. Is that wrong?
There’s a girl opposite me, not directly but a bed to my right. Since last night, she had decided to sleep naked. Is this an invitation to share her bed? This morning in the shower, another women casually pushed open the door and asked for tooth brush and tooth paste when she had them both (p/s in her palms). Is this request to shower together? The doors in the bathrooms are latch-less and all exit & entrance and windows are heavily locked. Am I to be flattered or flabbergasted or renal gassed? What is renal gassed? Does this means fart? I have been since I came here and it smells of poison gas sold at Pagoda Penang : it’s sulphor dioxide – unlike my other inmates I enjoys (p/s enjoy – drugged stupor or just didn’t care about spellings anymore, never actually cared much for anything) this smell too.
The ward is in shocking pink with framed pictures of nature and info on schizophrenia and depression. I can’t read them because my reading glasses are at home and baskaran won’t help me bring them. I have been left in the custody of the good doctors and nurses. But they trust baskaran to take care of me. But he is having a (deleted item: gala) field time make me beg for the following:
0. pay saman (p/s it was an after thought, so I put it under no. o, I think we need to re-think our numbering system, what is math without a zero man…rakyat (DT: Citizen) what do you think?) kereta (dt: car; not dt: kai spetera – am laughing because kai in Chinese means chicken and I love kai fan – dt: chicken rice but have not had a chance to have them…forgot, the melaka one is absolutely fabulous, maybe its time to drive to Melaka for kai fan…ha!ha!).
to return:
1. my wallet
2. to return my identification card (all Malaysians must have it to indicate that we are citizens as there are many foreigners here).
3. (p/s am typing all as it is, please excuse my writing) to return my car keys.
4. to return my house keys.
5. to collect my reading glasses
6. to collect my underwear as I have only 1 panty and 1 bra.
7. to collect my book I-god by paranjothi Mahan
8. to collect Note book
9. to collect handphone & buy a charger
10. to collect & return 2 sim cards, and collect another sim card that the thugs broke.
11. to make a police report on my attack by 3 Indian males, 1 indian female & a Chinese male members of the rakyat (dt: citizen) Permai Court 2, a low cost building built for the poor squatter settlers of Ampang.
12. to call my AIA insurance agent to collect a cheque and bank it in at HSBC at lebuh pasar.
13. make 1 car payment of RM1200 that is due for towing on 21/6/07
14. pay rent RM500 to Catherine.
15. pay electricity bill.
WHAT AM I DOING HERE? No one here knows why I am here accept that it involves the police (p/s and Joanna, my so-called friend who assisted the police to make a police report that I am of a mental case..Joanna, please return my 3 days worth of writing that you were suppose to post at my site or another new site roti-canai.blogspot.com. did you? Please post it to my home and new office at PC2-15-01, Desa Permai, Taman Dato’ Ahmad Razali, 68000 Ampang, Selangor Darul Ehsan asap – this means as soon as possible…are you eating well Joanna? I trusted you and you betrayed me and made me a women scorned again but the NEW Earth site played some beautiful healing songs that had healed me from much of my wounds…thank you very much for that…I love you to). Have baskaran done anything about it? None.
I need to prepare my CV. How? (p/s minor confession – still got no mood to prepare CV as I have about RM12,000 to spare…oooppsss…yipes….please don’t tell anyone or try to steal from me like….never mind, another time….)
Post script: 7.45 a.m. – 17/6/07 (when I say p/s – its on the 26th June 2007 – today at 6.06pm.
I need some rest but I am heavily dosed with sleeping drugs and left in one of the most noisiest environment. Am I a guinea pig? Am I pembelot Negara? (DT: committed treason)? WHY AM I HERE?
Is it because my husband want me to be here? Today is the last day of Carrefour sales and I don’t want to miss it. Today is also the Green Fest 2007 (I think) at Forest Research Institute of Malaysia. I don’t think I can go for that as I am still in a drugged stupor. Please release me from this nut house as its driving me nuts. I need to know why I am here. As it happens at International Conferences, Dr. kamsiah said sweet words on Friday morning in my drugged stupor and left home to enjoy the weekend. Late Friday I realize ‘wallah’ (ya Allah!) I dah kena tipu (DT: I have been cheated – p/s not sure if it’s dt or not dt) by the doctors to stay in hospital for another 2 days so that they all can be at peace at home is it?
17th June ’07 – Sunday – 3.32p.m. Wad –Psy-1, General Hospital, Kuala Lumpur.
I want my life back. I want to live with Baskaran and I want to continue to be with Global Environment Centre (GEC). I want to help Civil Society Organisations (CSO) to address issues on climate change …more later….
Dear Friends, and fellow siblings of mother earth,
I am sungguh terharu dengan persembahan anda tadi that I cried (dt: very touched by performance your just now that I cried
Thank you for accepting me and listening to me. Our environment have many voices now and they said thank you to you too. We LOVE you too. Good night and au revior! I need to watch a movie – Cinderalla Part 3 – it’s a altered version of a cartoon, want to join me? How-lah? Ask Astro, they are good at what they do. I THANK THAM…. I mean we the environment thank them a lot. I fell on all 4 and kissed the ground (actually my orange colored carpet in my study/office/alter – by the way I have white men in my alter along with OSHO with his hands cuffed to the front – not the back like mine…ha!ha! I am better OSHO….romba thimir (DT: very arrogant)
17th June ’07 – Sunday – 3.32p.m. Wad –Psy-1, General Hospital, Kuala Lumpur.
I want my life back. I want to live with Baskaran and I want to continue to be with Global Environment Centre (GEC). I want to help Civil Society Organisations (CSO) to address issues on climate change and rapid loss of biodiversity. I want Toyota Foundation to give the meager RM147,465.00 (if possible more – all their allocations) to GEC, to assist CSOs take off in a way the global impact can be felt. I’ve found myself here at Wad-Psy-1, GH, KL (Ward Psychology-1, General Hospital, Kuala Lumpur). I thank the nurses and patience and the doctors to help me find myself. However I still like…
Faizal Duncan Parish, the Director of GEC is a passionate person. He came to Malaysia from Great Britain or United Kingdom (which is if Faizal) in 1980s and started Wetlands International, but then it was Asian Wetland Bureau (AWB). He gathered some of his environmental enthusiast friends John Howes, Taej Mundkur, John Davies, Rebecca & Tony D’ Cruz (they were/are an item), etc. I’ve met and worked with all. (p/s – 26th June 2007 - almost worked with John Davies and Tony D’Cruz).
Immediately after my graduation from UKM in 1996 with MSc. (Environmental Management) (p/s I think I was very scared – today is 26th June 2007) degree, I seeked for a job in environmental NGOs – meanwhile I worked as a PR Consultant at Binakomm. In Nov 96’ I joined (p/s joint) Wetlands International as Communications Officer. There I began to bloom as a environmental conservationist and I had the most beautiful time of my life (p/s one of the most beautiful times…today is 26th June 2007 and I am having another beautiful time writing this and meditation, musicking, dancing, and contemplating and Samadhi, once again SAMADHI for chants on Buddha in Pali).
2.55 p.m – (same as above) (p/s Wad-Psy-1, GH, KL)
We were just served a cup of tea and pandan cake (pandan is a kind of local leaf that smells divine (p/s just like me right now, last I showered was last night – 24 hrs ago – I think) - better than vanilla – I think – no they smell different. I took some 20 sec to think about both smells (p/s scent/aroma/fragrance – today is 26th June 2007 and it’s a beautiful night and day) because I am drugged by the govt and and in a slow stupor – mode – the more we try to run away from something the more it will haunt you – I suppose. I don’t want to be addicted to any substance but now I am forced by the doctors to be dependent on – met me get the named for you – abilify – 10mg & T. clonazepam (1 mg – 0.5mg) – (p/s mg was reduced due to ssevereer requeset from me and myselves) – is this bad? Is this legal drug? But it just meake mu mind sl,lllwlpoppoooowwwww…
Back to pandan cake – it was wrapped in plastic and the pandan smell (p/s scent/aroma/fragrance – today is 26th June 2007 and it’s a beautiful night and day) was altered completely because the has its own over powering (p/s earlier at the ward in pink ink – artificial) smell. Why can’t we find alternate materials to wrap food product that keeps it fresh and maintain its taste and aroma. I just saw an advertisement of Toyota Vios car in the star (p/s earlier at the ward in pink ink – local newspaper, p/s today 26yh June 2007 - that Wani worked for…are you still there Wani?). The car was parked on moon and the wide-eyed driver was checking out deep space and holding a map. (Another version of hitchhikers guide to galaxy… another time). If toyota can park cars on moon, why can’t the world help source for alternate cake wrappers?
I thank the government of Malaysia and the Ampang Jaya Police Station and Ampang Puteri Specialist Hospital for landing me in this psychiatric hospital. It had helped me find myself and
Such interesting shoutings going on amidst the patience here. Wonder what happened? I was just caught in a fiery passion of writing…
8.p.m. 17/6/07
Yuvarani (p/s today 26th June 2007-my fellow inmate), she asks what year this is, born 1984 – (23 yrs) – 11.55p.m., she says don’t know what to say. [p/s today 26yh june 2007 – this piece is a bit mucked up because we were both drugged (I think) and trying to write fast…please have patience or patient with us]. She says I understand what’s in her heart – she loves someone when she was 14 years old (p/s today 26th june 2007 – wonder how long she’s here or in prison because she is really konked out as me… I mean as I was…I think). Before PMR (p/s today 26th June 2007 – PMR is a govt. exam you sit for when you’re either 15 or 16 depends on if you’re from tamil or Chinese schools or Malay school. If you’re from Tamil school like I am, we need to take the exam at 16 because we need a year to learn the malay language and up grade our knowledge on all at the age of 13 as the tamil schools were (maybe are) poorly maintained…I think…chinese schools, another time..) went to psy ward (p/s today 26th june 2007 – this is Yuvarani’s story not mine… yet or done? Drugged-ler…I think) I was v. thin but ppl say I was pregnant coz fat. I asked her of coz confusing – someone made her pregnant, she gave birth & gave baby to his family. I was pregnant, I heard abt. Dr. Mahathir, scared he die, I don’t know what to say. [p/s today 26th June 2007-I think suddenly she thought I was an International journalist and decided to play it safe or go political on me…but I gave her chance ma…Chinese colloquial (now it auto-corrects) way of saying…she continues]. I saying Tun Dr. Mahathir am happy if alive. I told her, Mahal…( p/s today 26th June 2007- dunno..she continues) my black baju body fit, all don’t know what happened. I don’t know what happened to me.
Q: How many child
A: 1
Q: How old?
A: small baby – you know he answer but you ask me, (p/s today 26th June 2007- she cont.) ma – malayalee, 3 sis – elder sis, Melissa, Latha, Malathi, Yuvarani
Q: U. youngest
A: Bongsu anak manja (p/s today 26th June 2007-DT: youngest child loved in malay language; not DT: youngest pet). Father heart problem, very saying (p/s today 26th June 2007-DT: love in malay language), why your baju (p/s today 26th June 2007-DT: shirt/blouse/tee-shirt/anything-you-ware-on-your-body, my guru asked wherelese you ware and I say don’t know…tongue mauybe…going nuts….he!he!) inside out? …I like Tamil/Hindi songs & dance (I stare at her a moment) hobby. I love babies like ma. Theresa. (p/s today 26th June 2007 – I am writing furiously as she’s talking very fast).
Q: Do you know ma…( p/s today 26th June 2007 - I meant mother Theresa)
Q: Mother theresa
Just got called for medication. I am given (p/s today 26th June 2007 – the nurse wrote down) sgr. Lactulose ++
(p/s today 26th June 2007- I start writing in pink coz dunno where I left the blue pen)
An inmate just stopped me in the middle of my walk and sings
“Do you know what you looking for?”
(p/s today 26th June 2007 – am writing in full)
“Do you know what you hoping for?” etc. by Diana Ross and I shook my head and told her she too is my guru and hugged her shoulders.
Meisi is tied down and
(p/s today 26th June 2007 – I told her to write down the song as it touched my heart)
Do you know where you’re going to.
Do you like the things that life is showing (p/s today 26yh june 2007 –am beginning to cry thinking of her now as she misses her son…told not to have children but too late the message got to her)
Where are you going to, Do you know,
Do you like what you’re hoping for (p/s today 26yh june 2007- right now, its for Microsoft to auto aphrostophe …am laughing at spelling …wherever necessary…lazy to no…boring too to type written notes…I feel for typists…but sometimes its nice to just type while getting lost in onees own head uh!)
When you look behind, and there no open door
What area you are hoping for, Do you t
(p/s today 26th June 2007-she stopped and I continued)
{Siti Zaleha Sidek; R/N:1023041; i/c:600620-03-5140; D(p/s today 26th June 2007- got bullied by nose bugger and TV and DVD Player that need to be switched off coz the CD Elements of Earth by Vanraj Bhatia has just ended and I don’t have a CD player, so I use the DVD player and TV.... ok right? am cont.). O.A 11/6/07}
- I must buy this cassette and listen. Its by Diana Ross.
- I’ve given Siti a book that baskaran has bought and his pink pen (I love him for this & more) and told her (p/s today 26yh june 2007 – this is schizophrenia right?) to write something. She’s sitting on the floor and writing diligently. This is the same women who was tied down yesterday for attacking a staff…
She just wrote: (am laughing for repeating this so many times – its important to us - p/s today 26th June 2007 …dunno…the book is in a pile in the in-tray…another time…actually I was collecting autograph from my fellow in-mates as I was confident of going home the next day but that did not happen I tried the suicide by green towel thoughts I shared with you earlier today).
The other day Raja Khadijah read me Fatwa: it sounds: let me call her” (p/s today 26th June 2007-I cried when I heard it…I was a cry baby there…too much in the heart…as I am today too..thank you…she wrote in malay…please help yourselves to translation).
“Hukum yang terkandung di dalam undang2 ber-Raja yang berdaulat telah membuktikan keajaiban Allah. Tuhan semerta Alam. Daulat tuanku!!!”
Blok A-6-1
SRI GOTONG, Yang Ikhlas,
BATU CAVES, (p/s today 26TH june 2007-HER SIGNATURE)
SELAYANG, (RAJA KHADIJAH BT
SELANGOR RAJA MOHAMAD
NO Tel: 016-9798108 HANAFIAH)
RAJA KHATIJAH
(p/s today 26TH june 2007-my next victim is Anotniamma Jane and she writes)
“God Bless Forever You Will
health and goodness.
May Jesus Bless you and your Family. Jesus will coming soon.
Please ready for his coming.
Your Friend
Jane/Anthoniammal
(p/s today 26th June 2007-she stopped an continued in pink ink)
She doesn’t know its me she’s been waiting for. (p/s today 26th June 2007-yenna thimir – DT: what arrogance ma…Chinese collquail way of saying it…he!he!)
(p/s today 26th June 2007- Oh my gosh there’s more…later tonight…now)
This diary/story started out as something and
(p/s today 26th June 2007-Let me help with DTs-am going for a walk first – its now …oooopppss 27th June 2007 12.32am…don’t worry, I will or we will translate all for you today)
Nama: Khogila a/p Sugumar
Umur Saya: 23 tahun
Nama anak: Ahnu Suriya dan Thacanamurti
Nama Suami: Siva Balan
Ucapan Saya: naagal marupadiyum
Ondru sera vendum
Naa athu varai kartukonduerpan
Naa ippa kavalai paduvatu
En pellai en kida vantu sera
Vandum.
Naa ungalai santicatu
Rombasantosam
From
Khogila
Her signature
Alamat: No 9, Jalan Datong Danga, Taman Sentosa
Engalum ungal kanavarum
Santosama erukavandum.
[p/s today 27th June 2007- actually I am too lazy/bored to translate…please help yourselves – you can obtain English/malay and English/Tamil Dictionaries (got ah?) or get Microsoft to provide translation for above mentioned…gonna shower now and try typing another 5 pages later today…its now 1.00a.m. of 27th of June 2007 at Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia…please don’t show me shower ..what I mean is stop the cameras when I masuk (DT: enter) bathroom and toilet..thank you astro].
I will write about why I ended up at wad-psy-1 (full version: ward-psychiatry-1), general hospital of Kuala Lumpur or rather why I was beaten up by thugs and thuggy (female thug), it involves a certain Indian national called Moorthy - a 19 year old demised boy/young man...who was working at the thuggy's provision shop at Permai Court 2, my current home/office/abode/haven/meditation place...the following happened at ward...it was all happenings that opened my already opened eyes to many new experiences that I treasure...I love those folks/inmates there that I bought them all vanilla coke and sweet corn each when I went for my appt. on Monday 25th June 2006. I had some cash stashed from the insurance policy that I sold...more money coming tomorrow for pigeons etc. but I need them to survive for the next 6 months (min), so please be kind to the pigeons of Kuala Pilah and give them a home and some food.
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I am sitting in a single bed with my back leaning over the bed stand, biting through a green apple that my dear friend Joanna had bought for me earlier today. Someone had said “an apple a day keeps the doctor away”. The apple is crunchy and juicy and sweet (I am typing as it is without any changes – cutting out all those that I deleted) & sour. As I munch it, I think of my ex friend Sant Kaur back in Kuala Pilah in between the years 1980-1983(5) (lower primary from 1-3). Post script – actually it’s until 1985; from 5 – drugged stupor or short term memory lost – dunno. She was/is a popular money lenders daughter and had a huge house and a cash to spare. Since my sisters (p/s kannagi and valar as van was carted off to India in dunno – for – ya…1977 – 1981 – I think…more later) & her sisters were friends, we were thrown together due to same age group and she would always have to go to the provision 7 fruit shop and pick out best green apple and polish it with hankerchief (p/s does this word still exists? Correct spelling ah?) until it shone and then bit with relish. I used to watch with wonder (p/s and hunger). Guess what? (p/s DT: tamil word: ninaikkireh yennaa; not DT: yennaa ninaikkireh). Kandasamy too noticed it. (p/s Kandasamy raped….read: amaravathy1.blogspot.com). He says it’s a beautiful site to see this women of 16 eat/consume apple. Have you ever wondered why we don’t eat apple core? I read in Readers Digest (I think) that the seed is the most nutritious part of a fruit as it contains the entire tree of the species. Does this make sense? Today I started eating the entire green apple and it felt so good because I no longer practice waste culture. Deleted item: however I did choke can someone confirm if I am doing the right thing?
The inmates of war-psy-1 (Direct Translation: Psychiatric Ward 1) throw apple core out in between the plants that can be seen and touched through the bars. There are white trumpet plants – ready to bloom, bouginvilla of red, pink and orange (p/s I think I mucked up the colors because of drugged stupor…or maybe just didn’t notice the colors well) and some very young plants yet to be identified. What am I doing at ‘wad-psy-1’ of General Hospital Kuala Lumpur? I know. I know too much. I fee too much. I hear too much. I love too much. I write too much. Is that wrong?
There’s a girl opposite me, not directly but a bed to my right. Since last night, she had decided to sleep naked. Is this an invitation to share her bed? This morning in the shower, another women casually pushed open the door and asked for tooth brush and tooth paste when she had them both (p/s in her palms). Is this request to shower together? The doors in the bathrooms are latch-less and all exit & entrance and windows are heavily locked. Am I to be flattered or flabbergasted or renal gassed? What is renal gassed? Does this means fart? I have been since I came here and it smells of poison gas sold at Pagoda Penang : it’s sulphor dioxide – unlike my other inmates I enjoys (p/s enjoy – drugged stupor or just didn’t care about spellings anymore, never actually cared much for anything) this smell too.
The ward is in shocking pink with framed pictures of nature and info on schizophrenia and depression. I can’t read them because my reading glasses are at home and baskaran won’t help me bring them. I have been left in the custody of the good doctors and nurses. But they trust baskaran to take care of me. But he is having a (deleted item: gala) field time make me beg for the following:
0. pay saman (p/s it was an after thought, so I put it under no. o, I think we need to re-think our numbering system, what is math without a zero man…rakyat (DT: Citizen) what do you think?) kereta (dt: car; not dt: kai spetera – am laughing because kai in Chinese means chicken and I love kai fan – dt: chicken rice but have not had a chance to have them…forgot, the melaka one is absolutely fabulous, maybe its time to drive to Melaka for kai fan…ha!ha!).
to return:
1. my wallet
2. to return my identification card (all Malaysians must have it to indicate that we are citizens as there are many foreigners here).
3. (p/s am typing all as it is, please excuse my writing) to return my car keys.
4. to return my house keys.
5. to collect my reading glasses
6. to collect my underwear as I have only 1 panty and 1 bra.
7. to collect my book I-god by paranjothi Mahan
8. to collect Note book
9. to collect handphone & buy a charger
10. to collect & return 2 sim cards, and collect another sim card that the thugs broke.
11. to make a police report on my attack by 3 Indian males, 1 indian female & a Chinese male members of the rakyat (dt: citizen) Permai Court 2, a low cost building built for the poor squatter settlers of Ampang.
12. to call my AIA insurance agent to collect a cheque and bank it in at HSBC at lebuh pasar.
13. make 1 car payment of RM1200 that is due for towing on 21/6/07
14. pay rent RM500 to Catherine.
15. pay electricity bill.
WHAT AM I DOING HERE? No one here knows why I am here accept that it involves the police (p/s and Joanna, my so-called friend who assisted the police to make a police report that I am of a mental case..Joanna, please return my 3 days worth of writing that you were suppose to post at my site or another new site roti-canai.blogspot.com. did you? Please post it to my home and new office at PC2-15-01, Desa Permai, Taman Dato’ Ahmad Razali, 68000 Ampang, Selangor Darul Ehsan asap – this means as soon as possible…are you eating well Joanna? I trusted you and you betrayed me and made me a women scorned again but the NEW Earth site played some beautiful healing songs that had healed me from much of my wounds…thank you very much for that…I love you to). Have baskaran done anything about it? None.
I need to prepare my CV. How? (p/s minor confession – still got no mood to prepare CV as I have about RM12,000 to spare…oooppsss…yipes….please don’t tell anyone or try to steal from me like….never mind, another time….)
Post script: 7.45 a.m. – 17/6/07 (when I say p/s – its on the 26th June 2007 – today at 6.06pm.
I need some rest but I am heavily dosed with sleeping drugs and left in one of the most noisiest environment. Am I a guinea pig? Am I pembelot Negara? (DT: committed treason)? WHY AM I HERE?
Is it because my husband want me to be here? Today is the last day of Carrefour sales and I don’t want to miss it. Today is also the Green Fest 2007 (I think) at Forest Research Institute of Malaysia. I don’t think I can go for that as I am still in a drugged stupor. Please release me from this nut house as its driving me nuts. I need to know why I am here. As it happens at International Conferences, Dr. kamsiah said sweet words on Friday morning in my drugged stupor and left home to enjoy the weekend. Late Friday I realize ‘wallah’ (ya Allah!) I dah kena tipu (DT: I have been cheated – p/s not sure if it’s dt or not dt) by the doctors to stay in hospital for another 2 days so that they all can be at peace at home is it?
17th June ’07 – Sunday – 3.32p.m. Wad –Psy-1, General Hospital, Kuala Lumpur.
I want my life back. I want to live with Baskaran and I want to continue to be with Global Environment Centre (GEC). I want to help Civil Society Organisations (CSO) to address issues on climate change …more later….
Dear Friends, and fellow siblings of mother earth,
I am sungguh terharu dengan persembahan anda tadi that I cried (dt: very touched by performance your just now that I cried
Thank you for accepting me and listening to me. Our environment have many voices now and they said thank you to you too. We LOVE you too. Good night and au revior! I need to watch a movie – Cinderalla Part 3 – it’s a altered version of a cartoon, want to join me? How-lah? Ask Astro, they are good at what they do. I THANK THAM…. I mean we the environment thank them a lot. I fell on all 4 and kissed the ground (actually my orange colored carpet in my study/office/alter – by the way I have white men in my alter along with OSHO with his hands cuffed to the front – not the back like mine…ha!ha! I am better OSHO….romba thimir (DT: very arrogant)
17th June ’07 – Sunday – 3.32p.m. Wad –Psy-1, General Hospital, Kuala Lumpur.
I want my life back. I want to live with Baskaran and I want to continue to be with Global Environment Centre (GEC). I want to help Civil Society Organisations (CSO) to address issues on climate change and rapid loss of biodiversity. I want Toyota Foundation to give the meager RM147,465.00 (if possible more – all their allocations) to GEC, to assist CSOs take off in a way the global impact can be felt. I’ve found myself here at Wad-Psy-1, GH, KL (Ward Psychology-1, General Hospital, Kuala Lumpur). I thank the nurses and patience and the doctors to help me find myself. However I still like…
Faizal Duncan Parish, the Director of GEC is a passionate person. He came to Malaysia from Great Britain or United Kingdom (which is if Faizal) in 1980s and started Wetlands International, but then it was Asian Wetland Bureau (AWB). He gathered some of his environmental enthusiast friends John Howes, Taej Mundkur, John Davies, Rebecca & Tony D’ Cruz (they were/are an item), etc. I’ve met and worked with all. (p/s – 26th June 2007 - almost worked with John Davies and Tony D’Cruz).
Immediately after my graduation from UKM in 1996 with MSc. (Environmental Management) (p/s I think I was very scared – today is 26th June 2007) degree, I seeked for a job in environmental NGOs – meanwhile I worked as a PR Consultant at Binakomm. In Nov 96’ I joined (p/s joint) Wetlands International as Communications Officer. There I began to bloom as a environmental conservationist and I had the most beautiful time of my life (p/s one of the most beautiful times…today is 26th June 2007 and I am having another beautiful time writing this and meditation, musicking, dancing, and contemplating and Samadhi, once again SAMADHI for chants on Buddha in Pali).
2.55 p.m – (same as above) (p/s Wad-Psy-1, GH, KL)
We were just served a cup of tea and pandan cake (pandan is a kind of local leaf that smells divine (p/s just like me right now, last I showered was last night – 24 hrs ago – I think) - better than vanilla – I think – no they smell different. I took some 20 sec to think about both smells (p/s scent/aroma/fragrance – today is 26th June 2007 and it’s a beautiful night and day) because I am drugged by the govt and and in a slow stupor – mode – the more we try to run away from something the more it will haunt you – I suppose. I don’t want to be addicted to any substance but now I am forced by the doctors to be dependent on – met me get the named for you – abilify – 10mg & T. clonazepam (1 mg – 0.5mg) – (p/s mg was reduced due to ssevereer requeset from me and myselves) – is this bad? Is this legal drug? But it just meake mu mind sl,lllwlpoppoooowwwww…
Back to pandan cake – it was wrapped in plastic and the pandan smell (p/s scent/aroma/fragrance – today is 26th June 2007 and it’s a beautiful night and day) was altered completely because the has its own over powering (p/s earlier at the ward in pink ink – artificial) smell. Why can’t we find alternate materials to wrap food product that keeps it fresh and maintain its taste and aroma. I just saw an advertisement of Toyota Vios car in the star (p/s earlier at the ward in pink ink – local newspaper, p/s today 26yh June 2007 - that Wani worked for…are you still there Wani?). The car was parked on moon and the wide-eyed driver was checking out deep space and holding a map. (Another version of hitchhikers guide to galaxy… another time). If toyota can park cars on moon, why can’t the world help source for alternate cake wrappers?
I thank the government of Malaysia and the Ampang Jaya Police Station and Ampang Puteri Specialist Hospital for landing me in this psychiatric hospital. It had helped me find myself and
Such interesting shoutings going on amidst the patience here. Wonder what happened? I was just caught in a fiery passion of writing…
8.p.m. 17/6/07
Yuvarani (p/s today 26th June 2007-my fellow inmate), she asks what year this is, born 1984 – (23 yrs) – 11.55p.m., she says don’t know what to say. [p/s today 26yh june 2007 – this piece is a bit mucked up because we were both drugged (I think) and trying to write fast…please have patience or patient with us]. She says I understand what’s in her heart – she loves someone when she was 14 years old (p/s today 26th june 2007 – wonder how long she’s here or in prison because she is really konked out as me… I mean as I was…I think). Before PMR (p/s today 26th June 2007 – PMR is a govt. exam you sit for when you’re either 15 or 16 depends on if you’re from tamil or Chinese schools or Malay school. If you’re from Tamil school like I am, we need to take the exam at 16 because we need a year to learn the malay language and up grade our knowledge on all at the age of 13 as the tamil schools were (maybe are) poorly maintained…I think…chinese schools, another time..) went to psy ward (p/s today 26th june 2007 – this is Yuvarani’s story not mine… yet or done? Drugged-ler…I think) I was v. thin but ppl say I was pregnant coz fat. I asked her of coz confusing – someone made her pregnant, she gave birth & gave baby to his family. I was pregnant, I heard abt. Dr. Mahathir, scared he die, I don’t know what to say. [p/s today 26th June 2007-I think suddenly she thought I was an International journalist and decided to play it safe or go political on me…but I gave her chance ma…Chinese colloquial (now it auto-corrects) way of saying…she continues]. I saying Tun Dr. Mahathir am happy if alive. I told her, Mahal…( p/s today 26th June 2007- dunno..she continues) my black baju body fit, all don’t know what happened. I don’t know what happened to me.
Q: How many child
A: 1
Q: How old?
A: small baby – you know he answer but you ask me, (p/s today 26th June 2007- she cont.) ma – malayalee, 3 sis – elder sis, Melissa, Latha, Malathi, Yuvarani
Q: U. youngest
A: Bongsu anak manja (p/s today 26th June 2007-DT: youngest child loved in malay language; not DT: youngest pet). Father heart problem, very saying (p/s today 26th June 2007-DT: love in malay language), why your baju (p/s today 26th June 2007-DT: shirt/blouse/tee-shirt/anything-you-ware-on-your-body, my guru asked wherelese you ware and I say don’t know…tongue mauybe…going nuts….he!he!) inside out? …I like Tamil/Hindi songs & dance (I stare at her a moment) hobby. I love babies like ma. Theresa. (p/s today 26th June 2007 – I am writing furiously as she’s talking very fast).
Q: Do you know ma…( p/s today 26th June 2007 - I meant mother Theresa)
Q: Mother theresa
Just got called for medication. I am given (p/s today 26th June 2007 – the nurse wrote down) sgr. Lactulose ++
(p/s today 26th June 2007- I start writing in pink coz dunno where I left the blue pen)
An inmate just stopped me in the middle of my walk and sings
“Do you know what you looking for?”
(p/s today 26th June 2007 – am writing in full)
“Do you know what you hoping for?” etc. by Diana Ross and I shook my head and told her she too is my guru and hugged her shoulders.
Meisi is tied down and
(p/s today 26th June 2007 – I told her to write down the song as it touched my heart)
Do you know where you’re going to.
Do you like the things that life is showing (p/s today 26yh june 2007 –am beginning to cry thinking of her now as she misses her son…told not to have children but too late the message got to her)
Where are you going to, Do you know,
Do you like what you’re hoping for (p/s today 26yh june 2007- right now, its for Microsoft to auto aphrostophe …am laughing at spelling …wherever necessary…lazy to no…boring too to type written notes…I feel for typists…but sometimes its nice to just type while getting lost in onees own head uh!)
When you look behind, and there no open door
What area you are hoping for, Do you t
(p/s today 26th June 2007-she stopped and I continued)
{Siti Zaleha Sidek; R/N:1023041; i/c:600620-03-5140; D(p/s today 26th June 2007- got bullied by nose bugger and TV and DVD Player that need to be switched off coz the CD Elements of Earth by Vanraj Bhatia has just ended and I don’t have a CD player, so I use the DVD player and TV.... ok right? am cont.). O.A 11/6/07}
- I must buy this cassette and listen. Its by Diana Ross.
- I’ve given Siti a book that baskaran has bought and his pink pen (I love him for this & more) and told her (p/s today 26yh june 2007 – this is schizophrenia right?) to write something. She’s sitting on the floor and writing diligently. This is the same women who was tied down yesterday for attacking a staff…
She just wrote: (am laughing for repeating this so many times – its important to us - p/s today 26th June 2007 …dunno…the book is in a pile in the in-tray…another time…actually I was collecting autograph from my fellow in-mates as I was confident of going home the next day but that did not happen I tried the suicide by green towel thoughts I shared with you earlier today).
The other day Raja Khadijah read me Fatwa: it sounds: let me call her” (p/s today 26th June 2007-I cried when I heard it…I was a cry baby there…too much in the heart…as I am today too..thank you…she wrote in malay…please help yourselves to translation).
“Hukum yang terkandung di dalam undang2 ber-Raja yang berdaulat telah membuktikan keajaiban Allah. Tuhan semerta Alam. Daulat tuanku!!!”
Blok A-6-1
SRI GOTONG, Yang Ikhlas,
BATU CAVES, (p/s today 26TH june 2007-HER SIGNATURE)
SELAYANG, (RAJA KHADIJAH BT
SELANGOR RAJA MOHAMAD
NO Tel: 016-9798108 HANAFIAH)
RAJA KHATIJAH
(p/s today 26TH june 2007-my next victim is Anotniamma Jane and she writes)
“God Bless Forever You Will
health and goodness.
May Jesus Bless you and your Family. Jesus will coming soon.
Please ready for his coming.
Your Friend
Jane/Anthoniammal
(p/s today 26th June 2007-she stopped an continued in pink ink)
She doesn’t know its me she’s been waiting for. (p/s today 26th June 2007-yenna thimir – DT: what arrogance ma…Chinese collquail way of saying it…he!he!)
(p/s today 26th June 2007- Oh my gosh there’s more…later tonight…now)
This diary/story started out as something and
(p/s today 26th June 2007-Let me help with DTs-am going for a walk first – its now …oooopppss 27th June 2007 12.32am…don’t worry, I will or we will translate all for you today)
Nama: Khogila a/p Sugumar
Umur Saya: 23 tahun
Nama anak: Ahnu Suriya dan Thacanamurti
Nama Suami: Siva Balan
Ucapan Saya: naagal marupadiyum
Ondru sera vendum
Naa athu varai kartukonduerpan
Naa ippa kavalai paduvatu
En pellai en kida vantu sera
Vandum.
Naa ungalai santicatu
Rombasantosam
From
Khogila
Her signature
Alamat: No 9, Jalan Datong Danga, Taman Sentosa
Engalum ungal kanavarum
Santosama erukavandum.
[p/s today 27th June 2007- actually I am too lazy/bored to translate…please help yourselves – you can obtain English/malay and English/Tamil Dictionaries (got ah?) or get Microsoft to provide translation for above mentioned…gonna shower now and try typing another 5 pages later today…its now 1.00a.m. of 27th of June 2007 at Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia…please don’t show me shower ..what I mean is stop the cameras when I masuk (DT: enter) bathroom and toilet..thank you astro].
Monday, June 25, 2007
HAVE A FESTIVE NUTTY SEASON AT THE NUT HOUSE OF GENERAL HOSPITAL, KUALA LUMPUR
A word from Hemat …
The following flowed at the war-psy-1 (ward-psychiatry-1) of the General Hospital located at Kuala Lumpur. I was arrested by the police and kept at waiting room of a lock-up for 2 hours and then sent hand cuffed (at the back and the cuffs were tinged with pepper spray) to the hospital where I was dragged and dumped at a padded cell like a wild animal ( I just sat quietly on the hard cold floor, hand cuffed and all and meditated quietly). I spent 8 days and 8 nights there. I was arrested because 3 men of Indian origin, a female of Indian origin and a male of Chinese origin pushed/prodded/shouted/yelled/called-all-dirty-words-in-tamil-and-malay. I sprayed pepper spray on all Indians as the Chinese had left the building by then, as a result I was hit on the head by the Indian man with a plastic yellow colored chair that my head still hurts. It happened on 11th June 2007 noon or morning (unsure). I got myself to the Ampang Puteri Specialist Hospital (half way through a kind gentlemen drove me there as I welfetl like faignting – almist blackede outa.f.dd,aoirqtil.,”;frtjpp that’s another story… Birds and Pigeons first before we speak about them and me and us.
Post script: 15th June 2007; dusk/night time; too drugged to notice much at that time…
Dear Diary,
· This pen sucks! Pink color – can you imagine? The staff here are nice today. Thye returned my UHT Dutch Lady Low Fat Chocolate Milk. Why? It ‘s so cold coz the fan is at high speed and is freezing my hairless skull. I once read:-
· “All heads are beautiful but the rest are covered with hair” hah!ha!ha! What a joke.
· “wa ai tanni ah wa ai tanni” (post script-when baskaran read this line, he was only interested in the word ‘tanni’ - DT – tamil colloquial way of way of saying alcohol –inilah yang dikatakan[(DT: this-lah is said; not DT: this is the meaning of) PROJECTION. =We see what we want to see and are so close sighted that we can’t see the way others view stuff]. By the way, is the moon real or just a projected hologram/light on the night/day sky?).
· “wa ai tanni ah wa ai tanni” (is a Chinese song that means…what ah?) sings a fellow inmate Pn. Mazna. She’s singing to another Chinese inmate ____________. Raja Khadijah and Sabariah are eating the chapatti that my husband whom I am trying to get rid off, baskaran bought earlier this evening. I don’t know why I am here. Sabariah just banged onto one of my crossed legs (right foot). I think Raja Khadijah who calls herself king is in infatuated with me. Perhaps this is how Baskaran’s (I am typing all as I wrote it at wad-psy-1 [ward-psychiatry-1] of the Kuala Lumpur General Hospital) relationship with Baharom started.
· I am planning to meet Mr. Karpal Singh on Tuesday (post script: Tuesday; 19th June 2007; He is a famed lawyer of the opposition political party called DAP – forgot) but I don’t know how? My drug given by the nurses ABILIFY-10mg & T.CLONAZEPAM (1mg yesterday and 0.5mg today [postscript: upon severe request from me and myselves]) is beginning to work. Rather drowsy. (P/s – Karpal Singhs PA Evelyn asked me to call him this week as he’s busy with the Altantuya Sharibu murder case against the police – is it?).
· Anotiniamma (post script: aka [also known as] Jane), the ward backbone is drying Kogilas hair under the fan. She’s a real do-gooder.
· The food here is nice. I think food in Malaysia nothing to complain about – dunno-lah!
· I don’t like this pen that baskaran has bought for me. He bought another blue pen which I have returned coz I only wanted 1 and he’s trying to spoil me again by giving unnecessary & excessive stuff instead of returning.
· Maisy Cheah – nursing golden cares at 106, Jalan Gasing wants hymn book and bible left at bottom drawer and she want me to help her collect it. How? She wants me to ask my brother who is coming to see me tomorrow morning…
· I am so happy to see my UHT Low Fat Dutch Lady Chocolate Milk back in my drawer. It’s a sure sign that I am beginning to be accepted by the nurses here. I feel happier here. However I am looking forward to going home to prepare my CV to start work at WWFM – World Wildlife Find for Nature Conservation Malaysia – traffic team, if I am accepted because I’ve been and am still at psychiatric ward of the Malaysian Government. Who will accept me a mental patient/inmate to work with them? Now I am sad. I hope Dr. Kamisah will help me give a good report. She’s a wonderful woman who listens to me. I hope the nurses won’t touch my body in my drugged stupor.
· p/s last night, I left my pen in my shirt pocket but in the morning I found it in my bag left in the custody of nurses… How uh!
· 16th June ’07 7.05am. It has been 5 days since I came to this prison. Life gets more and more depressing as I can breath well due to the walls that are closing in on me.
· Post script: Oh! My! Gosh! Aiyoh kadavuleh (DT & not DT: Oh My God), like a boltning of lightining, I just got it,our next task is to safe all the peigeons..ssorry…birds in Malaysia and to start with pigeons in the General Hospital of Kuala Lumpur and Kuala Pilah…they told me what to do and I just got the message…aip; oh! I blame the drugs for this ssslllloooowwwwww-ness…sorry docs.
· Post script: U know, I saw a footless pigeon at the hospital when I was awarded the psychiatric treatment and on the last night/evening, and at night, I was actually contemplating suicide…I stop the above mentioned writings and go straight to the point – to the last day of my stay at the wad-psy-1 of the General Hospital (GH) of Kuala Lumpur (KL).
18/6/07-Monday (Time? Night time after azan prayers)
1st class – wad-psy-1, GH, KL
I am now locked into a tiny space that can now be considered my new home. I am sitting on my single bed looking out window with bars and locked…actually I am too sad to write in English today as I want to express myself in Tamil. I think that in my deepest sorrow, Tamil language is my only solace.
Baskaran refused to bring my notebook OSHO despite me having permission from the ‘sister’ – nurse in blue uniform. I am still crying in my heart or rather my heart is in paid (Post script: PAIN; I NEED TO go on Tamil here…apologies if you don’t understand but I think you should get a Tamil/English Dictionary…ooopppsss…sorry if you don’t understand Tamil…please get it translated, if I am in a good mood, I will/may translate and post it another time or maybe later in the morning…dunno-lah! Lets see how the flow goes at the end…did you know that I used to have another name: Thamilmany; my full name used to be AMARAVATHY @ THAMILMANY d/o SIVALINGAM until a kind officer of the Givernment dropped the 2nd name; the first name belonged to my fathers mother – my grandmoa…another time, now its my turn…I AM Romanizing the tamil writing coz don’t know how to type in tamil):-
IRAIVAA NEEYEH VARUVAAI THAANE,
POGUM UYIRAI THADAI SEIVAYEH,
UYIR VENDUM UDALUKKAAGA,
EN UDHAL VHENDUM UYIRUKKAAGA,
PALAMURAI POGEH VHENDIYEH NAAN,
POGEH MUDYAAMAL THANGGINEN, KAARANAM
EN UDHAL MEL KATHAL, ANBU, PANBU,
EN UDHAL EN IRAIVAN, EN GURU,
EN YAAVUM EN UDHALEH,
POOVULAGHIL MAABERUM SHAKTI KONDA
KADAVUL EN UDHAL,
AASAI THEERAMAL AVALAI VITTU PIRIVATHU
YEPPADI,
MUDHIYAVILLAI, PAARIYIL UDHALUKKU
ONDRU MILLAA IDHAI
THEVAI KANANI, VERONDRUM ILLAI,
THARAMAATHEIN YENBATHU YEIN?
VARATTHU GOWRAWAM, THAAN YENDRA THIMIR,
AGAMBHAWAM, PORAAMAI YENDRA ARAKKAN
AVAN AZHIYA, NAAN VAZHA ALLA,
NAAN AZHIYA, AVAN VAZHA,
KANTHAA, KADAMBAA, KATHIRVELAVANEH,
EESAAH, MAINTHAA, MARAI NAYAGHANEH,
EN UYIRUKKUM UYIRAANE BHAGAWHANEH,
EN ANBU OSHO THEIVAMEH,
EN MAHAANEH, YAAVUM EN GURU
EN AMARAVATHIYEH, BHATHIL YENNA?
VAZHI YENNA? KANANIYAA? MARANAMAA?
SIRU INBAM ANUBAVIKKA IYALAA VAZHKAI
NILAVAI POLL ALLAVAA?
YEIN IVVALAVU VARATCHI
UNMAI PARISAA ALLATHU
ANBIN PINAIPPAA?
INDRU MANNAI VITTU SELVATHE MHEL
PHOGUM IDHAM VEGHU THOORAMILLAI
KADHALIL IRANGGI MUZHUGI
KANMOODI, POI VIDHUVEN NAAN
EN ANBU ISANUDAN/BHAGAWANUDAN
All I wish for right now is DEATH! I welcome the departure to ………………
I have no more love to give. My last battle with baskaran is over and I am done with this barren world. I am going to close my eyes and request for a speedy departure from this barren earth. I am sorry to the footless pigeon, bouginvillas, starlings, sun birds and the sun and the sky___
The green towel may hold an answer to my departure.
Post Script.
I survived that night. I was given home leave the next morning but baskaran would only come in the evening without any change of clothes for me as he wanted me to be imprisoned there for another 2 weeks. The nurses were kind enough to give me a pants and a blouse (I forgot to return them today…I will in 2 weeks time-if I remember- I think I need an assistant…cannot-lah…why?...no money…he!he!) and I was given a splendid spend off by existence, it felt damn good to be in the open that I am still savoring that MOMENT/feeling. Actually I thought of hanging myself using one of the many towels that baskaran had bought for me from the shower head located at the bathroom but decided against it because I just couldn’t ok. So, I came out of my room went to the nurses teary eyed and told them that I am in crisis and that I wanted to die. They immediately called the doctor on call who was praying and she came after 10 minutes. I went back to the room and continued feeling miserable. Then the nurses came and called me out to speak to her and she asked me what stopped me from dying and I told her “FEAR OF WHAT’S AFTER DEATH but I am over coming it”. I liked her because she listened and was very understanding. I felt relieved to have had such conversation/dialogue with her that I was grateful to existence for having her as the doctor on call on that particular night. THANK YOU to me! Look at that…yennaa oru thimir (DT: what one arrogance; not DT: such arrogance).
Anyway, the plights of the birds need to be addressed here. Did you know that there are birds visiting Malaysia from all over the world? They stop by at places like Pulau Kukup in Johor, Cape REchardo of Port Dickson (I think); Kuala Gula of Perak (I think) etc. on their way to south/north/east/west to have some food and vine..oopss…its water. These places are their watering hole (what’s with this word, who coined it? It sounds so funny and does not make sense and yet I use it because I was a Public Relations person before and we are meant to use it…tcheh…no more). I believe many places of interest to these birds have been flattened for buildings and other development projects. Imagine them flying all the way from Russia or China or Alaska – non stop for about 1 month (I think) fantasizing about food in the mud-flats//beaches/etc. of Malaysia and flying earnestly. Then they drop on the particular spot for a rest and look around and it’s a power plant (like in Klang) or a terminal or KLIA (is it?). Poor bastards will have no choice but to just drop dead and volunteer death right? I feel for them.
Did you know what happened to Taej Mundkur? He was sent off to live in Pune by Malaysia and what a lost to our country. He was one of the most passionate ornithologists (waterbird expert) that I have ever met. I learned so much about birds from him. Before I continue, I need to read one of the Wetland Wonders issues that I edited with the help of Dr. Mundkur [(PhD In ornithology) and I propose another phd on human diplomacy) on migratory water birds.
I include following excerpts from Wetland Wonders; issue no.7 published on 29th December 1996 in Sunday Style of the News Straits Times, Peninsular Malaysia.
“A Word from Hemat…
Folks, I just saw a Terek Sandpiper fly by! Yes, we are going bird-watching to get to know our migratory friends. Every year thousands and thousands of birds stop by in Malaysia but are we a good host to them? Read on and find out. This months…”
I lied, I have never gone bird watching as Dr. Mundkur did, I just walked around and saw birds flying around and listened to them, therefore I was not an ardent bird watcher…actually ardent bird watchers like Koji Tanaka, Dr. Joost (it sounds yeos) Van der Van, Mr. John Howes, Mr. John Davies, Tony Sebastian, Rebecca De’Cruz, Mr. Faizal Duncan Parish, Roger Jaench and more and the people at the Bird Club (I think-my head still hurts from the beating) of the Malaysian Nature Society are of a different breed…it’s like a cult…they gather, huddle and hold hands and creep into jungles just to spot a bird and to quietly/silently snap pix of them and pass it around as if its their new born baby…AMAZING people and I love them for that.
You know Koji was with Wetlands International and we were at Costa Rica together with Dr. Sundari, Faizal, Dr. Mundkur, etc. in 1999. He wanted the challenge of snooping into the jungles of Costa Rica to snap a pix of a quadtzel – apparently it’s the most beautiful bird in the whole wide world and an endemic species (only found at Costa Rica) of Costa Rica (I think) – he was so disappointed because it was just sitting on a tree by the road side and he missed creeping and tripping in the beautiful forests of Costa Rica. That’s’ what I mean by it’s a cult, they love the challenge of the forests/jungles.
I too love the challenge but for different reasons, I just love the quiet/peaceful noise of the forests, that I once got lost with my ex-boy friend Devendra and a Thai guide called Nik at the forests located at the border of Thailand/Myanmar - close to a town called Mae Hong Son…another time.
I believe Dr. Joost Van der Van is still creeping/snooping in the forests/jungles of Mongolia looking for a legendary/myth of a white Mongolian Duck – he loved big birds and he too thought me so much especially about wine and japanese food. Another time…he deserves a chapter all by itself…
Actually all conservationist deserve a chapter each but the birds need our attention.
I saw another pigeon at the GH with human hair stuck on both her feet, almost tying the feet together. I tried to call her through the locked bars to release her from her misery but she refused. Then I saw another pigeon without a foot. What does this means? People are ignorant. They don’t know how to care for the environment at the GH’s around the country. The pigeons have no homes to stay just as I was last month that I had to stay at hotels. They are just perched at walls around the hospital being fed unnatural food and provided unnatural environment for themselves just like the inmates of wad-psy-1 of GH, KL.
I involved the whole country because my mother/and pigeons of Kuala Pilah too told me some stories at that town. Apparently the local Malay community had destroyed a pigeon hut/house/hole to build a balai raya (DT: public hall). Since then the pigeons have taken refuge at the nearby GH where I think unnatural food and environment is provided for them. The pigeons told me that they wanted a home at the corner house belonging to a person of Chinese origin located close to the public hall. Can someone help them? Please speak to the owner for a small piece of land. Build a home for the pigeons and pay the owner to feed the pigeons because they liked him otherwise they would not have chosen his house…he’s hardly at home - I think. According to my ma, the owner sells pork at the local market and is a very busy man. Don’t know if he has a wife. Please find out..why? don’t know…I know but I won’t tell because I shy!
They are homeless and miserable and voiceless. I would like to build a home for them but will the owner allow? I am going to speak to him soon. I now have some cash from the Insurance policies that I sold but I won’t tell how much because I don’t want to be advised on how to spend my money. I know you care but I know what I need to survive in this barren earth. I only buy what I need and I can’t conform to buy what you think I need. Thank you anyway.
My plea (se) to the GH management is as I said in my letter… please employ an environmental conservationist to address all issues related to the plants, birds, air, water, sun, atoms, fire, lights, energy, renewable energy, source-less energy, energy-saving-bulbs/lighting, inmates of wad-psy, livable conditions for all, world, universe/multiverse, etc. to address the pressing issues of abuse (mental, physical, …there’s more but I forgot as my head still hurts – perhaps a concussion – no – memory loss – maybe), if I may, in chronological order:
1. Provide homes for all birds in the vicinity of the hospital.
2. Provide bird bath and bath tubs for patients (or patience) / inmates.
3. Water plants/trees.
4. Plug all steam/gas venting holes in the vicinity. Please don’t allow leakage of gases/fumes/water.
5. Change the entire lighting system to energy saving tubes (are there energy saving fluorescent lights or they themselves are energy saving)/lights. Illuminate wards with lights from IKEA.
6. Provide filtered water for all patients/inmates.
7. Remove fire hosts from wards.
8. Never tie patients up and let them soak in their own pee.
9. Ensure that all nurses go for courses on compassion and joy – just recommend them to read or make it wajib (DT: compulsory) to read OSHO’s books on creativity, awareness, joy, compassion, intuition, maturity, courage, intelligence, intimacy, body mind balancing, etc. You can buy them all at Kinokuniya located above the Cinema at Suria Shopping centre KLCC and/or at WWW.OSHO.COM. PLEASE log onto that site and check out all outlets that sell OSHO’s books around the world, also subscribe to their free newsletter as they send articles of such importance to the nurses on a regular basis. Do you have internet facility at the general hospitals? I know that the Pantai Medical Centres were going on-line only in 2001/2002 (is it?). I have a bone to pick with them, another time…
10. Just employ me.
Good morning and the call of the cocks (chicken are awake as it is 5.57am now) around this areas is so sweet and heartening. Wake Up and Smell the Coffee Kuala Lumpur/Malaysia. I am back with venom and vengeance. Is it? Or back with more love and compassion? Let’s see how I treat baskaran today…he said he will take some time out to see me this evening. Since Pavin is also visiting me today, I may reside in my heart and you and baskaran may be spared. Ha!ha!ha! Good morning and I love you all earth people of the world/universe/multiverse.
“I am too bullied to do the translation from Tamil to Englsih, please help yourselves”
The following flowed at the war-psy-1 (ward-psychiatry-1) of the General Hospital located at Kuala Lumpur. I was arrested by the police and kept at waiting room of a lock-up for 2 hours and then sent hand cuffed (at the back and the cuffs were tinged with pepper spray) to the hospital where I was dragged and dumped at a padded cell like a wild animal ( I just sat quietly on the hard cold floor, hand cuffed and all and meditated quietly). I spent 8 days and 8 nights there. I was arrested because 3 men of Indian origin, a female of Indian origin and a male of Chinese origin pushed/prodded/shouted/yelled/called-all-dirty-words-in-tamil-and-malay. I sprayed pepper spray on all Indians as the Chinese had left the building by then, as a result I was hit on the head by the Indian man with a plastic yellow colored chair that my head still hurts. It happened on 11th June 2007 noon or morning (unsure). I got myself to the Ampang Puteri Specialist Hospital (half way through a kind gentlemen drove me there as I welfetl like faignting – almist blackede outa.f.dd,aoirqtil.,”;frtjpp that’s another story… Birds and Pigeons first before we speak about them and me and us.
Post script: 15th June 2007; dusk/night time; too drugged to notice much at that time…
Dear Diary,
· This pen sucks! Pink color – can you imagine? The staff here are nice today. Thye returned my UHT Dutch Lady Low Fat Chocolate Milk. Why? It ‘s so cold coz the fan is at high speed and is freezing my hairless skull. I once read:-
· “All heads are beautiful but the rest are covered with hair” hah!ha!ha! What a joke.
· “wa ai tanni ah wa ai tanni” (post script-when baskaran read this line, he was only interested in the word ‘tanni’ - DT – tamil colloquial way of way of saying alcohol –inilah yang dikatakan[(DT: this-lah is said; not DT: this is the meaning of) PROJECTION. =We see what we want to see and are so close sighted that we can’t see the way others view stuff]. By the way, is the moon real or just a projected hologram/light on the night/day sky?).
· “wa ai tanni ah wa ai tanni” (is a Chinese song that means…what ah?) sings a fellow inmate Pn. Mazna. She’s singing to another Chinese inmate ____________. Raja Khadijah and Sabariah are eating the chapatti that my husband whom I am trying to get rid off, baskaran bought earlier this evening. I don’t know why I am here. Sabariah just banged onto one of my crossed legs (right foot). I think Raja Khadijah who calls herself king is in infatuated with me. Perhaps this is how Baskaran’s (I am typing all as I wrote it at wad-psy-1 [ward-psychiatry-1] of the Kuala Lumpur General Hospital) relationship with Baharom started.
· I am planning to meet Mr. Karpal Singh on Tuesday (post script: Tuesday; 19th June 2007; He is a famed lawyer of the opposition political party called DAP – forgot) but I don’t know how? My drug given by the nurses ABILIFY-10mg & T.CLONAZEPAM (1mg yesterday and 0.5mg today [postscript: upon severe request from me and myselves]) is beginning to work. Rather drowsy. (P/s – Karpal Singhs PA Evelyn asked me to call him this week as he’s busy with the Altantuya Sharibu murder case against the police – is it?).
· Anotiniamma (post script: aka [also known as] Jane), the ward backbone is drying Kogilas hair under the fan. She’s a real do-gooder.
· The food here is nice. I think food in Malaysia nothing to complain about – dunno-lah!
· I don’t like this pen that baskaran has bought for me. He bought another blue pen which I have returned coz I only wanted 1 and he’s trying to spoil me again by giving unnecessary & excessive stuff instead of returning.
· Maisy Cheah – nursing golden cares at 106, Jalan Gasing wants hymn book and bible left at bottom drawer and she want me to help her collect it. How? She wants me to ask my brother who is coming to see me tomorrow morning…
· I am so happy to see my UHT Low Fat Dutch Lady Chocolate Milk back in my drawer. It’s a sure sign that I am beginning to be accepted by the nurses here. I feel happier here. However I am looking forward to going home to prepare my CV to start work at WWFM – World Wildlife Find for Nature Conservation Malaysia – traffic team, if I am accepted because I’ve been and am still at psychiatric ward of the Malaysian Government. Who will accept me a mental patient/inmate to work with them? Now I am sad. I hope Dr. Kamisah will help me give a good report. She’s a wonderful woman who listens to me. I hope the nurses won’t touch my body in my drugged stupor.
· p/s last night, I left my pen in my shirt pocket but in the morning I found it in my bag left in the custody of nurses… How uh!
· 16th June ’07 7.05am. It has been 5 days since I came to this prison. Life gets more and more depressing as I can breath well due to the walls that are closing in on me.
· Post script: Oh! My! Gosh! Aiyoh kadavuleh (DT & not DT: Oh My God), like a boltning of lightining, I just got it,our next task is to safe all the peigeons..ssorry…birds in Malaysia and to start with pigeons in the General Hospital of Kuala Lumpur and Kuala Pilah…they told me what to do and I just got the message…aip; oh! I blame the drugs for this ssslllloooowwwwww-ness…sorry docs.
· Post script: U know, I saw a footless pigeon at the hospital when I was awarded the psychiatric treatment and on the last night/evening, and at night, I was actually contemplating suicide…I stop the above mentioned writings and go straight to the point – to the last day of my stay at the wad-psy-1 of the General Hospital (GH) of Kuala Lumpur (KL).
18/6/07-Monday (Time? Night time after azan prayers)
1st class – wad-psy-1, GH, KL
I am now locked into a tiny space that can now be considered my new home. I am sitting on my single bed looking out window with bars and locked…actually I am too sad to write in English today as I want to express myself in Tamil. I think that in my deepest sorrow, Tamil language is my only solace.
Baskaran refused to bring my notebook OSHO despite me having permission from the ‘sister’ – nurse in blue uniform. I am still crying in my heart or rather my heart is in paid (Post script: PAIN; I NEED TO go on Tamil here…apologies if you don’t understand but I think you should get a Tamil/English Dictionary…ooopppsss…sorry if you don’t understand Tamil…please get it translated, if I am in a good mood, I will/may translate and post it another time or maybe later in the morning…dunno-lah! Lets see how the flow goes at the end…did you know that I used to have another name: Thamilmany; my full name used to be AMARAVATHY @ THAMILMANY d/o SIVALINGAM until a kind officer of the Givernment dropped the 2nd name; the first name belonged to my fathers mother – my grandmoa…another time, now its my turn…I AM Romanizing the tamil writing coz don’t know how to type in tamil):-
IRAIVAA NEEYEH VARUVAAI THAANE,
POGUM UYIRAI THADAI SEIVAYEH,
UYIR VENDUM UDALUKKAAGA,
EN UDHAL VHENDUM UYIRUKKAAGA,
PALAMURAI POGEH VHENDIYEH NAAN,
POGEH MUDYAAMAL THANGGINEN, KAARANAM
EN UDHAL MEL KATHAL, ANBU, PANBU,
EN UDHAL EN IRAIVAN, EN GURU,
EN YAAVUM EN UDHALEH,
POOVULAGHIL MAABERUM SHAKTI KONDA
KADAVUL EN UDHAL,
AASAI THEERAMAL AVALAI VITTU PIRIVATHU
YEPPADI,
MUDHIYAVILLAI, PAARIYIL UDHALUKKU
ONDRU MILLAA IDHAI
THEVAI KANANI, VERONDRUM ILLAI,
THARAMAATHEIN YENBATHU YEIN?
VARATTHU GOWRAWAM, THAAN YENDRA THIMIR,
AGAMBHAWAM, PORAAMAI YENDRA ARAKKAN
AVAN AZHIYA, NAAN VAZHA ALLA,
NAAN AZHIYA, AVAN VAZHA,
KANTHAA, KADAMBAA, KATHIRVELAVANEH,
EESAAH, MAINTHAA, MARAI NAYAGHANEH,
EN UYIRUKKUM UYIRAANE BHAGAWHANEH,
EN ANBU OSHO THEIVAMEH,
EN MAHAANEH, YAAVUM EN GURU
EN AMARAVATHIYEH, BHATHIL YENNA?
VAZHI YENNA? KANANIYAA? MARANAMAA?
SIRU INBAM ANUBAVIKKA IYALAA VAZHKAI
NILAVAI POLL ALLAVAA?
YEIN IVVALAVU VARATCHI
UNMAI PARISAA ALLATHU
ANBIN PINAIPPAA?
INDRU MANNAI VITTU SELVATHE MHEL
PHOGUM IDHAM VEGHU THOORAMILLAI
KADHALIL IRANGGI MUZHUGI
KANMOODI, POI VIDHUVEN NAAN
EN ANBU ISANUDAN/BHAGAWANUDAN
All I wish for right now is DEATH! I welcome the departure to ………………
I have no more love to give. My last battle with baskaran is over and I am done with this barren world. I am going to close my eyes and request for a speedy departure from this barren earth. I am sorry to the footless pigeon, bouginvillas, starlings, sun birds and the sun and the sky___
The green towel may hold an answer to my departure.
Post Script.
I survived that night. I was given home leave the next morning but baskaran would only come in the evening without any change of clothes for me as he wanted me to be imprisoned there for another 2 weeks. The nurses were kind enough to give me a pants and a blouse (I forgot to return them today…I will in 2 weeks time-if I remember- I think I need an assistant…cannot-lah…why?...no money…he!he!) and I was given a splendid spend off by existence, it felt damn good to be in the open that I am still savoring that MOMENT/feeling. Actually I thought of hanging myself using one of the many towels that baskaran had bought for me from the shower head located at the bathroom but decided against it because I just couldn’t ok. So, I came out of my room went to the nurses teary eyed and told them that I am in crisis and that I wanted to die. They immediately called the doctor on call who was praying and she came after 10 minutes. I went back to the room and continued feeling miserable. Then the nurses came and called me out to speak to her and she asked me what stopped me from dying and I told her “FEAR OF WHAT’S AFTER DEATH but I am over coming it”. I liked her because she listened and was very understanding. I felt relieved to have had such conversation/dialogue with her that I was grateful to existence for having her as the doctor on call on that particular night. THANK YOU to me! Look at that…yennaa oru thimir (DT: what one arrogance; not DT: such arrogance).
Anyway, the plights of the birds need to be addressed here. Did you know that there are birds visiting Malaysia from all over the world? They stop by at places like Pulau Kukup in Johor, Cape REchardo of Port Dickson (I think); Kuala Gula of Perak (I think) etc. on their way to south/north/east/west to have some food and vine..oopss…its water. These places are their watering hole (what’s with this word, who coined it? It sounds so funny and does not make sense and yet I use it because I was a Public Relations person before and we are meant to use it…tcheh…no more). I believe many places of interest to these birds have been flattened for buildings and other development projects. Imagine them flying all the way from Russia or China or Alaska – non stop for about 1 month (I think) fantasizing about food in the mud-flats//beaches/etc. of Malaysia and flying earnestly. Then they drop on the particular spot for a rest and look around and it’s a power plant (like in Klang) or a terminal or KLIA (is it?). Poor bastards will have no choice but to just drop dead and volunteer death right? I feel for them.
Did you know what happened to Taej Mundkur? He was sent off to live in Pune by Malaysia and what a lost to our country. He was one of the most passionate ornithologists (waterbird expert) that I have ever met. I learned so much about birds from him. Before I continue, I need to read one of the Wetland Wonders issues that I edited with the help of Dr. Mundkur [(PhD In ornithology) and I propose another phd on human diplomacy) on migratory water birds.
I include following excerpts from Wetland Wonders; issue no.7 published on 29th December 1996 in Sunday Style of the News Straits Times, Peninsular Malaysia.
“A Word from Hemat…
Folks, I just saw a Terek Sandpiper fly by! Yes, we are going bird-watching to get to know our migratory friends. Every year thousands and thousands of birds stop by in Malaysia but are we a good host to them? Read on and find out. This months…”
I lied, I have never gone bird watching as Dr. Mundkur did, I just walked around and saw birds flying around and listened to them, therefore I was not an ardent bird watcher…actually ardent bird watchers like Koji Tanaka, Dr. Joost (it sounds yeos) Van der Van, Mr. John Howes, Mr. John Davies, Tony Sebastian, Rebecca De’Cruz, Mr. Faizal Duncan Parish, Roger Jaench and more and the people at the Bird Club (I think-my head still hurts from the beating) of the Malaysian Nature Society are of a different breed…it’s like a cult…they gather, huddle and hold hands and creep into jungles just to spot a bird and to quietly/silently snap pix of them and pass it around as if its their new born baby…AMAZING people and I love them for that.
You know Koji was with Wetlands International and we were at Costa Rica together with Dr. Sundari, Faizal, Dr. Mundkur, etc. in 1999. He wanted the challenge of snooping into the jungles of Costa Rica to snap a pix of a quadtzel – apparently it’s the most beautiful bird in the whole wide world and an endemic species (only found at Costa Rica) of Costa Rica (I think) – he was so disappointed because it was just sitting on a tree by the road side and he missed creeping and tripping in the beautiful forests of Costa Rica. That’s’ what I mean by it’s a cult, they love the challenge of the forests/jungles.
I too love the challenge but for different reasons, I just love the quiet/peaceful noise of the forests, that I once got lost with my ex-boy friend Devendra and a Thai guide called Nik at the forests located at the border of Thailand/Myanmar - close to a town called Mae Hong Son…another time.
I believe Dr. Joost Van der Van is still creeping/snooping in the forests/jungles of Mongolia looking for a legendary/myth of a white Mongolian Duck – he loved big birds and he too thought me so much especially about wine and japanese food. Another time…he deserves a chapter all by itself…
Actually all conservationist deserve a chapter each but the birds need our attention.
I saw another pigeon at the GH with human hair stuck on both her feet, almost tying the feet together. I tried to call her through the locked bars to release her from her misery but she refused. Then I saw another pigeon without a foot. What does this means? People are ignorant. They don’t know how to care for the environment at the GH’s around the country. The pigeons have no homes to stay just as I was last month that I had to stay at hotels. They are just perched at walls around the hospital being fed unnatural food and provided unnatural environment for themselves just like the inmates of wad-psy-1 of GH, KL.
I involved the whole country because my mother/and pigeons of Kuala Pilah too told me some stories at that town. Apparently the local Malay community had destroyed a pigeon hut/house/hole to build a balai raya (DT: public hall). Since then the pigeons have taken refuge at the nearby GH where I think unnatural food and environment is provided for them. The pigeons told me that they wanted a home at the corner house belonging to a person of Chinese origin located close to the public hall. Can someone help them? Please speak to the owner for a small piece of land. Build a home for the pigeons and pay the owner to feed the pigeons because they liked him otherwise they would not have chosen his house…he’s hardly at home - I think. According to my ma, the owner sells pork at the local market and is a very busy man. Don’t know if he has a wife. Please find out..why? don’t know…I know but I won’t tell because I shy!
They are homeless and miserable and voiceless. I would like to build a home for them but will the owner allow? I am going to speak to him soon. I now have some cash from the Insurance policies that I sold but I won’t tell how much because I don’t want to be advised on how to spend my money. I know you care but I know what I need to survive in this barren earth. I only buy what I need and I can’t conform to buy what you think I need. Thank you anyway.
My plea (se) to the GH management is as I said in my letter… please employ an environmental conservationist to address all issues related to the plants, birds, air, water, sun, atoms, fire, lights, energy, renewable energy, source-less energy, energy-saving-bulbs/lighting, inmates of wad-psy, livable conditions for all, world, universe/multiverse, etc. to address the pressing issues of abuse (mental, physical, …there’s more but I forgot as my head still hurts – perhaps a concussion – no – memory loss – maybe), if I may, in chronological order:
1. Provide homes for all birds in the vicinity of the hospital.
2. Provide bird bath and bath tubs for patients (or patience) / inmates.
3. Water plants/trees.
4. Plug all steam/gas venting holes in the vicinity. Please don’t allow leakage of gases/fumes/water.
5. Change the entire lighting system to energy saving tubes (are there energy saving fluorescent lights or they themselves are energy saving)/lights. Illuminate wards with lights from IKEA.
6. Provide filtered water for all patients/inmates.
7. Remove fire hosts from wards.
8. Never tie patients up and let them soak in their own pee.
9. Ensure that all nurses go for courses on compassion and joy – just recommend them to read or make it wajib (DT: compulsory) to read OSHO’s books on creativity, awareness, joy, compassion, intuition, maturity, courage, intelligence, intimacy, body mind balancing, etc. You can buy them all at Kinokuniya located above the Cinema at Suria Shopping centre KLCC and/or at WWW.OSHO.COM. PLEASE log onto that site and check out all outlets that sell OSHO’s books around the world, also subscribe to their free newsletter as they send articles of such importance to the nurses on a regular basis. Do you have internet facility at the general hospitals? I know that the Pantai Medical Centres were going on-line only in 2001/2002 (is it?). I have a bone to pick with them, another time…
10. Just employ me.
Good morning and the call of the cocks (chicken are awake as it is 5.57am now) around this areas is so sweet and heartening. Wake Up and Smell the Coffee Kuala Lumpur/Malaysia. I am back with venom and vengeance. Is it? Or back with more love and compassion? Let’s see how I treat baskaran today…he said he will take some time out to see me this evening. Since Pavin is also visiting me today, I may reside in my heart and you and baskaran may be spared. Ha!ha!ha! Good morning and I love you all earth people of the world/universe/multiverse.
“I am too bullied to do the translation from Tamil to Englsih, please help yourselves”
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Dear Friends
Dear Friends/People of the Earth (not universe/multiverse as I may other messages for them),
Finally I am enclosing the proposal that I prepared for the Toyota Foundation of Japan for your reading pleasure. I prepared this in May 2007 for the Global Environment Centre. I don't know if this version reached Japan.
I have posted some writings/musings/experiences for your reading pleasure. Please read 'Renewable Energy' until the end as it has important message for humankind. Also please excuse the vulgarity and silly/gibberish writings in between, just absorb the message...
Please read my other blogs at:
amaravathy2.blogspot.com
amaravathy3.blogspot.com
amaravathynone.blogspot.com
rojak-malaysia.blogspot.com
SambalPetali.blogspot.com
I have many sites because I was/am still not blog savvy, am still evolving ma...(the word 'ma' at the end of a sentence is a chinese colloquail way of saying it in Malaysia; if it is 'kah' or 'lah' then it is a malay way of saying it in Malaysia; 'aiyoh' is a famous way of saying oh! my! gosh! in tamil = I represent all).
In all my writings 'DT' means 'Direct Translation' and 'not DT' means 'not direct translation'. Please learn along with me.
A voice said earlier that I am giving absolute power to US by criticizing them too much; my argument is that aren't/weren't they?
Another is asking for play station but not now; another time, when I sell the other insurance policy of mine, I may consider getting one...what do you think?
PROPOSAL FOR toyota foundation of Japan (tolong [dt:please said very humbly in malay language] read through as I have important message to impart with the people of the earth].
COVER SHEET
1. Cover Sheet
Project Coordinator:
Address:
Tel:
Fax:
Email:
Alternate Contact person:
Address:
Tel:
Fax:
Email:
Amount of Grant requested: ¥5 million (RM147,468)
Project Title:
Unlocking Asia’s Potential through An Environmental Network of Civil Society Organisations
2. Project summary
(1) Objective of network formation and reasons (why is there a need to shed light on the issue that has until now been overlooked? What kind of network needs to be formed to shed light on this issue and to illuminate a path for addressing it? Why? At what stage is the network that will be built in this project (formation or development)?
Southeast Asia houses 500 million people in an area of 4.5 million square kilometres that comprises of a wide variety of eco-systems. The Southeast Asian region is proud to contain 2 of the 13 mega diversity countries in the world: Malaysia and Indonesia. Nevertheless issues related to the environment have always taken the backseat in this region as it has to address the pressing need for poverty alleviation.
Since 1997, Southeast Asian region have been facing serious environmental problems related to the climate change and loss of biodiversity. This is due to forest and peatland clearing for food production. Fires that have been raging across the regions forest and peatlands release huge amounts of Carbon into the atmosphere.
As a result, the global environment is at stake as the hole in the ozone layer continues to deteriorate. At the regional level, countries are suffering from trans-boundary haze problem that is affecting human health. Heavy loss of bio-diversity is faced at local levels, i.e. the orang utan, an endemic species of this region is now endangered. (Faizal, is this information accurate?).
To combat issues related to the environment in the region, an Environmental Network of Civil Society Organisations was formed to address the two most important environmental themes that requires urgent attention: the Climate Change and Bio-Diversity loss.
The Network aims to strengthen the linkages and capacities (through training, seminars, field trips, etc.) of CSOs in the region to enhance synergies and approaches to environmental protection and sustainable development. It is also aimed to enhance communication between ASEAN CSOs through face-face meetings, print materials and a web portal to shed light on issues related to climate change and biodiversity that has until now been overlooked. .
The Network will provide workable solution to address challenges that will be faced in combating these overlooked issues. These issues are considered ‘overlooked’ because they are still persistent in the current year of 2007. The ozone layer continues to deteriorate and the local bio-diversity is reducing at an alarming rate.
Since the network is still at an infant stage, its title and the full details of its working mechanisms have yet to be confirmed. The Network is expected to be formalised in September 2007 during the _________________________.(this information is not in the Draft Report of CSOs ...pls. fill in.)
(2) Content of network and method of formation (what are the special features of the proposed network formation process? In what aspects of the process is its originality to be found? What novel ideas will be used in creating the mechanisms of the network?)
The Association of Southeast Asian Nations or ASEAN was established on 8 August 1967 with current membership consisting of 10 countries (annex 1) to provide an avenue for its members to share wisdom (collaboration) and coexist while accepting each other’s individuality and distinctive qualities (diversity). Nevertheless issues related to the environment have always taken the backseat in the ASEAN as it had to address the pressing need for poverty alleviation.
The ASEAN have always tried to address issues related to the environment through the ASEAN Senior Officials on the Environment (ASOEN) with assistance from the Civil Society Organisations (CSOs) around the region. Having recognised the importance of CSOs, in August 2005, during the meeting on environment (pls write the full title of the meeting), the ASOEN approved a concept proposal on ASEAN Civil Society Organisations Consultative Forum on Environmental Protection and Sustainable Development prepared by the Global Environment Centre (is this information accurate?).
(I would like for us to attach the proposal as an annex but my concern is that we mentioned that “CSOs interaction with ASEAN is limited/non-existent”.. in my opinion this would reflect negatively on us, the CSOs and the ASEAN – pls. advice).
As a result, the Environmental Network of Civil Society Organisations was formed to combat issues related to the environment in the region (among others).
At the follow-up meeting in September 2007, national focal points from all 10 member countries (annex __) and the ASEAN secretariat will form a Project Steering Committee (PSC) to ___________________ (pls advice on the role of the PSC).
It is envisaged that a web portal will be created to facilitate communication between organizations and individuals and will act as a central point for information sharing to shed light on issues that the ASEAN region faces and uncover methods to address them. Annual meetings will be held by the PSC to discuss workplans for the year.
The ASEAN Civil Society Organisations Consultative Forum on Environmental Protection and Sustainable Development was organised by the Malaysian Environmental Non-Governmental Organisations (MeNGO) and the Global Environment Centre in collaboration with the ASEAN Secretariat with funding from United States Agency for International Development (USAID) and the Hanns Seidel Foundation (Is this info.correct?)
(3). Organizations and individuals who will participate in the network (backgrounds of the organisations and individuals who will participate in the network and roles they will play in the project, incl. info of names, orgs and ages).
All CSOs in the 10 ASEAN countries are participating in the Network (Annex………) (Isn’t this true? Are there CSOs whom are against this idea?). (Mr. Chee, do we have a complete list of all CSOs in the ASEAN region?) The Global Environment Centre has been appointed by the organizing committee to act as the Interim Secretariat until December 2007 and is supported by the ASEAN Secretariat, USAID and the Hanns Seidel Foundation.
3. Anticipated Benefits (1 or 2 pages)
The Environmental Network of Civil Society Organisations (CSOs) was formed to address the two most important environmental themes that deserve urgent attention: the Climate Change and the rapid loss of Bio-Diversity.
As of today, the environment of Southeast Asia was not represented well as it was not given adequate importance. As such the formation of the Environmental Network of Civil Society Organisations (CSOs) is absolutely important as it has created a platform for the environment to have a voice in the regional political arena. Having an Environmental Network that is supported by the ASEAN Secretariat and various funding agencies will pave way for combating major global environmental issues that are plaguing the earth such as the ozone layer depletion caused by excessive carbon emission and the loss of biodiversity.
The Network will meet once a year to discuss common trans-boundary environmental issues and act as a centre for information exchange. During these meetings, the Network will bring together experts in related fields to build capacity of its members to be flexible and take quick action on issues related to the environment that needs urgent attention such as peatland forest fires and deforestation.
In addition the CSOs will be informed of the global environmental status and the outcomes of International Conventions on the Environment such as the United Nations Framework Convention on Climate Change and the Convention on Bio-Diversity and its relevance to the respective member countries.
One of the common constraints faced by CSOs in the region is poor access to financial resources. As such the Network will build capacity of its member countries on the accessibility of international funds and ways to approach international donors for issues related to the environment in the Southeast Asia region.
It will develop collaborative partnership to address relative environmental issues and mobilize communities and grass root support for immediate action, avoiding all bureaucratic red-tape that commonly involves political decision making.
Since the Network comprises of diverse cultured environmental NGOs and Civil Societies, it is envisaged to use creative and innovative methods to address complicated issues using limited resources.
Many CSOs in the region are at a lost when it comes to accessing information related to the global environmental development, sustainable development and expertise on environmental conservation and protection. As such the Network will build capacity of CSOs through trainings, seminars and field trips to combat forest fires, deforestation and teach its member countries on how to monitor and report rapidly.
In addition a web-portal will be developed linking all member countries through an electronic forum to keep information exchange and communications flowing and to keep its members active on a day to day basis.
4. Future Prospects (1 or 2 pages)
The proposed vision of the Network is “An environmentally sustainable ASEAN that promotes the well-being of its people and global environment through strong partnership between civil society organisations, governments and other stakeholders in the region”.
The Network will bring together various agencies to combat common global environmental issues in the most effective and efficient way.
As such it is envisaged that the Network will receive appropriate funding to carry out its important mission so that it can grow to be strong and its voice can be heard at the United Nations Environmental Forums and bring global attention to Southeast Asia – the neglected part of the world. Hence address the deterioration of the ozone layer and the rapid loss of our bio-diversity that consist of precious animals and plants; as we have only one common home to share.
It is hoped that the Network will receive adequate funds to conduct a global awareness campaign using international media and international celebrities to enhance awareness on the importance of stopping the usage of cloroflorocarbon (CFC) that is causing the hole in the ozone layer. The Network believes that a small step by common man can make a big difference.
It should be noted that the information related to products that emit CFC is still limited. Such information need to be disseminated to the general public and producers of products containing CFCs will need to be taken to task and pay for the damage they are causing to our beloved Earth.
As a long term plan, the Network will reduce (if not stop completely) the usage/availability of CFC so that the ozone layer will repair itself and assume its role of protecting Earths’ fragile environment from harmful sun-rays and save our sky.
5. Schedule
November 2007 – October 2009.
November 2007 and the network is proposed to be formally established in November 2007 – coinciding with the starting date for the Toyota Foundation Grant.
The grant will support the initial two years of operation of the regional network.
November 2007 - as soon as we are awarded the grant, a
WORKSHOP ON NATIONAL CAPACITY SELF-ASSESSMENT FOR CLIMATE CHANGE AND BIO-DIVERSITY or
WORKSHOP ON HOW TO SAFE OUR SKY AND BIO-DIVERSITY will be conducted. (please advice).
A 4-day workshop to will be conducted at Sumatera, Indonesia (an important site that needs immediate attention to combat forest fires) to:
- Formalise CSO.
- Assess the availability of national experts whom can provide technical advice on how to safe our sky and our bio-diversity in member countries.
- Provide information related to global environmental development and sustainable development to member countries.
- Assess the availability of Information Technology infrastructure amongst member countries for the development of a regional web portal on climate change and bio-diversity.
- Collate a database of electronic network linkages on how to safe our sky and bio-diversity that will be linked to the web portal.
- Assess the viability of conducting a capacity building program to combat forest fires and deforestation amongst member countries
- Provide information on how to monitor and report forest fires.
- Conduct a field trip to a forest that is on fire to actually understand the urgency required to address problems related to climate change and loss of bio-diversity. We need to see the dying plants and animals to feel for the environment to take immediate actions.
2nd February 2008 – World Wetlands Day to combat forest fires and save our sky and bio-diversity.
The Regional Web Portal on Climate Change and Bio-Diversity will officially be launched in conjunction with the World Wetlands Days at Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. This event will be organised in collaboration with the Department of Environment, Malaysia as they are actively campaigning against the usage of cloro-floro-carbon (CFC) with the theme “Save Our Sky”. (Faizal, do we work with the DOE?)
As a follow-up, a 1 week course on fund raising and communication will be held for member countries on the accessibility of national/international funds and ways to approach national/international donors for issues related to the environment in the Southeast Asian region. (Faizal – can we link this with Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman?)
Faizal – there’s so much need to be done for the CSOs. I think the RM147,468 grant by Toyota is sufficient for the 2 activities mentioned above. What do you think? In addition to USAIDS and Hanns Siedel Foundation, are there any other funding agencies that we can approach to support the CSO?
6. Budget and Grants
a. Holding Meetings (expenses for workshops, etc., including participants travel) :
b. Information distribution (mail, website creation, including outsourced work) :
c. Honoraria to people who cooperate with project :
d. Honoraria to project assistants :
e. Domestic travel :
f. Overseas travel :
g. Equipment and furniture :
h. Fees for commissioned work :
i. Rent :
j. Documents and materials :
k. Printing and copying :
l. Supplies :
m. Other expenses :
n. Total budget :
7. Project Coordinator
8. Reason why a Toyota Foundation Grant is needed?
(Why is funding from a private foundation necessary?)
The loss of ozone layer means annihilation of the human race and all that we love. We need all the funds available for the environment to protect the thin layer of atmosphere that is protecting human race. Most of the Southeast Asian governments are still combating poverty alleviation. As such funding from private foundations are absolutely necessary to address challenges related to the environment, especially the climate change as it involves the entire human race.
Toyota Foundation have always cared for the well being of the earth and its people by providing funds to minority groups who need it most. As such we believe that the voice of the neglected Southeast Asia will be heard and the importance of protecting the ozone layer will be felt as much as the minority CSOs in the region.
Let’s join hands in saving our sky.
Finally I am enclosing the proposal that I prepared for the Toyota Foundation of Japan for your reading pleasure. I prepared this in May 2007 for the Global Environment Centre. I don't know if this version reached Japan.
I have posted some writings/musings/experiences for your reading pleasure. Please read 'Renewable Energy' until the end as it has important message for humankind. Also please excuse the vulgarity and silly/gibberish writings in between, just absorb the message...
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PROPOSAL FOR toyota foundation of Japan (tolong [dt:please said very humbly in malay language] read through as I have important message to impart with the people of the earth].
COVER SHEET
1. Cover Sheet
Project Coordinator:
Address:
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Fax:
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Alternate Contact person:
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Fax:
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Amount of Grant requested: ¥5 million (RM147,468)
Project Title:
Unlocking Asia’s Potential through An Environmental Network of Civil Society Organisations
2. Project summary
(1) Objective of network formation and reasons (why is there a need to shed light on the issue that has until now been overlooked? What kind of network needs to be formed to shed light on this issue and to illuminate a path for addressing it? Why? At what stage is the network that will be built in this project (formation or development)?
Southeast Asia houses 500 million people in an area of 4.5 million square kilometres that comprises of a wide variety of eco-systems. The Southeast Asian region is proud to contain 2 of the 13 mega diversity countries in the world: Malaysia and Indonesia. Nevertheless issues related to the environment have always taken the backseat in this region as it has to address the pressing need for poverty alleviation.
Since 1997, Southeast Asian region have been facing serious environmental problems related to the climate change and loss of biodiversity. This is due to forest and peatland clearing for food production. Fires that have been raging across the regions forest and peatlands release huge amounts of Carbon into the atmosphere.
As a result, the global environment is at stake as the hole in the ozone layer continues to deteriorate. At the regional level, countries are suffering from trans-boundary haze problem that is affecting human health. Heavy loss of bio-diversity is faced at local levels, i.e. the orang utan, an endemic species of this region is now endangered. (Faizal, is this information accurate?).
To combat issues related to the environment in the region, an Environmental Network of Civil Society Organisations was formed to address the two most important environmental themes that requires urgent attention: the Climate Change and Bio-Diversity loss.
The Network aims to strengthen the linkages and capacities (through training, seminars, field trips, etc.) of CSOs in the region to enhance synergies and approaches to environmental protection and sustainable development. It is also aimed to enhance communication between ASEAN CSOs through face-face meetings, print materials and a web portal to shed light on issues related to climate change and biodiversity that has until now been overlooked. .
The Network will provide workable solution to address challenges that will be faced in combating these overlooked issues. These issues are considered ‘overlooked’ because they are still persistent in the current year of 2007. The ozone layer continues to deteriorate and the local bio-diversity is reducing at an alarming rate.
Since the network is still at an infant stage, its title and the full details of its working mechanisms have yet to be confirmed. The Network is expected to be formalised in September 2007 during the _________________________.(this information is not in the Draft Report of CSOs ...pls. fill in.)
(2) Content of network and method of formation (what are the special features of the proposed network formation process? In what aspects of the process is its originality to be found? What novel ideas will be used in creating the mechanisms of the network?)
The Association of Southeast Asian Nations or ASEAN was established on 8 August 1967 with current membership consisting of 10 countries (annex 1) to provide an avenue for its members to share wisdom (collaboration) and coexist while accepting each other’s individuality and distinctive qualities (diversity). Nevertheless issues related to the environment have always taken the backseat in the ASEAN as it had to address the pressing need for poverty alleviation.
The ASEAN have always tried to address issues related to the environment through the ASEAN Senior Officials on the Environment (ASOEN) with assistance from the Civil Society Organisations (CSOs) around the region. Having recognised the importance of CSOs, in August 2005, during the meeting on environment (pls write the full title of the meeting), the ASOEN approved a concept proposal on ASEAN Civil Society Organisations Consultative Forum on Environmental Protection and Sustainable Development prepared by the Global Environment Centre (is this information accurate?).
(I would like for us to attach the proposal as an annex but my concern is that we mentioned that “CSOs interaction with ASEAN is limited/non-existent”.. in my opinion this would reflect negatively on us, the CSOs and the ASEAN – pls. advice).
As a result, the Environmental Network of Civil Society Organisations was formed to combat issues related to the environment in the region (among others).
At the follow-up meeting in September 2007, national focal points from all 10 member countries (annex __) and the ASEAN secretariat will form a Project Steering Committee (PSC) to ___________________ (pls advice on the role of the PSC).
It is envisaged that a web portal will be created to facilitate communication between organizations and individuals and will act as a central point for information sharing to shed light on issues that the ASEAN region faces and uncover methods to address them. Annual meetings will be held by the PSC to discuss workplans for the year.
The ASEAN Civil Society Organisations Consultative Forum on Environmental Protection and Sustainable Development was organised by the Malaysian Environmental Non-Governmental Organisations (MeNGO) and the Global Environment Centre in collaboration with the ASEAN Secretariat with funding from United States Agency for International Development (USAID) and the Hanns Seidel Foundation (Is this info.correct?)
(3). Organizations and individuals who will participate in the network (backgrounds of the organisations and individuals who will participate in the network and roles they will play in the project, incl. info of names, orgs and ages).
All CSOs in the 10 ASEAN countries are participating in the Network (Annex………) (Isn’t this true? Are there CSOs whom are against this idea?). (Mr. Chee, do we have a complete list of all CSOs in the ASEAN region?) The Global Environment Centre has been appointed by the organizing committee to act as the Interim Secretariat until December 2007 and is supported by the ASEAN Secretariat, USAID and the Hanns Seidel Foundation.
3. Anticipated Benefits (1 or 2 pages)
The Environmental Network of Civil Society Organisations (CSOs) was formed to address the two most important environmental themes that deserve urgent attention: the Climate Change and the rapid loss of Bio-Diversity.
As of today, the environment of Southeast Asia was not represented well as it was not given adequate importance. As such the formation of the Environmental Network of Civil Society Organisations (CSOs) is absolutely important as it has created a platform for the environment to have a voice in the regional political arena. Having an Environmental Network that is supported by the ASEAN Secretariat and various funding agencies will pave way for combating major global environmental issues that are plaguing the earth such as the ozone layer depletion caused by excessive carbon emission and the loss of biodiversity.
The Network will meet once a year to discuss common trans-boundary environmental issues and act as a centre for information exchange. During these meetings, the Network will bring together experts in related fields to build capacity of its members to be flexible and take quick action on issues related to the environment that needs urgent attention such as peatland forest fires and deforestation.
In addition the CSOs will be informed of the global environmental status and the outcomes of International Conventions on the Environment such as the United Nations Framework Convention on Climate Change and the Convention on Bio-Diversity and its relevance to the respective member countries.
One of the common constraints faced by CSOs in the region is poor access to financial resources. As such the Network will build capacity of its member countries on the accessibility of international funds and ways to approach international donors for issues related to the environment in the Southeast Asia region.
It will develop collaborative partnership to address relative environmental issues and mobilize communities and grass root support for immediate action, avoiding all bureaucratic red-tape that commonly involves political decision making.
Since the Network comprises of diverse cultured environmental NGOs and Civil Societies, it is envisaged to use creative and innovative methods to address complicated issues using limited resources.
Many CSOs in the region are at a lost when it comes to accessing information related to the global environmental development, sustainable development and expertise on environmental conservation and protection. As such the Network will build capacity of CSOs through trainings, seminars and field trips to combat forest fires, deforestation and teach its member countries on how to monitor and report rapidly.
In addition a web-portal will be developed linking all member countries through an electronic forum to keep information exchange and communications flowing and to keep its members active on a day to day basis.
4. Future Prospects (1 or 2 pages)
The proposed vision of the Network is “An environmentally sustainable ASEAN that promotes the well-being of its people and global environment through strong partnership between civil society organisations, governments and other stakeholders in the region”.
The Network will bring together various agencies to combat common global environmental issues in the most effective and efficient way.
As such it is envisaged that the Network will receive appropriate funding to carry out its important mission so that it can grow to be strong and its voice can be heard at the United Nations Environmental Forums and bring global attention to Southeast Asia – the neglected part of the world. Hence address the deterioration of the ozone layer and the rapid loss of our bio-diversity that consist of precious animals and plants; as we have only one common home to share.
It is hoped that the Network will receive adequate funds to conduct a global awareness campaign using international media and international celebrities to enhance awareness on the importance of stopping the usage of cloroflorocarbon (CFC) that is causing the hole in the ozone layer. The Network believes that a small step by common man can make a big difference.
It should be noted that the information related to products that emit CFC is still limited. Such information need to be disseminated to the general public and producers of products containing CFCs will need to be taken to task and pay for the damage they are causing to our beloved Earth.
As a long term plan, the Network will reduce (if not stop completely) the usage/availability of CFC so that the ozone layer will repair itself and assume its role of protecting Earths’ fragile environment from harmful sun-rays and save our sky.
5. Schedule
November 2007 – October 2009.
November 2007 and the network is proposed to be formally established in November 2007 – coinciding with the starting date for the Toyota Foundation Grant.
The grant will support the initial two years of operation of the regional network.
November 2007 - as soon as we are awarded the grant, a
WORKSHOP ON NATIONAL CAPACITY SELF-ASSESSMENT FOR CLIMATE CHANGE AND BIO-DIVERSITY or
WORKSHOP ON HOW TO SAFE OUR SKY AND BIO-DIVERSITY will be conducted. (please advice).
A 4-day workshop to will be conducted at Sumatera, Indonesia (an important site that needs immediate attention to combat forest fires) to:
- Formalise CSO.
- Assess the availability of national experts whom can provide technical advice on how to safe our sky and our bio-diversity in member countries.
- Provide information related to global environmental development and sustainable development to member countries.
- Assess the availability of Information Technology infrastructure amongst member countries for the development of a regional web portal on climate change and bio-diversity.
- Collate a database of electronic network linkages on how to safe our sky and bio-diversity that will be linked to the web portal.
- Assess the viability of conducting a capacity building program to combat forest fires and deforestation amongst member countries
- Provide information on how to monitor and report forest fires.
- Conduct a field trip to a forest that is on fire to actually understand the urgency required to address problems related to climate change and loss of bio-diversity. We need to see the dying plants and animals to feel for the environment to take immediate actions.
2nd February 2008 – World Wetlands Day to combat forest fires and save our sky and bio-diversity.
The Regional Web Portal on Climate Change and Bio-Diversity will officially be launched in conjunction with the World Wetlands Days at Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. This event will be organised in collaboration with the Department of Environment, Malaysia as they are actively campaigning against the usage of cloro-floro-carbon (CFC) with the theme “Save Our Sky”. (Faizal, do we work with the DOE?)
As a follow-up, a 1 week course on fund raising and communication will be held for member countries on the accessibility of national/international funds and ways to approach national/international donors for issues related to the environment in the Southeast Asian region. (Faizal – can we link this with Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman?)
Faizal – there’s so much need to be done for the CSOs. I think the RM147,468 grant by Toyota is sufficient for the 2 activities mentioned above. What do you think? In addition to USAIDS and Hanns Siedel Foundation, are there any other funding agencies that we can approach to support the CSO?
6. Budget and Grants
a. Holding Meetings (expenses for workshops, etc., including participants travel) :
b. Information distribution (mail, website creation, including outsourced work) :
c. Honoraria to people who cooperate with project :
d. Honoraria to project assistants :
e. Domestic travel :
f. Overseas travel :
g. Equipment and furniture :
h. Fees for commissioned work :
i. Rent :
j. Documents and materials :
k. Printing and copying :
l. Supplies :
m. Other expenses :
n. Total budget :
7. Project Coordinator
8. Reason why a Toyota Foundation Grant is needed?
(Why is funding from a private foundation necessary?)
The loss of ozone layer means annihilation of the human race and all that we love. We need all the funds available for the environment to protect the thin layer of atmosphere that is protecting human race. Most of the Southeast Asian governments are still combating poverty alleviation. As such funding from private foundations are absolutely necessary to address challenges related to the environment, especially the climate change as it involves the entire human race.
Toyota Foundation have always cared for the well being of the earth and its people by providing funds to minority groups who need it most. As such we believe that the voice of the neglected Southeast Asia will be heard and the importance of protecting the ozone layer will be felt as much as the minority CSOs in the region.
Let’s join hands in saving our sky.
Joke-RENEWABLE ENERGY-07-05-29
RENEWABLE ENERGY
5.02am; 30th May 2007 (is it?)
RENEWABLE ENERGY
Dear Mr. Kamal Hassan…wehrer are you? Actually I wanted to write a fuck …but my fingers need to be exercised…jabbed…poked…prodded…yummy! Been solnga ‘sollunga naan ennapannuvathu’ (Not DT: what am I o do..(is it)?…DT: actually tell I what do )…I just ssaw you bit her ass..in that bithc am jealous … why not me ah! Want to bite my cute ass …her was a ….ccanno ell nut actually I am supposed to say lots of dirty thingy because am not …body very upset …haven’t us ed my fingers yet…I forgot how to masturbate…actually what I wuld like is a warm and
Oi…
Is it ok to fuck a male onlu? Please tell/advice…stillevloving..furur said wea re eveloed alreaduy but sexaulally not uyat lah…teach me a gingga or gtwo pleaes …simple malay/English/tamil/p;lease
“why don’t you come an teach me a thing or two?’ I saw your dane=ce in the kalyanaraman movie…”vettiaya madichhu kattu…blah…blah” … I sawa your actions all , what were yu ding?Were you possed? Am I? Did uoui know ..waht..idnian women have beautiful ass and tits…tits and ass…they’re big isn’t it…what are we saying when we ..by covering them so much..wathc your vetti paati (above) … women tereh wer e … go see-lah…I just saw all my chinese macchaans (some relative-indains are melodramatic that when we lioke someone we like to clal them relatives) each/every time I see n hear the word ‘colloquail”
I love this song…aaaraaroh aaaraaaroh nee veroh naan veroh…existence is my parent and she/he/it taking care of me/us…do you want the translation..ask me nicely and I might tell. I hace lot of compassion (I think) … let me ttarnslate…aiyoh (DT: Oh My God! – not swure)…direct translation : sounds ….nee: you …can’t tell coz English does not justify the bueaty of tamil language…do you know htat we indains have 144 wods..and not just 26 meager words..in English…’shake the pear’….ha1ha1 gotta exercise fingedr – middle one – is it…aiyph! Where is the fucking nail clippers I foeget to ask …my body is upet…Mr. hassan COME NOW! HA1HA1HA1KDLJFA EWF
This is gibberish to remind all of us our late guru osho that fuckign bish fires killed – arson ijowekld…martcheertt is coming hyur way…am carzuy missing osho…he hsn’t spoken to me forl such a long time, how that haopend..go fuck yourselves…that’s why! Mr. President, why did you NOT send your hit men to fuck me today? Am horny…xoz of goring pisang is it? What is h=s? want to know more about goring pisang…go to this place in Taman Melawati, jalan Off Klang Gate, you go st..
raight pass the muslim cemetgary (ooohhhooohh) am scared…v.scared…then…oh! its on your right…go straight (whycannotbend) until you find restoran ‘Nut & Nuddles” a muslind run show that sells all sorts…yu can…praatcialallyu eseaealwrrkoe
NOBODY WANT TO TALK T (furus said small letters too loud) right…Here in Malahysia we say “PADAN MUKA” and ohso says ‘KENA GIBBERISH’ – skeletons in the cupboard…that’s all fornow cos need to go exercise yuou know what….balah…blah…we are so mean……toay czo he nto here…who? Dunno? I think mr. hassan…lose wait and coema hafa]refj894
Actually I don’t …please fuck off and leave me alone for 2 hrs…why? Dunno…
Please don’t judge me..I am very very scared of all…even my hair…she’s dropping away coz I have not taken my calcium tablets. Why? Constipation? Is it? Where is my cozy little office with my 2 plants to complete my life…or I don’t know perrhpas I can type outdoors under the huge tree out side the Kuala Pilah Subramainam temple – actually I wrote this as I was looking at the huge tree that is located within the Subramainam (lord muruga) temple at my home town Kuala Pilah…. Actually we have decided to never use the word god-forsaken ..why? coz we are here…
Dear friends, the huge tree that I was thinking of using as my office have already been butchered/murdered..sob!sob! where do I go to complain?who can we take action against? Where do threes go after they die? Can I visit him/her/it after I die? Do we know? How come? Can I try to find out and give you the answer? If I do, will I too be killed like osho? *tishoom* 2 chinese boys turned up at Permai Seri Unit and gave me an astounding information, it takes only RM500 to shoot another human being like baskaran…shall I?what is happening? Is it so cheap to kill? Is it legal to kill? Why did you keep quiet when saddam was killed? ASLEEP IS IT? If I become the President of fuking USA, can I too kill anyone I don’t like or like? Can I hire these Chinese boys Ken and Terry to kill Bush Fire and Arial the Little Mermaid Sharon – just sold insurance policy and will collect $ soon…I can afford RM1000 for world peace..what are you gonna do? You go kill Ronnie of Howard from Australia for not signing Kyoto Protocol coz can’t afford too much for murder man… lets komplot (cannot tell the translation coz we are rakyat and we are one) ok… am I mad? Evil?bad? NO SILLY…
I AM THE FORCE OF NATURE BACK TO HAUNT ALL THOSE THAT RISK WORLD PEACE AND THE WELL BEING OF EXISTENCE…
not you the rakyat…
…wherever as my home is the entire world but not within 4 walls…roof ik…any progress on…the measuring tape? Mr. Chow Kok Kee, can we leave to Washington DC with the documents? Do you have it here? Mr. Bush …Mr President, why are you not in Libya with Mr. Blair and Colonel Gaddafi just now/today/at can’t remember local time? I think they will be there for a week? Who is representing you? Its on anti-terrorish you know? It’s a one-week long talk on anti terrorism and the war on terrorism was started by yourself and your cronies right? Are you once again planning to shirk off your duty to the world as you did with the Kyoto Protocol? Thugs reading bed time stories is it? What time is it there ah? Are you eating well?
I have to ask this ..:why si Russia launching ICBM (INte….) what’s withtehe TREATY! What is ICBM? Inter Continental Bullastic Missile that travels from continent to continent.. whatis Russias message to the world? DON’T FUCK WITH US right?
Can I see the content of teh Nuclear treatu…actually aI don’t know muh about nuclear stuff coz they’re too big or toto small…what is the treaty doing about it…I saw it shoot out of my ROOF the SKY..where does it end-up? Does it explose in/out/within atmosphere? What happens to it ah? Is that the mother-fucker that is causing the hole my ROOF? There’s more but now now…see my fingers don’t want to let me =go yeat.. why? Don’t know , no one to tell me also right…kesian I (poor me). I heard M’sia is going to use Nuclear Power for electricity as ganti (alternate) for fossil fuels…need to speak to Prof. Sukiman Sarmani of UKM … he looked like Baskaran long long time ago..I think I had a crush on him when Baskarna was in Kalanag Prison…he’s now the dean of post graduate studies at UKM…But I think he’s very political now…is it? More later when I know more aboiut nuclear energy and its good and bad? Does anyone know anything anumore? (its now 12.16am of 7/6/07 and the warongs (stalls) are rather vacant but am cought in the furios passion for wiriting…so much to say…what to do … werhe to go to write…BACK TO my room at resort…aiyoh yhyr karaoke there-lah…noise pollution exceeds accepted decibels (DB is it?) of 500 is it…Prof. don’;t-know-whats-his-name-toldmeallaboutitatUKM…learned lots there…)
Why did Pakistan lauch underwater (sea/marine) missile …forgot …cikgu Ismail, please remind me…(he was the most handsome teacher I had way back in 1985…I took tuition from him and he said missile issues ICBMs and Sea, Land, Air Missiles and another …c…we know lots ok)…where ah? Did anybody check out how much damage they caused to the underwater life forms or the earths crust? Why we make don’t know so much? ‘Where do I begin’….I need some answers to be able to be abke ti sleep at night or else pleaes send smaller version of kamal…yummy!
Can we go now to enjoy…poarteh…why am I doing this? So that Malaysian Airlines can make profit Is it? RM133.1m …wow! Whats with dis foreign student identification card…where have I been? Today I went to the police station and …. Is it a figment of my imagination? Or real? Or fantasy? Ha!ha! How come I am alone in this? Whre are my 2 plants? Why no access to internet? Why is the dog howling> scared uh! Who is that dog? Want some chrysanthemum tea? Come see me. I want to talk? Do you? Are youu ready for me now? Havae you done your research? I need MAS to give me unlimited acces to their flights for me to travel free of charge to all/any part of the world to cover issues related to existence/environment/nature/people/poor/women/children/Indian/local-communiyt/UFOs/etc. I will agree to publish in my blog and in their in-flight magazine if you agree…what say you MR…..
HAVAE A NUTTY FESTIVE SEASON AND FUCK OFF FROM DFAJR39RI32R gibberish! Did youu try that ? Nice uh! I heard you….actually no cosz I am gibbering all the time here in my head and to osho….isn’t it osho!&^%%%*?
I am going to go under-covers and do-you-know-what…don’t put your camera there please…actually I don’t know or know what I want…must commune and cum the community…then can think better…perhaps then, the vulgarity will lessen…would that be nice? Or what? Dunno coz no balls to talk to me right? Scared ah! Aaahahahahaha … I don’t have a matcheet in my room at all…not even soft-headed-hammer…ha!ha!
Thank you for your patience. I love Malaysia and her people…or his people…does that matter? Not anymore I think.
Dear friends, my notebook osho just detected wireless networks (not one but 3) here at Kota Bharu, am I being tapped into, are my typings read by others directly – on-line, is it possible? Is the the Microsoft bastards (I am no longer using this word as its meaning is no longer applicable to the earth…do you agree…? Where can children be labled bastard just because the mother is not married the man she fucked? Tak masuk akal – cannot enter my brain – tak logik – not logic – let us delete it from our memories for good – bio-degradable word) are watching my work is it? Can you see how the US is manipulating all written works by using the Microsoft. Syabas to another system (what’s its name) I read it in NST 2 or 3 days ago at Hotel De’Palma for free of charge that Singapore and Malaysia (is it) launching another software, can I please have it…somebody load it for me please as you did by giving me the CD on renewable energy and allowing me to use the word pepper spray on my blog…god send…pls. continue to help me as you are my family now or is it? I will find out who you are and smoke you out of your hole as the US did or wanted to do with the bin Laden…watch out you &*^*&%^*Were they successful? Where is he now? Did thye leave him alone with a women/man? Why wasn;t saddam given such privileges…poor thing was just hiding in a hole behind a shed…teruknya (very bad).
Actually I just watched BBC News just now and missed you!
scared
Please come and talk to me…scared ush! Why am I being watched? Why? Please tell me what is going on? Shy? Where is my coffee…ooopppssss…body..
(male) nice smelling body next to me..actually hugging me and caressing me very gently…very…very gently coz am afraid to be crushed by weight of other bodies…figure…ooops. You are a kadhalmannan-lah (DT:LOVE KING) … Mr. kamal hassan, how many womenhave ou fucked…lte me know-lah…next to many toerh questions on edxistence, etc. this was a another burning question that I ahe me…number what/ actually cannot-lah…you are too big fo…ooopsss…not like that…your ziwe…body is toobigaforme..amtoohotorwhat?
Dear Friends,
9.09am; Room 201; Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita. Malaysia
Light a boltning if light...RENEWABLE ENERGY’ my head is hurting and I want to go under the covers and remain there for a long time...cannot-lah...my feet is so mis-behaved. I just heard the CD and wanted to run under-covers… please listen to this…
Renewable energy? Uh! I heard that too. What do you know about this? Is this solar energy? WHY CANNOT SAY SOLAR ENERGY…what is this jargon renewable energy, wonder how much of our (?) money was spent to coin this term – paid PR companies and copy writers right? Or did you sit by a river and created this word, do you know OSHO sat by rivers and came up with all the meditation techniques (7) (e’s my lover ma…Chinese colloquaial way of saying it…am laughing…trhank you …cbs …another day) just like that…flow was there just like the flowing river…meony won’t make you flow…relaxation does it…
WHERE IS THE MOVIE I ASKED TO PLAY AROUND THE GLOBE ‘CONTACT’? Have you made any arrangement for this? Who is working on this? What is the organization structure…c this is how NGOs will do to safe the environment, can hyou? Must do now….show me the movie man…am sitting with TV here…all of you…oi…come to pelita and sit with me and watcvh the moveie man…only if all in world watch with me as
“All WORLD is my home and All People are my siblings” WHAT TIME AH? TODAY WHAT TIME? Abang-abang, adik-adik, datuk-datuk-datin-datin, ibubapa (RAKYAT),
Tak mau cuti-kah? (direct translation: Don’t want holiday-kah?)
Putlah pressure si,kit (direct translation: put-lah pressure little) abang/adik/kakak/mm,….fuckies (a term coined by my male Punjabi friends for female fuckers)ha!ha!heeeehooooheeee am scared…ha!ha!
I AM A FORCE OF NATURE, DON’T FUCK WITH ME, but actually I am very scared of You (the smallest font fuckign bill gates can give…why cannot make small is it…small.&(*^*^ uis it?.
Please don’t touch my feet because if you do, I will immediately drop on all four and touch your feet too because we are all the same…you are my god as I am yours…Existence is our parent here on earth. Environment is our home and guardian on planet earth. In the end we become ONE! Please touch your feet and pray to yourselves. Love yourselves , touch yourselves... I wanted to say (am very hot now coz very shy) masturbate but cannot because I saw some of you touching yourselves…please do it in the privacy of your home/office/toilet/hotels/etc. btu not in public because we are still evolving…me too…maybe just for a short while, lets see where we get by next week.
Do you know how solar e is harnessed? How much do you pay the sun for sunning by the beach? Do you burn certain amount of cash and release in the air for the sun to collect? Ha!ha! Who do you pay for solar energy? You pay the producers of photovoltaic cells. What is this pundamavane cells? Photovoltaic cells are the giant sheets of don’t know what that is usually placed at roof tops etc. to get maximum exposure to the sun. This fucker traps so much of the sun and releases it as energy vvveeeerryyy slowly …converts into energy such as THE electricity [and what not…I think ENSEARCH (an NGO – I don’t know much about – GURMIT are you there…he is a true conservationist – I think) is involved in such project – energy conservation…Suzana and Kali at GEC told me and the Sun newspaper also told me sometime ago…forgot cosz of you know hwat/
what is this pundamavane cells? Or pundamavale cells? Can somebody tell me? who are the fuckers producing it? Can the rakyat know how the heat of the sun can be trapped by this cells?
Nombor satu – 1stly or (direct translation: Number 1), what are the components of the sun? I want the whole list…even if the list can circle around the globe and come back the this god-full-off-naski-kandar-pelita-restaurant. I want the list, even if we take one week to read it. WHAT ARE THE COMPONENTS MR. BUSH, I believe fucking America is producing this pumdanmgnaij cells thingamangi right? I watched in Discovery that there’s much research is being done on [oi mana boleh (direct translation: where can) on the sun] about the sun and from the time civilization started we have kept records of our research of sun…can somebody tell me who has these documents…we need to know? Mr. Bush Fires…have you seen it…have them read it to you during your bedtime? (do you know what I am talking about – ask Mr. Fuckibng ..whats his name..tambi or nimbi or nammeeb or beeb-beep…it was under his ass…
First we say the morning sun is good coz got vitamin D. Adakah (DT: got ah?)? Siapa makan (DT: who ate)? Where is the doctor who told the sun ray got vitamin D? Who is he? What is his name? I want to see him. Father…I told you I wanted to be a doctor, you-lah so poor, believed that fuycker kandasamy will send me to fucking Indai to fucking manipal to sgydui fuckign medicine…what happened, fucker fucked and left…aiuyoh (DT=Special term, say it as it is and feel its sound) kadavuleh (DT: GOD=ME)…manipal…am coing after your nfor charging sooomuch…. I hread that only abpout (50) % is it? goes for education …others go to where…around the world spent on womanizing..or maniiziongas (new term coined today + manizing – what do you think…how come we women did not have a term for this ah? Why you think we are not itching to fuck around ah? Actually I wanted to write I too and stopped becaweu that’s not what I want…doyouwant to know what I want, read until the end…last statement…aiyoh! Very shylah…covering my face)….don’t know… heheheha hahahhhehe am cominga…..
Now, porr bush fore adn little mermaid are shivering luife a leaf in typhoonm….wjhat have hyu mad3e me…
Actually osho is touching me now and am having an orgasm…ooohbhhhh…this is nice…just kidding coz scared…also I had orgasms each time I read the article on Bush Fire/LittleMerrmaid/ Spieldberg…etc. what a joke.
Now, after finding out about our vitamin D as one of the SUNs (Dr. Sundari this is not you, am talking about the actual nuclear powered sun) component.
Now this poundav,sadfno cell producers, do you know what the sun is made of? How it works…each moment there is a massive nuclear explosion is going on … the sun is a continuous explosion of nuclear …what-not…NASA help me here…or are you too paid under-table money by bush fire like he did against Kyoto protocol (KP)? I don’t know whats going on with the KP but it won’t leave my mind perhaps KP is also the short form for Kuala Pilah or the name my ex-punjabi-group-of-vulger-men-used-to-call-me-when-we-drank-at-Brickfields-Kajang-Bangi-pubs-etc. I fucked…letme see…Acitot, Bob, Kissed let me see..Itto,sparko (very sexy young man who look like whatisname..some Hollywood actor).
1st you said sun gives (in plastic packets is it?) vitamin D. Then you told don’t go to out from 11am – 3pm under the sun because the sun will give cancer…how uh… in a dulang (DT: tray) is it? Like mas kahwin (DT: Dowry) is it? Skin Cancer…coz hole in sky, blah…blah…oi…I am still waiting for the mearing tape in my humble room …sorry-lah wait outside with it until I can talk again ok…
Then sunddenly one day you say…RAKYAT…you here means ……………… the sun has many harmful rays but we still don’t know what…PREPARE THE LIST NOW.
Now that you know how long foscil fuel lasts (Read My Article Yesterday Right…illumination right? Fucker NAMBIB or NAMEEM or BEEBBEEPSPEEDYGONZALES at the RECEPTION OF the GOD-FORSAKEN-NASI-KANDAR-PUNDEK-PLACE (actually god is here when they play the prayers coz it moves me to tears) abducted my CD and have been keeping it under wraps …ooopppss under ass actually. Celaka India Dari Chennai (DT : what is celaka in English? I think it’s a special term like amok…hence in English CELAKA: Indain from Chennai – this is PR
…dunno why so jealouse to give people u knowledge…kedekut ilmu-kah (DT: knowledge stingy-kah?) I am so angry…Do you know if you give knowledge you gain more…idiot…stingy like van and valar…ha!ha! ssorry akkas… (Annex 1 carries my apology to all fuckers/fuckies).
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As I said focscil (cs or sc uh?) fuel lasts for another 50 years it seems…BASKARAN, remember we had this illuminating conversation in the car, sooo openged’ on the way to don’t know where …in 2000 or when uh? Am sweating coz almost lied … anyway, I think even now the experts are saying another 50 years – betulkah, IS IT TRUE? can we ask PETRONAS, SHELL and ESSO’S R&D teams. Actually I want to know what’s their plan? DO you know these oil producing companies have secrets too…I think…
I heard that they have heavily funded Research and Development Teams at the SHELL AND ESSO AND PETRONAS..(I am coming with a matchett … actually soft headed hammer because I don’t know the leaders..memememe – if I am, you’ll go bnacrupt coz I will spend it all on pundamavane…renewable…energy ffrom the sourceless source..more to come…I just found out that you all know about nada brahma…OH!MY!GOD! … I feel like fainting…am I crazy or what…can I run away to some ashram in TIBET and hide for awhile coz I think I feel like vomiting now…stomach hurts…actually I will hide under covers first…gurs sais…actually I can’t believe this…to laugh, to cry , to what////??? I can’t talk anymore…ery very scared…fucker bill gates, make-lah smaller fonts..oh!oh! he’s gonna make…fadskf0e0rq34)
All below in small caps and font size 8 – just got sms but scard to read…what to do…
Shall I run away for awhile, find out more and come back? My car maybe towed soon as 3-months payment outstanding, must sell insurance but doc. but policy with baskaran, must pay Citibank RM500 (just found out that …. Can I have some privacy please…can’t I write first and then use a thumb dfrive to send the article to you?...shaking…with don’t know what…why?)
Citibank called and said that my minimum payment for this month is RM660 as the total has exceeded RM 200 to RM9200.
cause exceeded RM50 to a total of RM9050 and also this month insurance payment goes trhough Citibank RM175 plus RM570…want to know more…pavin, ma,pa…so mich top do and am hiding here…hwo to run…
I WANT TO GO home to Kuala Pilah to be with my family today. Pleasea let me see my loved ones…Pavin too (esp.).
“SINCE I HAVE NO INTERNET FACILITY AND OFFICE FACILITY AND THIS PLACE IS VERY SLOW IN EVERYTHING…I have gone into silence once again and am shutting off my mind to be in my heart. When I get what I want, you may start reading and laughing again”.
But completed the bwloe……butr I have lots of compassion, hence I leave the following for our pleasure…
Foscsil (sc or cs uh?) producers can we know the budget and what’s their plan in 50 years? What are we to do with our cars? What is going to happen to my poor SPECTERA KAI? Then what, we need to buy other types of vehicles or start jogging to work? APA PELAN BROTHER? What IS the plan brother? Please listen to the CD below and tell me what is this that is coming from the outer space, thoruhg win and air…through molten core of earth..blah…blah…THEY MEAN THE SUN….right? more money for copywriters…go sit bu the river outside ampang puteri specialist centre…best idea will come….
I have many questions but the only one I want to know is after deciding if the sun is good or bad for us (don’t give me morning, evening sun…business…speak science in simple/rakyat English/malay/tamil please) List of all the sun rays components - actually put it in a table Microsoft (Bill Gates…I’ll talk about you later…dunoo good or bad..) Words – open table – make 4 columns (1. no. 2. component of sun(science and rakyat terms-both), 3. good(%), 4. bad (%),…keep going until the end … don’t know right? Do you know scientists of earth or should we ask the photovoltaic pundamavanes so that they can manipulate the outcome too suit their needs (don’t know) …RAKYAT OF MALAYSIA shall we take them to task … soon we too might go for solar energy coz sometime ago the army tried it and thought too expensive…at that time in 1995/6 – when my prof. (was it Prof.Dr.Jamaluddin Jahi or Prof. Samad Hadi –s sexy name uh! or who?) told us, I thought why so cheao and stingy like valar and van…sorry akkas….ooopss…refer to annex1… like ypouknow who… actually I feel so sorry for them that I can cry anytime…thank you guru for holding me together…I will die here and now if not for my guru OSHO. I LOVE YOU OSHO…i think we’ll do that later….he!he! YUMMY! My guru said they think we are kidding…no…you won’t know anyway…please remove cameras…we need privacy tonight…guru says they’ll put nmore careama..ture ar? Am laughting..
But now I think its good coz US is calling it the RENEWABLE SOURCE OF THE FUTURE….very suspicouse … we may end up like goring pisang
(DT: banana fritters – my favorite but must be very soft – from veryveryripebanana…guru just said…thye may think old man…..fuck off…what do you know…wanna try some… we are going crazy today, the sleep did us good..thanks) after sometime…dunno….better know now. I think South America has already started practicing … was it Brazil Prof? Pleaes ask Prof. in Malaysia on renewable energy and solar energy…if you ask me, I will say NADA BRAHMA … and go to sleep with OSHO…he!he!he!he!
oi….researchger of the workd run around to all countries that has photvoltainc pundamavane cells and see how long ehyt ve used and see tge outcome… I think this is very urgent and important …
Friends,
We Must KNOW what we are going to do before subscribing to it. Our representatives are always going for the (am very scared, earlier was very hot but now shaking) monies. STOP itlah…no need for money too much … don’t be greedy…see what happened to OSHO…he bought 93 or 97 rolls rouyce on a single day from U fucking S fucking A and wwhat happened…tishoooom…got shot and died …oh!oh! sorry that was Kennedy…they were smart…they killed him slowly and surely by arson…liiitttle by lltiotle…bloody rats…no BALLS to talk to him and scared he might mersmerize it seems…scared got not faith in yourself is it…fools…
SINCE I HAVE NO INTERNET FACILITY AND OFFICE FACILITY AND THIS PLACE IS VERY SLOW IN EVERYTHING…I have gone into silence once again and am shutting off my mind to be in my heart. When I get what I want, you may start reading and laughing again.
I LOVE THE PEOPLE OF EARTH AND THE BRILLIANT SON IN THE SKY BUT I WOULD NOT WANT TO GO TO THE SUN…WHY? I NEED THE LIST OF ITS COMPONENTS FIRST…give me the list Mr. President.
I have a story to tell about renewable energy…I have the answer…OSHO told me…want to know me, give me the facilities and I want and leave us alone to commune. Actually I was making a drama to introduce you OSHOs Nada Brahma CD…since tambi/nimbi/nambeeb/beebbeep…what-not (baskaran loves this word, does this word exist> please tell) did not give you the cd…Apparently you know about it…tcheh! No climax –lah….heheheehaajajajhaheheheh am scared….I AM THE FORCE OF NATURE and am not scared – at all…thanks to all of you, I slept so well last nite (just a minor confession – I took an anti-depressant-don’t’knowname…will try without it today…)
L laugh a lot vwhn I speak about osho…best…pleae let me go home to Kuala Pilah today. I have not been reading the papers or watching TV since don’t know when…was terribly shocked by the reception I received yesterday that I fell to peieces and forgot who I was and where I am…and all….thank you to my gurus for showing the light…
Can I go home To kuala pilah now…am scared
Dear friends, Actually, I was quite confused about my destinations as I am still evolving and need to know more. Also I adopted a no-plan life style to flow with nature sometime ago and have almost lost the ability do things in chronological order – as far as my life is concerned. Right now, I would like to be driven to Kuala Pilah to visit my entire family, spend sometime with them – maybe about 2 hours (more or less, let the decision not be mine) and then visit OSHOs ashram Switzerland and remain there for awhile to recuperate and learn more before I come back to the rakyat of Malaysia to scold more people…ha!ha!ha! I don’t know. I know what I want to do until Switzerland…after that let me not be the one to decide.
HOW TO MAKE THIS ARRANGEMENT – I did not write this…get me…I think sometimes that there’s something that’s sabotaging me here…but my gurus are taking good care of me. Please help me see my family before I leave the country for awhile.
I Love Malaysia. But not Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita as I am very scared here now…I here strange sounds in the bathroom and ourside the door and yesterday someone switched on (am shivering) mosquito music for a while – 2 times, they bang doors so loudly and speak all sorts and disturb my peace, the windows to creak unnecesswary , keyboard goes on its on here…sometimes until I gegt pissed…
Am just kidding…please send a male up to see me. I need to be with my parents for a while…please don’t harm any in my family…I love them so much…
I am holding all together well and thanks to my gurus.
ANNEX 1
Where is annex 1? I don’t know because I am shaking like a leaf and my body is hurting…heart too…
FUCK OFF…I/WE ARE OK AND AM GOING HOME NOW…PLEASE give me privacy.
THANK YOU. ALL THE WORLD IS MY HOME AND ALL ITS PEOPLE ARE MY SIBLINGS BUT KUALA PILAH IS MY BIO-FIELD – as Mr. maniam..waht is your sir name SIR…ha!ha!ha!
I am extending my stay for another day (indefinitely) and be back later from Kuala Pilah. LOVEYEALL.
I APOLOGIES (THOUSAND APOLIGES – pix me with both palms together at my chest with a turban like the famous Indian guy _____________ (forgot namelah, youknowwhy) in mind-your-language movie shaking my head left and right– ha1ha!ha!) for not doing this yesterday … tak cukup tidurlah (not enough sleep)…I am doing this – leaving this image cos I deon’t want you to touch my feet and make a god because you are my god.
What about this
Tiu-nah-seng, tiu-nah-mah….hiyah…apmacakma…FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE….he!ja@je4@ RP493084LFDEF[4Q3
However please protect me…
*scared* pls tell wahts happening? Why like this? Wh’s this? Suddently things appear in my OHSO notel=book..whos’ putting em here? NASA? Microsoft? What? People of Kelantan/ tok Guur? My furors? Bukit Aman/ Police force/ femalies? What? Pleae advise!
5.02am; 30th May 2007 (is it?)
RENEWABLE ENERGY
Dear Mr. Kamal Hassan…wehrer are you? Actually I wanted to write a fuck …but my fingers need to be exercised…jabbed…poked…prodded…yummy! Been solnga ‘sollunga naan ennapannuvathu’ (Not DT: what am I o do..(is it)?…DT: actually tell I what do )…I just ssaw you bit her ass..in that bithc am jealous … why not me ah! Want to bite my cute ass …her was a ….ccanno ell nut actually I am supposed to say lots of dirty thingy because am not …body very upset …haven’t us ed my fingers yet…I forgot how to masturbate…actually what I wuld like is a warm and
Oi…
Is it ok to fuck a male onlu? Please tell/advice…stillevloving..furur said wea re eveloed alreaduy but sexaulally not uyat lah…teach me a gingga or gtwo pleaes …simple malay/English/tamil/p;lease
“why don’t you come an teach me a thing or two?’ I saw your dane=ce in the kalyanaraman movie…”vettiaya madichhu kattu…blah…blah” … I sawa your actions all , what were yu ding?Were you possed? Am I? Did uoui know ..waht..idnian women have beautiful ass and tits…tits and ass…they’re big isn’t it…what are we saying when we ..by covering them so much..wathc your vetti paati (above) … women tereh wer e … go see-lah…I just saw all my chinese macchaans (some relative-indains are melodramatic that when we lioke someone we like to clal them relatives) each/every time I see n hear the word ‘colloquail”
I love this song…aaaraaroh aaaraaaroh nee veroh naan veroh…existence is my parent and she/he/it taking care of me/us…do you want the translation..ask me nicely and I might tell. I hace lot of compassion (I think) … let me ttarnslate…aiyoh (DT: Oh My God! – not swure)…direct translation : sounds ….nee: you …can’t tell coz English does not justify the bueaty of tamil language…do you know htat we indains have 144 wods..and not just 26 meager words..in English…’shake the pear’….ha1ha1 gotta exercise fingedr – middle one – is it…aiyph! Where is the fucking nail clippers I foeget to ask …my body is upet…Mr. hassan COME NOW! HA1HA1HA1KDLJFA EWF
This is gibberish to remind all of us our late guru osho that fuckign bish fires killed – arson ijowekld…martcheertt is coming hyur way…am carzuy missing osho…he hsn’t spoken to me forl such a long time, how that haopend..go fuck yourselves…that’s why! Mr. President, why did you NOT send your hit men to fuck me today? Am horny…xoz of goring pisang is it? What is h=s? want to know more about goring pisang…go to this place in Taman Melawati, jalan Off Klang Gate, you go st..
raight pass the muslim cemetgary (ooohhhooohh) am scared…v.scared…then…oh! its on your right…go straight (whycannotbend) until you find restoran ‘Nut & Nuddles” a muslind run show that sells all sorts…yu can…praatcialallyu eseaealwrrkoe
NOBODY WANT TO TALK T (furus said small letters too loud) right…Here in Malahysia we say “PADAN MUKA” and ohso says ‘KENA GIBBERISH’ – skeletons in the cupboard…that’s all fornow cos need to go exercise yuou know what….balah…blah…we are so mean……toay czo he nto here…who? Dunno? I think mr. hassan…lose wait and coema hafa]refj894
Actually I don’t …please fuck off and leave me alone for 2 hrs…why? Dunno…
Please don’t judge me..I am very very scared of all…even my hair…she’s dropping away coz I have not taken my calcium tablets. Why? Constipation? Is it? Where is my cozy little office with my 2 plants to complete my life…or I don’t know perrhpas I can type outdoors under the huge tree out side the Kuala Pilah Subramainam temple – actually I wrote this as I was looking at the huge tree that is located within the Subramainam (lord muruga) temple at my home town Kuala Pilah…. Actually we have decided to never use the word god-forsaken ..why? coz we are here…
Dear friends, the huge tree that I was thinking of using as my office have already been butchered/murdered..sob!sob! where do I go to complain?who can we take action against? Where do threes go after they die? Can I visit him/her/it after I die? Do we know? How come? Can I try to find out and give you the answer? If I do, will I too be killed like osho? *tishoom* 2 chinese boys turned up at Permai Seri Unit and gave me an astounding information, it takes only RM500 to shoot another human being like baskaran…shall I?what is happening? Is it so cheap to kill? Is it legal to kill? Why did you keep quiet when saddam was killed? ASLEEP IS IT? If I become the President of fuking USA, can I too kill anyone I don’t like or like? Can I hire these Chinese boys Ken and Terry to kill Bush Fire and Arial the Little Mermaid Sharon – just sold insurance policy and will collect $ soon…I can afford RM1000 for world peace..what are you gonna do? You go kill Ronnie of Howard from Australia for not signing Kyoto Protocol coz can’t afford too much for murder man… lets komplot (cannot tell the translation coz we are rakyat and we are one) ok… am I mad? Evil?bad? NO SILLY…
I AM THE FORCE OF NATURE BACK TO HAUNT ALL THOSE THAT RISK WORLD PEACE AND THE WELL BEING OF EXISTENCE…
not you the rakyat…
…wherever as my home is the entire world but not within 4 walls…roof ik…any progress on…the measuring tape? Mr. Chow Kok Kee, can we leave to Washington DC with the documents? Do you have it here? Mr. Bush …Mr President, why are you not in Libya with Mr. Blair and Colonel Gaddafi just now/today/at can’t remember local time? I think they will be there for a week? Who is representing you? Its on anti-terrorish you know? It’s a one-week long talk on anti terrorism and the war on terrorism was started by yourself and your cronies right? Are you once again planning to shirk off your duty to the world as you did with the Kyoto Protocol? Thugs reading bed time stories is it? What time is it there ah? Are you eating well?
I have to ask this ..:why si Russia launching ICBM (INte….) what’s withtehe TREATY! What is ICBM? Inter Continental Bullastic Missile that travels from continent to continent.. whatis Russias message to the world? DON’T FUCK WITH US right?
Can I see the content of teh Nuclear treatu…actually aI don’t know muh about nuclear stuff coz they’re too big or toto small…what is the treaty doing about it…I saw it shoot out of my ROOF the SKY..where does it end-up? Does it explose in/out/within atmosphere? What happens to it ah? Is that the mother-fucker that is causing the hole my ROOF? There’s more but now now…see my fingers don’t want to let me =go yeat.. why? Don’t know , no one to tell me also right…kesian I (poor me). I heard M’sia is going to use Nuclear Power for electricity as ganti (alternate) for fossil fuels…need to speak to Prof. Sukiman Sarmani of UKM … he looked like Baskaran long long time ago..I think I had a crush on him when Baskarna was in Kalanag Prison…he’s now the dean of post graduate studies at UKM…But I think he’s very political now…is it? More later when I know more aboiut nuclear energy and its good and bad? Does anyone know anything anumore? (its now 12.16am of 7/6/07 and the warongs (stalls) are rather vacant but am cought in the furios passion for wiriting…so much to say…what to do … werhe to go to write…BACK TO my room at resort…aiyoh yhyr karaoke there-lah…noise pollution exceeds accepted decibels (DB is it?) of 500 is it…Prof. don’;t-know-whats-his-name-toldmeallaboutitatUKM…learned lots there…)
Why did Pakistan lauch underwater (sea/marine) missile …forgot …cikgu Ismail, please remind me…(he was the most handsome teacher I had way back in 1985…I took tuition from him and he said missile issues ICBMs and Sea, Land, Air Missiles and another …c…we know lots ok)…where ah? Did anybody check out how much damage they caused to the underwater life forms or the earths crust? Why we make don’t know so much? ‘Where do I begin’….I need some answers to be able to be abke ti sleep at night or else pleaes send smaller version of kamal…yummy!
Can we go now to enjoy…poarteh…why am I doing this? So that Malaysian Airlines can make profit Is it? RM133.1m …wow! Whats with dis foreign student identification card…where have I been? Today I went to the police station and …. Is it a figment of my imagination? Or real? Or fantasy? Ha!ha! How come I am alone in this? Whre are my 2 plants? Why no access to internet? Why is the dog howling> scared uh! Who is that dog? Want some chrysanthemum tea? Come see me. I want to talk? Do you? Are youu ready for me now? Havae you done your research? I need MAS to give me unlimited acces to their flights for me to travel free of charge to all/any part of the world to cover issues related to existence/environment/nature/people/poor/women/children/Indian/local-communiyt/UFOs/etc. I will agree to publish in my blog and in their in-flight magazine if you agree…what say you MR…..
HAVAE A NUTTY FESTIVE SEASON AND FUCK OFF FROM DFAJR39RI32R gibberish! Did youu try that ? Nice uh! I heard you….actually no cosz I am gibbering all the time here in my head and to osho….isn’t it osho!&^%%%*?
I am going to go under-covers and do-you-know-what…don’t put your camera there please…actually I don’t know or know what I want…must commune and cum the community…then can think better…perhaps then, the vulgarity will lessen…would that be nice? Or what? Dunno coz no balls to talk to me right? Scared ah! Aaahahahahaha … I don’t have a matcheet in my room at all…not even soft-headed-hammer…ha!ha!
Thank you for your patience. I love Malaysia and her people…or his people…does that matter? Not anymore I think.
Dear friends, my notebook osho just detected wireless networks (not one but 3) here at Kota Bharu, am I being tapped into, are my typings read by others directly – on-line, is it possible? Is the the Microsoft bastards (I am no longer using this word as its meaning is no longer applicable to the earth…do you agree…? Where can children be labled bastard just because the mother is not married the man she fucked? Tak masuk akal – cannot enter my brain – tak logik – not logic – let us delete it from our memories for good – bio-degradable word) are watching my work is it? Can you see how the US is manipulating all written works by using the Microsoft. Syabas to another system (what’s its name) I read it in NST 2 or 3 days ago at Hotel De’Palma for free of charge that Singapore and Malaysia (is it) launching another software, can I please have it…somebody load it for me please as you did by giving me the CD on renewable energy and allowing me to use the word pepper spray on my blog…god send…pls. continue to help me as you are my family now or is it? I will find out who you are and smoke you out of your hole as the US did or wanted to do with the bin Laden…watch out you &*^*&%^*Were they successful? Where is he now? Did thye leave him alone with a women/man? Why wasn;t saddam given such privileges…poor thing was just hiding in a hole behind a shed…teruknya (very bad).
Actually I just watched BBC News just now and missed you!
scared
Please come and talk to me…scared ush! Why am I being watched? Why? Please tell me what is going on? Shy? Where is my coffee…ooopppssss…body..
(male) nice smelling body next to me..actually hugging me and caressing me very gently…very…very gently coz am afraid to be crushed by weight of other bodies…figure…ooops. You are a kadhalmannan-lah (DT:LOVE KING) … Mr. kamal hassan, how many womenhave ou fucked…lte me know-lah…next to many toerh questions on edxistence, etc. this was a another burning question that I ahe me…number what/ actually cannot-lah…you are too big fo…ooopsss…not like that…your ziwe…body is toobigaforme..amtoohotorwhat?
Dear Friends,
9.09am; Room 201; Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita. Malaysia
Light a boltning if light...RENEWABLE ENERGY’ my head is hurting and I want to go under the covers and remain there for a long time...cannot-lah...my feet is so mis-behaved. I just heard the CD and wanted to run under-covers… please listen to this…
Renewable energy? Uh! I heard that too. What do you know about this? Is this solar energy? WHY CANNOT SAY SOLAR ENERGY…what is this jargon renewable energy, wonder how much of our (?) money was spent to coin this term – paid PR companies and copy writers right? Or did you sit by a river and created this word, do you know OSHO sat by rivers and came up with all the meditation techniques (7) (e’s my lover ma…Chinese colloquaial way of saying it…am laughing…trhank you …cbs …another day) just like that…flow was there just like the flowing river…meony won’t make you flow…relaxation does it…
WHERE IS THE MOVIE I ASKED TO PLAY AROUND THE GLOBE ‘CONTACT’? Have you made any arrangement for this? Who is working on this? What is the organization structure…c this is how NGOs will do to safe the environment, can hyou? Must do now….show me the movie man…am sitting with TV here…all of you…oi…come to pelita and sit with me and watcvh the moveie man…only if all in world watch with me as
“All WORLD is my home and All People are my siblings” WHAT TIME AH? TODAY WHAT TIME? Abang-abang, adik-adik, datuk-datuk-datin-datin, ibubapa (RAKYAT),
Tak mau cuti-kah? (direct translation: Don’t want holiday-kah?)
Putlah pressure si,kit (direct translation: put-lah pressure little) abang/adik/kakak/mm,….fuckies (a term coined by my male Punjabi friends for female fuckers)ha!ha!heeeehooooheeee am scared…ha!ha!
I AM A FORCE OF NATURE, DON’T FUCK WITH ME, but actually I am very scared of You (the smallest font fuckign bill gates can give…why cannot make small is it…small.&(*^*^ uis it?.
Please don’t touch my feet because if you do, I will immediately drop on all four and touch your feet too because we are all the same…you are my god as I am yours…Existence is our parent here on earth. Environment is our home and guardian on planet earth. In the end we become ONE! Please touch your feet and pray to yourselves. Love yourselves , touch yourselves... I wanted to say (am very hot now coz very shy) masturbate but cannot because I saw some of you touching yourselves…please do it in the privacy of your home/office/toilet/hotels/etc. btu not in public because we are still evolving…me too…maybe just for a short while, lets see where we get by next week.
Do you know how solar e is harnessed? How much do you pay the sun for sunning by the beach? Do you burn certain amount of cash and release in the air for the sun to collect? Ha!ha! Who do you pay for solar energy? You pay the producers of photovoltaic cells. What is this pundamavane cells? Photovoltaic cells are the giant sheets of don’t know what that is usually placed at roof tops etc. to get maximum exposure to the sun. This fucker traps so much of the sun and releases it as energy vvveeeerryyy slowly …converts into energy such as THE electricity [and what not…I think ENSEARCH (an NGO – I don’t know much about – GURMIT are you there…he is a true conservationist – I think) is involved in such project – energy conservation…Suzana and Kali at GEC told me and the Sun newspaper also told me sometime ago…forgot cosz of you know hwat/
what is this pundamavane cells? Or pundamavale cells? Can somebody tell me? who are the fuckers producing it? Can the rakyat know how the heat of the sun can be trapped by this cells?
Nombor satu – 1stly or (direct translation: Number 1), what are the components of the sun? I want the whole list…even if the list can circle around the globe and come back the this god-full-off-naski-kandar-pelita-restaurant. I want the list, even if we take one week to read it. WHAT ARE THE COMPONENTS MR. BUSH, I believe fucking America is producing this pumdanmgnaij cells thingamangi right? I watched in Discovery that there’s much research is being done on [oi mana boleh (direct translation: where can) on the sun] about the sun and from the time civilization started we have kept records of our research of sun…can somebody tell me who has these documents…we need to know? Mr. Bush Fires…have you seen it…have them read it to you during your bedtime? (do you know what I am talking about – ask Mr. Fuckibng ..whats his name..tambi or nimbi or nammeeb or beeb-beep…it was under his ass…
First we say the morning sun is good coz got vitamin D. Adakah (DT: got ah?)? Siapa makan (DT: who ate)? Where is the doctor who told the sun ray got vitamin D? Who is he? What is his name? I want to see him. Father…I told you I wanted to be a doctor, you-lah so poor, believed that fuycker kandasamy will send me to fucking Indai to fucking manipal to sgydui fuckign medicine…what happened, fucker fucked and left…aiuyoh (DT=Special term, say it as it is and feel its sound) kadavuleh (DT: GOD=ME)…manipal…am coing after your nfor charging sooomuch…. I hread that only abpout (50) % is it? goes for education …others go to where…around the world spent on womanizing..or maniiziongas (new term coined today + manizing – what do you think…how come we women did not have a term for this ah? Why you think we are not itching to fuck around ah? Actually I wanted to write I too and stopped becaweu that’s not what I want…doyouwant to know what I want, read until the end…last statement…aiyoh! Very shylah…covering my face)….don’t know… heheheha hahahhhehe am cominga…..
Now, porr bush fore adn little mermaid are shivering luife a leaf in typhoonm….wjhat have hyu mad3e me…
Actually osho is touching me now and am having an orgasm…ooohbhhhh…this is nice…just kidding coz scared…also I had orgasms each time I read the article on Bush Fire/LittleMerrmaid/ Spieldberg…etc. what a joke.
Now, after finding out about our vitamin D as one of the SUNs (Dr. Sundari this is not you, am talking about the actual nuclear powered sun) component.
Now this poundav,sadfno cell producers, do you know what the sun is made of? How it works…each moment there is a massive nuclear explosion is going on … the sun is a continuous explosion of nuclear …what-not…NASA help me here…or are you too paid under-table money by bush fire like he did against Kyoto protocol (KP)? I don’t know whats going on with the KP but it won’t leave my mind perhaps KP is also the short form for Kuala Pilah or the name my ex-punjabi-group-of-vulger-men-used-to-call-me-when-we-drank-at-Brickfields-Kajang-Bangi-pubs-etc. I fucked…letme see…Acitot, Bob, Kissed let me see..Itto,sparko (very sexy young man who look like whatisname..some Hollywood actor).
1st you said sun gives (in plastic packets is it?) vitamin D. Then you told don’t go to out from 11am – 3pm under the sun because the sun will give cancer…how uh… in a dulang (DT: tray) is it? Like mas kahwin (DT: Dowry) is it? Skin Cancer…coz hole in sky, blah…blah…oi…I am still waiting for the mearing tape in my humble room …sorry-lah wait outside with it until I can talk again ok…
Then sunddenly one day you say…RAKYAT…you here means ……………… the sun has many harmful rays but we still don’t know what…PREPARE THE LIST NOW.
Now that you know how long foscil fuel lasts (Read My Article Yesterday Right…illumination right? Fucker NAMBIB or NAMEEM or BEEBBEEPSPEEDYGONZALES at the RECEPTION OF the GOD-FORSAKEN-NASI-KANDAR-PUNDEK-PLACE (actually god is here when they play the prayers coz it moves me to tears) abducted my CD and have been keeping it under wraps …ooopppss under ass actually. Celaka India Dari Chennai (DT : what is celaka in English? I think it’s a special term like amok…hence in English CELAKA: Indain from Chennai – this is PR
…dunno why so jealouse to give people u knowledge…kedekut ilmu-kah (DT: knowledge stingy-kah?) I am so angry…Do you know if you give knowledge you gain more…idiot…stingy like van and valar…ha!ha! ssorry akkas… (Annex 1 carries my apology to all fuckers/fuckies).
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As I said focscil (cs or sc uh?) fuel lasts for another 50 years it seems…BASKARAN, remember we had this illuminating conversation in the car, sooo openged’ on the way to don’t know where …in 2000 or when uh? Am sweating coz almost lied … anyway, I think even now the experts are saying another 50 years – betulkah, IS IT TRUE? can we ask PETRONAS, SHELL and ESSO’S R&D teams. Actually I want to know what’s their plan? DO you know these oil producing companies have secrets too…I think…
I heard that they have heavily funded Research and Development Teams at the SHELL AND ESSO AND PETRONAS..(I am coming with a matchett … actually soft headed hammer because I don’t know the leaders..memememe – if I am, you’ll go bnacrupt coz I will spend it all on pundamavane…renewable…energy ffrom the sourceless source..more to come…I just found out that you all know about nada brahma…OH!MY!GOD! … I feel like fainting…am I crazy or what…can I run away to some ashram in TIBET and hide for awhile coz I think I feel like vomiting now…stomach hurts…actually I will hide under covers first…gurs sais…actually I can’t believe this…to laugh, to cry , to what////??? I can’t talk anymore…ery very scared…fucker bill gates, make-lah smaller fonts..oh!oh! he’s gonna make…fadskf0e0rq34)
All below in small caps and font size 8 – just got sms but scard to read…what to do…
Shall I run away for awhile, find out more and come back? My car maybe towed soon as 3-months payment outstanding, must sell insurance but doc. but policy with baskaran, must pay Citibank RM500 (just found out that …. Can I have some privacy please…can’t I write first and then use a thumb dfrive to send the article to you?...shaking…with don’t know what…why?)
Citibank called and said that my minimum payment for this month is RM660 as the total has exceeded RM 200 to RM9200.
cause exceeded RM50 to a total of RM9050 and also this month insurance payment goes trhough Citibank RM175 plus RM570…want to know more…pavin, ma,pa…so mich top do and am hiding here…hwo to run…
I WANT TO GO home to Kuala Pilah to be with my family today. Pleasea let me see my loved ones…Pavin too (esp.).
“SINCE I HAVE NO INTERNET FACILITY AND OFFICE FACILITY AND THIS PLACE IS VERY SLOW IN EVERYTHING…I have gone into silence once again and am shutting off my mind to be in my heart. When I get what I want, you may start reading and laughing again”.
But completed the bwloe……butr I have lots of compassion, hence I leave the following for our pleasure…
Foscsil (sc or cs uh?) producers can we know the budget and what’s their plan in 50 years? What are we to do with our cars? What is going to happen to my poor SPECTERA KAI? Then what, we need to buy other types of vehicles or start jogging to work? APA PELAN BROTHER? What IS the plan brother? Please listen to the CD below and tell me what is this that is coming from the outer space, thoruhg win and air…through molten core of earth..blah…blah…THEY MEAN THE SUN….right? more money for copywriters…go sit bu the river outside ampang puteri specialist centre…best idea will come….
I have many questions but the only one I want to know is after deciding if the sun is good or bad for us (don’t give me morning, evening sun…business…speak science in simple/rakyat English/malay/tamil please) List of all the sun rays components - actually put it in a table Microsoft (Bill Gates…I’ll talk about you later…dunoo good or bad..) Words – open table – make 4 columns (1. no. 2. component of sun(science and rakyat terms-both), 3. good(%), 4. bad (%),…keep going until the end … don’t know right? Do you know scientists of earth or should we ask the photovoltaic pundamavanes so that they can manipulate the outcome too suit their needs (don’t know) …RAKYAT OF MALAYSIA shall we take them to task … soon we too might go for solar energy coz sometime ago the army tried it and thought too expensive…at that time in 1995/6 – when my prof. (was it Prof.Dr.Jamaluddin Jahi or Prof. Samad Hadi –s sexy name uh! or who?) told us, I thought why so cheao and stingy like valar and van…sorry akkas….ooopss…refer to annex1… like ypouknow who… actually I feel so sorry for them that I can cry anytime…thank you guru for holding me together…I will die here and now if not for my guru OSHO. I LOVE YOU OSHO…i think we’ll do that later….he!he! YUMMY! My guru said they think we are kidding…no…you won’t know anyway…please remove cameras…we need privacy tonight…guru says they’ll put nmore careama..ture ar? Am laughting..
But now I think its good coz US is calling it the RENEWABLE SOURCE OF THE FUTURE….very suspicouse … we may end up like goring pisang
(DT: banana fritters – my favorite but must be very soft – from veryveryripebanana…guru just said…thye may think old man…..fuck off…what do you know…wanna try some… we are going crazy today, the sleep did us good..thanks) after sometime…dunno….better know now. I think South America has already started practicing … was it Brazil Prof? Pleaes ask Prof. in Malaysia on renewable energy and solar energy…if you ask me, I will say NADA BRAHMA … and go to sleep with OSHO…he!he!he!he!
oi….researchger of the workd run around to all countries that has photvoltainc pundamavane cells and see how long ehyt ve used and see tge outcome… I think this is very urgent and important …
Friends,
We Must KNOW what we are going to do before subscribing to it. Our representatives are always going for the (am very scared, earlier was very hot but now shaking) monies. STOP itlah…no need for money too much … don’t be greedy…see what happened to OSHO…he bought 93 or 97 rolls rouyce on a single day from U fucking S fucking A and wwhat happened…tishoooom…got shot and died …oh!oh! sorry that was Kennedy…they were smart…they killed him slowly and surely by arson…liiitttle by lltiotle…bloody rats…no BALLS to talk to him and scared he might mersmerize it seems…scared got not faith in yourself is it…fools…
SINCE I HAVE NO INTERNET FACILITY AND OFFICE FACILITY AND THIS PLACE IS VERY SLOW IN EVERYTHING…I have gone into silence once again and am shutting off my mind to be in my heart. When I get what I want, you may start reading and laughing again.
I LOVE THE PEOPLE OF EARTH AND THE BRILLIANT SON IN THE SKY BUT I WOULD NOT WANT TO GO TO THE SUN…WHY? I NEED THE LIST OF ITS COMPONENTS FIRST…give me the list Mr. President.
I have a story to tell about renewable energy…I have the answer…OSHO told me…want to know me, give me the facilities and I want and leave us alone to commune. Actually I was making a drama to introduce you OSHOs Nada Brahma CD…since tambi/nimbi/nambeeb/beebbeep…what-not (baskaran loves this word, does this word exist> please tell) did not give you the cd…Apparently you know about it…tcheh! No climax –lah….heheheehaajajajhaheheheh am scared….I AM THE FORCE OF NATURE and am not scared – at all…thanks to all of you, I slept so well last nite (just a minor confession – I took an anti-depressant-don’t’knowname…will try without it today…)
L laugh a lot vwhn I speak about osho…best…pleae let me go home to Kuala Pilah today. I have not been reading the papers or watching TV since don’t know when…was terribly shocked by the reception I received yesterday that I fell to peieces and forgot who I was and where I am…and all….thank you to my gurus for showing the light…
Can I go home To kuala pilah now…am scared
Dear friends, Actually, I was quite confused about my destinations as I am still evolving and need to know more. Also I adopted a no-plan life style to flow with nature sometime ago and have almost lost the ability do things in chronological order – as far as my life is concerned. Right now, I would like to be driven to Kuala Pilah to visit my entire family, spend sometime with them – maybe about 2 hours (more or less, let the decision not be mine) and then visit OSHOs ashram Switzerland and remain there for awhile to recuperate and learn more before I come back to the rakyat of Malaysia to scold more people…ha!ha!ha! I don’t know. I know what I want to do until Switzerland…after that let me not be the one to decide.
HOW TO MAKE THIS ARRANGEMENT – I did not write this…get me…I think sometimes that there’s something that’s sabotaging me here…but my gurus are taking good care of me. Please help me see my family before I leave the country for awhile.
I Love Malaysia. But not Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita as I am very scared here now…I here strange sounds in the bathroom and ourside the door and yesterday someone switched on (am shivering) mosquito music for a while – 2 times, they bang doors so loudly and speak all sorts and disturb my peace, the windows to creak unnecesswary , keyboard goes on its on here…sometimes until I gegt pissed…
Am just kidding…please send a male up to see me. I need to be with my parents for a while…please don’t harm any in my family…I love them so much…
I am holding all together well and thanks to my gurus.
ANNEX 1
Where is annex 1? I don’t know because I am shaking like a leaf and my body is hurting…heart too…
FUCK OFF…I/WE ARE OK AND AM GOING HOME NOW…PLEASE give me privacy.
THANK YOU. ALL THE WORLD IS MY HOME AND ALL ITS PEOPLE ARE MY SIBLINGS BUT KUALA PILAH IS MY BIO-FIELD – as Mr. maniam..waht is your sir name SIR…ha!ha!ha!
I am extending my stay for another day (indefinitely) and be back later from Kuala Pilah. LOVEYEALL.
I APOLOGIES (THOUSAND APOLIGES – pix me with both palms together at my chest with a turban like the famous Indian guy _____________ (forgot namelah, youknowwhy) in mind-your-language movie shaking my head left and right– ha1ha!ha!) for not doing this yesterday … tak cukup tidurlah (not enough sleep)…I am doing this – leaving this image cos I deon’t want you to touch my feet and make a god because you are my god.
What about this
Tiu-nah-seng, tiu-nah-mah….hiyah…apmacakma…FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE….he!ja@je4@ RP493084LFDEF[4Q3
However please protect me…
*scared* pls tell wahts happening? Why like this? Wh’s this? Suddently things appear in my OHSO notel=book..whos’ putting em here? NASA? Microsoft? What? People of Kelantan/ tok Guur? My furors? Bukit Aman/ Police force/ femalies? What? Pleae advise!
Amaravathy Exposed-Part-6
AMARAVATHY OSHO LOVER
The following article was a flow that occurred on Friday, May 25, 2007 entitled : Treachery of a Local Indian Journalist that I typed frantically from …. Until 11.58pm for it to go on air at 12midnight as I had my dear friend Rud waiting (I don’t know) but I know that wani of the STAR said that she’ll view it (perhaps) after her tamil serial on the telly that she said she was watching because she was at peace with herself (is it?...read on).
Guess What? I’ve been checking by blogsite everyday but using a silly mistake its suppose to be www.amaravathy3.blogspt.com but I’ve been typing it as www.amaravathy3@blogspot.com Hence I could not find my sites and thought they were hacked and removed. Little did I know that this one remained but with a little twist, the text were missing and my title that I named “AMARAVATHY OSHO LOVER” is now “AMARARAVATHY OSHO LOVER” all accompanying text missing…you tell me what’s happening. I HAVE BEEN HACKED AND MY ARTICLE REMOVED. Why would someone hack into my blogsite, I am just a-frail-looking-soft-voiced-big-hearted-strong-gazed-powerful-women-that-would-be-40-in-July-and-from-that-god-forsaken-town-of-Kuala-Pilah, actually god-filled-as-nature-is-still-intact.
Mr. Subramanian, is it you or your disciples? Have you got a hit list? Am I on it? Why are you doing this Mr. Subramaniam? Is it you Mr. Subramaniam? IS THIS YOU MR. SUBRAMANIAM? I am laughing as I am typing this thinking about the same article that I am going to feature here… I am a Sherlock Holms, I’ve read all his stories and I know what to do? I am going to drag you sorry-fat-ass across the streets outside Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita, Jalan Memanda 1, Poskod 68000, Ampang, Kuala Lumpur as this is my second home now. I am taking you to task Mr. Subramaniam…actually I already have…where are you hiding? In a little hole at the back of your hosue? Or is it a black home now…
Do you know what a black hole is? Wow! It’s an amazing phenomenon…I want to know what’s at the other end of the tunnel (dark hole). Mr. Bush do you know? OSHO KNEW YOU IDIOT! He would have taken me there or thought me about it…DID YOU KILL HIM? How much of your budget money have you spent on this? You could have spent it on plugging my ROOF you know. My ROOF IS ALSO YOUR ROOF MR. Bush…its our Sky. I am thinking so hard (almost 1 full minute) … what have you done for a compliment? I want to give you a compliment…but what ah!
Back to our issue with Mr. Subramaniam, you made me feel my heart in your 7-DTJ Program but you took it away in your DK2, where are you hiding it? I want it back. Baskaran are you keeping it? Please return it or I will get Ms. Parames (Dr. Sundari’s best friend) to sue your ass.
Actually, what’s my relationship with OSHO. I think – I must confess – that he’s the only one I will allow to touch my body. Ha1Ha! My bed is filled with his photos (actually the other single bed in Hotel Palm Inn above the REstoran nasi Kandar Pelita in the vicinity of Ampang Point, Kuala Lumpur). OSHO is my companion as I have many fears…I fear…please read my article entitled “MY FLAGITIOUS LIFE 1”. OSHO IS ALSO MY NOTEBOOK – the only friend I have chosen to have in this dark and illuminating period of my life (it used to be dark and desolate period but now it has changed). OSHO IS ALSO my body, anyway, anything that I love, I NAME OSHO. Thank YOU FOR EVERYTHING MY BELOVED OSHO. I wish I have met you, ha!ha! I have..take that President Bush. He’s with me now. He is my GURU who thought me all that I know and more about EXISTENCE and ME and YOU and ALL and PRESIDENT BUSH..shall I go on Mr. President? Mr. President, shall I continue? SHALL I PROCEED MR. PRESIDENT?
I AM RUNNING AMOK COMING AFTER YOU WITH A PARANG (MACHETT) but I would prefer a chair
Actually there are about 30 people at the Restaurant Nasi Kandar Pelita. Your black suited and ray banned thugs can’t get me here… we will all run amok (amok is a Malaysian word..learn from us) after you with parangs, daggers and knives and also chairs (me esp.).
THE WORLD NEED TO KNOW WHAT GOES ON AT AREA 51…who can tell us? I have a feeling that its not good…they are doing something menacing…and we need to stop them…who can help me…an abused(?)/Indian/little-looking-women/from-the-god-forsaken-town-of-kuala-pilah…actually it’s full of god because nature is still intact…
Anyway, AREA 51 is in the god-forsaken-desert of NEVADA, USA. I say god-forsaken-desert because there are no plants there. However I believe that desert is also part of existence, hence I will not call Nevada god-forsaken anymore…apparently I can’t do that because it is god-forsaken because of AREA &^*, GOD HAD LEFT THAT AREA.. oohhhaaahhhh! I am getting scared.. this is scary. I am pretending to laugh because this one is sending shivers down my spine, bony ass, thighs and legs. I look very solemn now.
They have a 55km perimeter of security features, including high fencing/cameras/spotlights/etc…watch discovery/national geography more or meditate and try astral traveling …wish OSHO was alive to teach us…is this why you killed him… jerk! I am here now…ask me…I think I need to run out to the rakyats (malay term for citizens) of Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita (It’s a restaurant that sells nasi kandar (find out..I am wondering how you’re going to find out because if I don’t know nobody knows…so nasi=rice and kandar=is a special term). You black suited men wont be able to touch me here…Do you know there were researches with powerful cameras and video cams around the fencing to find out what these fuckers were up to…army trucks are always seen in and out but nothing can be seen because it is all underground…they have smelly and nasty skeletons to hide in their cupboards if they are this secretive isn’t it…the moment outsiders are spotted…they come with their machine guns and army trucks to intimidate and chase...wonder how many people they killed…must interview their families…as if we know them…I WILL FIND OUT and drag your sorry ass on the streets outside Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita.
Actually I can’t write anymore because I am scared and just the thought of AREA 51 gives me the creeps and turns my heart cold. I live in my heart and I feel…very sensitive-lah! As such I feel it in my bones that there’s something sinister going on there, I have pictures flashing across my mind from various Hollywood movies that mess human minds/bodies/soul…am really scared…stopped all work for today. Un-relentless voice in my head just
I can see 2 beautiful-middle-aged-well-dressed-big-tits-women (not as big as mine…fucker baskaran, you only like ass it is? Gay or what? Oh!oh! just realized, maybe you like tiny tits?) ..one of em smoking away. Malaysia is a mix of rojak, colourful, vibrant and very, very, delicious… have you tried rojak, come to Pelita, yummy! I am Osho’s lover ma (Chinese colloquial way of talking..finally I got the spelling right, read my other articles and you’ll know how good I am with spellings?!@).
Dei…did you kill president KENNEDY… dei (die) Bush…did you kill OSHO? And Kennedy? Why? And people in NASA who wanted to come clean about your planetary projects? Did your presidency actually land on moon? Is that why you killed Kennedy? I heard that your moon landing was a simulation in your god-forsaken-desert-of-8r32847q38947. If only I had OSHO with me right now? I had the photos as evidence with me…(baskaran fucker, give me back my files..its marked personal you idiot) now. Anyway do you know that one of the photos had a reflection of the photographer…mana ada cahaya di bulan…vacuum-mah! (direct translation: where got light in moon…its vacuum!)? Dei… Bush give me the photos that Mr. Armstrong took on the moon in 2nd July1967 – is it? I was born in 18 July 1967, otherwise I would have followed them like Sherlock Holms…I love the intelligence of that man…wish I had met (f<>*&*) him.
Whats with this jews and Israel uh! Why can’t you all give that small piece of land to the poor ppl of Palestine…stingy like my sisters valar and van is it? Please read my article entitled ‘My Flagitious Life Part 1 for more information on my twin sisters Valarmathy d/o Sivalingam and Vanmathy (now Vannmathy) d/o Sivalingam (a spineless coward who hides behind my ma’s ass…sorry…very sorry!
Why so stingy…who is their main man now…Arial (little mermaid) Sharon (Hariharan – my-ex-one-sided-best-friend – more below) or whom? Wsas too long in my head to keep abreast with the world…since …former ganja addiction….now I am backw=fja..in …why Arial (little mermaid) were you so stubborn with the poor people of Palestine…thye are suffering like my pavin (my muslim convert nephew Hafez bin Abdullah – read article My Flagitious Life and more, in fact all)… is it because …hhhmmmm…whats the word … in thamil we call this ‘varatthu gowravam’ (tamil term for ‘useless ego’ – did you know that I sent this article to BBC earlier today…I am sure there’s a flurry of activity checking tamil-english dictionary if I didnt’ mention it here…poor things, why waste their time and money right?)…
Whats the date today Mr. Presisent? I am too busy with you to notice, May 28th 2007, A voice in my head says ‘enough amaravathy with the President’ and I answer ‘never’. Are you shaking like a leaf Mr. President … I am laughing so much. Mr. Bush thanks a million bringing laughter back into my life again, I shall never forgive …ooopsss… I meant forget YOU! My heart hurts…WHY DO YOU KILL GOOD PEOPLE, what a waste to the human race, MY BELOVED OSHO.
EMANCIPATE … CONSTIPATE .. I can’t do this now as I’m on a different flow…
Its now 2.53am at Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita, Kuala Lumpur and I am too scared too move, about to shake like a leaf just thinking about AREA 51, what does this say…there’s something fishy/smelly going on man…lets do something ok.
We must ask Mr. Bush to allow unlimited access for the Discovery and National Geography Channels and ME to go in there as and when we like. Give us a place to stay and study what they are doing there. IS THAT OK MR.BUSH? WHAT ARE YOU HIDING THERE? OSHOS REMAINS? Or KENNEDY’S REMAINS of ALL THE REMAINS OF ASTRAUNAUTS THAT WERE INVOLVED IN YOUR MOON PROJECT…do you want me to name names, I will personally go to their families and interview them and come after you. You Don’t Mess with the RAKYAT Bush, we will come after you. Who Killed the Entire Kenney Male Clan man…why so vindictive? I have tears in my eyes when I think of all the things that you have done to the people of earth and our EARTH. The Whole is suffering because of you. THE HOLE IN THE SKY IS THERE BECAUSE OF YOU. You are the biggest Carbon emitter in the world…AM I RIGHT MR. BUSH? WHY HAVE YOU NOT SIGNED THE KYOTO PROTOCOL? Why uh! Mr. Bush? Why! Sob!Sob! WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO FIX MY ROOF, YOU FOOL! Do you want to die soon? I mean do you want all of us to die soon? I am giving my friend SOHO (notebook) such a contempt look…am scared. Actually Mr. Bush, we don’t know if you did it or your people did it without telling you. Do they tell you anything? Are you just a puppet going after turbans, taking all the attention of the world to a different direction – away from your AREA 51.
Did we have visitors from Alpha Century in 1947? DID WE HAVE VISITORS FROM ALPHA CENTURY? Actually I am very influenced by HOLLYWOOD and AMERICAN BOOKS THAT fiction has merged with reality…IS IT? My source is not the internet you know…they are instincts…the best source of information in the entire world… Read…baskaran give me back my beloved OSHO’s books …I am so lost without them now…what am I going to get Bush to read…do you read Mr. Bush or do you get your body guards read for you during bed time? Are you eating right Mr. Bush? Have you been to AREA 51? Are you eating right Mr. Bush? If you are, then the body will tell you if something sinister is going on at AREA 51. I am going to come to US and feel that area and if my instincts tells me something fishy, I AM TAKING YOU TO TASK YOU FUCKER…if my rakyat (actually my rakyat is very many but don’t know who) allow me and give me money. I think this is a political statement but I say it as it is…the truth…as Sharon H Says…are you Hairy or are you Bush Fire or are you the WORLD? WE’RE GOING International soon.
Mr. Bush, Are You Hiding Under Your Toupeh? Why did you kill Saddam? Is this Human Rights? Poor man was hopelessly hiding in a hole, why can’t you forgive him and give him a home and a women/man companion, where is your compassion…world leader, MY BONY ASS! Time for a women leader, I AM HERE MR. BUSH, TAKE ME! TALK TO ME! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
A family (I think because there are 2 kids involved) of 4 muslims or Indians (don’t know the difference because we are rojak) just walked in and I think the couple (maybe early 40s – like me but not so cute asses though…bakaran..get that…) had just fucked. Guess how I know…instincts…he!he! her hair is wet and that shows that she had showered…common sense ma…(Chinese colloqial way of saying …am shaking in laughter…somebody tell me how to spell the word..now you knwo) we Malaysian, most of the time, shower after fuck coz its too hot here … the weather…why? Climate change..ohoham am I right about the shower fellow Malaysians, my entire female family clan does, except for me coz I love my BODY. I don’t know what I am saying, actually I do, just need to think longer…and commune with myselves/ourselves…want to know more…read OSHO/DR.DEEPAK CHOPRA/DR.BRUGH JOY/PARANJOTHI MAHAN (his only book I GOD – a must read that Tamil book for Mr. BUSH because the English version does not justify the fucking meaning).
Mr. Bush I will read and explain Paranjothi Mahan’s thin book if you call me and pay for my ticket from KLIA to Washington Airport, give me a ROOF TO STAY…oi…Mr. Bush, do you know what will happen if you don’t have a roof at your white house…think about it…at least take 5 full minutes, get me. FIX MY ROOF first, then call me at +012-292 0107 (my maxis mobile) or never mind, just call me…I can read you the book and explain…somebody must teach you a thing or two, but you went and killed him right? Why uh? DID YOU KILL MY BELOVED GURU OSHO…tell me Mr. Bush. I am AN ABUSED(?)-INDIAN-WOMEN-OF-THE-EARTH-WITH-SKY-AS-MY-ONLY-ROOF and looking very small and frail and soft voiced asking you “DID YOU KILL MY GURU OSHO, YOU FUCKER?” Answer me…dei… Mr. Bush, please. I will let you go if you say yes, but you must look me in the eye because I know when you lie. Did you? call me…I feel so liberated! Thank you mr. president, if you read my life history, you’ll understand how you’ve helped me too.
Has any Indian on earth called mr. Bush Fire Dei (die)? Has any women on earch called mr. Bush Fire Dei (die)…I just wish I can walk up to the 4 young muslim people (3 males and 1 female) and share this with them. Alas I am an Indian Women in her 40s, bony assed, laughing my head off with my GURU OSHO. How is this possible? Call me Mr.Bush.
I just found out that the police are here watching me typing away and laughing my heart out (under-cover-agents-in-their-black-mafia-looking-4-wheels) and waiting for this article. Actually they are here protecting me from various parties including your thugs Wild Fire Bush. THE BUSH FIRE IN INDONESIA DESERVES A SLAP…another chapter.
poor Baskaran had to do time for nothing…you all (Bush Fire and Little Mermaid) should be in PUDU – the former oldest prison in the world (I think)…Prime Minister Abdullah, can we do something about these muslim hating god forsaken men?
Is it true that the world is ruled by this minority jews who control major financial market of the world…saw what soros did…I think there’s something fishy here..spielberg (or iceberg) are you too involved …I am pissed off with you because you no longer show your movies [my favorites next to Peter Jackson (Lord of the Rings Director – my hero)] in Malaysia. Peter Jackson featured Lord of The Rings so magnificently that it surpassed my own wild imagination. I was awed because the scenes were better than my fantasy. What does this say? Am I imaginative? People of the earth, are my claims on Bush Fire and US wild?
Just because Dr. Mahathir (then PM of Malaysia) wanted to censor that one scene (people running around naked when the nazi officer shoots poor jews – my heart ached when I read Schlindlers List and watched that movie in….Singapore (Singapore-you deserve another chapter you piss-drinking, sterile-communists-as-my-ex-friend-sharon-calls), (how are you Bala Subra of Singapore – you wanted to lick me right?)) ..ooopsss….I am lying about watching Schlindlers List in Singapore, enlightened women cannot lie..sorry..but wont tell/cannot share/maybe arrested under ISA,1995 – is it?
Mr. Iceberg, why must you must deprive us of the joy of watching all good movies? I hate you? I have to huddle like a thief at …to buy…CDs at…just necasue of you…can’t I watch it decently in a cinema – big screens, sound systems, chachos and vanilla cocks (oops cokes) are absolute joy… is it…power play? Is it…or ego…maybe your cock is too small that’s why you’re trying to show power play with us small Malaysian…don’t you understand that we are sensitive to naked bodies..we are yet to evolve…have some understanding man….
What’s with yuou men…akka, come lets take them all to task… they go around making arrangements shaking hands or fighting and what-not (perhaps womanizing …Tan Sri Razali….am coming after you too…) and who is suffering. Dunno about him…I love him too…he was and still is my hero…WHY? Coz he was in the UN that’s all not because we fucked or that I’ve seen his cock. We give these bastards power, our tax money and our consumer money…what do they do to us…fuck our ASS!
This is what our world is facing…we need a women leader…in &*^$R#&*Y^E of course United Nations …somebody to empower these sleepy heads…what the hell are they doing with our monies…arguing over a single word for 3 days in a 10 day International Conventions…? Have you any idea what goes on around the tables of International Conventions..all you see is big words, technical jargons and big shots…baruahs argue over I word and finish up gallons of cofeee they buy with our monies. I was there in Costa Rica, in 1998 (is it…baskaran give me back my files) during the International Conference on Wetlands (or Ramsar – you want to know why – give me money – Convention on Wetlands)..I was initially exhilarated but now I know their techniques..thye use big words, technical jargons, boring tones and put you to sleep, get you to sign at that somnolent state…wallah (or ya allah!)…the money is in their pockets for them and their cronies…probably taken to womenize around the world…/
Oi…Bush.. (am laughing away) what are you doing to CNN man….what’s with your IRAQ or IRAN story all the time…stop messing with the muslims and do something more real like plugging the hole in the sky. Do you know that the sky (ozone layer) is our roof…idiot…what happens when there’s no roof at your white house? What happens? You’re in danger right? You get wet (oopss..I am not) right? Your … are you wearing a toupeh Mr. Bush (like Dr. Samy VEllu…Doc. you don’t look handsome with that on – remove it – accept yourself and be yourself and I will love you more – I have accepted myself for what I am … I no longer shave my you know what just because baskaran likes it that way..and am very happy…I had and hated Venus Shaving Blades..now I don’t have a shaving blade in my possession at Pelita and I look hairy and divine) or is your hair real hair? Its just that I saw your photo featured along side a chimp in Jay Leno late night talk show and could’t see the difference much…
Oi…Bush…why don’t you sign the KYOTO PROTOCOL…Why uh! Mr. Bush, why don’t you sign the KYOTO PROTOCOL… sob! sob! is it to support your money making cronies … have you reduced your countries carbon emission…or have you carted it off to some poor countries…You can do so much for humankind, instead you’re wasting your time running after the turbans…why? Are you an IDIOT or WHAT? Oh! oh! I better ask the local expert…what’s his name…MR. Lim Kok Wee is it…the former Director General (is it?) of the Malaysian MEtereological Services…did they sign the KYOTO PROTOCOL already? Last I knew … in 2004…they still did not…
Do you want to know what THE KYOTO PROTOCOL Is? Ask Faizal Duncan Parish? He’s the NGO expert on Climate Change. If you need me to explain more, please get me my precious files from Baskaran? I have so much to say and that idiot is hoarding my database – my second mind (or the 10th mind)…Am hotnowneedaircond…am so pissed off with Mr.Bush…shall we hao=lkdant bhimame nowwwwoa.ha!ha!ha!ha!
Do you know that Developed Countries can help conserve peat swamp forests at developing or poor countries and calculate how much carbon they can store…then they go and produce that amount in their country. How? What do you think your factories emit..what do you think you emit…what do you think plants emit during the day when they produce food through photosyntheses (what spelling?) and Carbon! At least the plants and trees do their part by emitting oxygen at night when they are sleeping (right) what do we do…we take and take and take…what do we do in return…no need to do-lah…at least don’t lah take until there’s nothing to take…DO NOT BE GREEDY WITH THE ENVIRONMENT..we can be greedy with everything else I agree (as with our late OSHO – do you know he ones bought 93 rolls Royce at US in a single – read more) even sex is ok…you can even fuck 10 at a time – if you have no problems with it or don’t feel guilty about it – but NEVER TAKE TOO MUCH FROM THE ENVIRONMENT…we have no where else to go to…oi Bush really you are sending people to Mars or cheating us?
Anyway, carbon causes a hole in the sky. Can we stop breathing? No! So what do we do…reduce other carbon emitting stuff right? What have you done to our world BUSH? You are taking advantage of the voiceless environment.
Ask all about carbon trading…you buy peat forests (carbon store) from developing/poor countries and use up that much in your country – you continue to pollute the air with your factories/cars/etc…Faizal enlighten these idiots…who comes up with such arrangements and who agrees to it…the minorities of poor/developing countries are bullied/paid – perhaps under-table money for this right? What is happening to this world? Why is everyone ASLEEP just like Ms. wani ofsadkfawwtaeweg, Did you understand what I am saying wani?
Peat forests…where do I begin…why is there a hole in our roof? MY ROOF? Because of some gases that we use – they are called greenhouse gases – they are Cloro-floro-carbon, etc…need to recall more but to my understanding now..(more later) its mostly carbon…this is the fucker that is causing our ozone layer to deteriorate (do you know this word wani?) that means its thinning and I think at some parts there are holes - experts are not telling us the truth..why…they don’t know…tell me who is going to the sky with a measuring tape? TELL ME WHO IS GOING TO THE SKY WITH A MEASURING TAPE? Can the satellites that roam the earth (probably peeping into peoples houses) identify these holes, take pix of them and show us? Can someone show me the hole in my roof? What is the evidence that there is a hole in the sky? Who is the expert? How do you know these things? Is science developed enough to know about the environment/nature/existence?
No One can know these things unless they meditate and/do astral traveling … science is not that advance to measure our climate or environment or nature or EXISTENCE, you don’t even know what’s roaming at the basement of your mind…you don’t even know what happens when you die…oohhhhhoooohhhhh…amaravathy,…. we…are…..waiting….fior fdsfayuoiououo…!
We are wasting our money…what we need to do is… chronological order (I think)…when we prove that the hole is true ..prove to whom? To the rakyat (malay word for public (not pubic as my late/former boss Mr. Menon wants it to be..)
Mr. Menon, what did you do with the funds you collected from HSBC and BBMB – worth RM1M – with the help of then, Finance Minister Daim Zainuddin (as you aptly say that he’s in your pocket, or is it?..forgot as stml due to former ganja addiction) that you collected to do up the PAYA INDAH WETLAND SANCTUARY…you finished it wehre? London? Paris? Where ? oi…Mr.Menon, what did you do with the RM1million that you collected for those poor wetland eco-system…can they ask you?...haunt you…no…but I can…and I am…I am their voice…answer me …dei Menon…
Back to hole in my roof..first…
a. enlighten rakyat on what’s with the hole…show the measuring tape that you took up to the sky and tell us how you measured the hole…show me exactly where it is and how you know the CFC is causing it? I am a jobless rakyat of Malaysia now … explain please…no more technical jargon to cheat us...let me ask the experts…who understands…come forward and give a press conference and tell us…Faizal….say it as it is...as I am saying now…english/malay/tamil please…Oh! Faizal can’t speak tamil but he’s fluent in English and ok in malay…I can translate…I have tamil background ok…don’t play…play (direct translation for jangan main-main)…
How come the tamil newspapers never talk about these issues uh…why always talk about India..hangover from the past is it….come out to the sun…I called and you came in late 90’s now nobody is calling you all right…Kali, why you never call them thought Najua? Doc. Sam why have you not asked the tamil nesan to cover issues on environment…this one deserves another article…
1. Publish the list of all products that cause the hole in the sky (MY ROOF) to deteriorate.
2. Inform the public of how important this is?
3. Teach the public what to do – stop using/buying/supporting them.
4. Publish the list of bastards that produce such products.
5. Hit the heads of these fuckers with chairs or go after them with parangs and daggers…they need to be taken to task.
Now…is this so difficult? What’s the point of going to MARS if we can’t do simple things like this? Who is running this world? It now needs a women and I am here…take me! President Bush…answer this…is your country fit to run/rule the world
I still think this is not enough because time has come for science to merge with spirituality…all those green-house-gas-emission-product-producers and environmental-experts and politicians…come see me and sit and meditate with me…I will take you places…I think I need to run out of the room now…ha!ha! COME SEE ME IF YOU HAVE THE BALLS! Am running out now…to PELITA to be with the rakyat…
Before that…go to KINOKUNIYA and order OSHO’s book “AWARENESS – A coureagous way to live (is it?…Baskaran Fucker … give me OSHOs books…he needs me now). They managed to order some book for me but failed after sometime … perhaps blocked …just like all my email accounts…WHO BLOCKED ALL MY EMAIL ACCOUNTS AND CUT ME OFF THE WORLD… is it you BASKARAN… ada balls-kah? WHO? Why don’t you come and see me in person…I am such a frail looking abused/Indian/exd-maijuana-addict/fromthegodforsakentownofKUalaPilah…actually full of god as nature is still intact…GET ME BASKARAN…. 30 pages coming on you son-of-a-bitch….he!he!he! Dunno wat am sying… Bye
This was my plea to the TOYOTA FOUNDATION…
8. Reason why a Toyota Foundation Grant is needed?
(Why is funding from a private foundation necessary?) I too bought into the story until just now…we need to see the measuring tape first…whats with UNFCCC (United Nations Framework Convention on Climate Change – those fuckers with the measuring tape and money..soo much of our monies – give them to osho’s ashram in Bombay so they can sit and meditate and tell you what to do - another chapter on you.. fucker bush fire …that’s for killing worlds most important asset, he knew the answer you IDIOT…now I know!)
The loss of ozone layer means annihilation of the human race and all that we love. We need all the funds available for the environment to protect the thin layer of atmosphere that is protecting human race. Most of the Southeast Asian governments are still combating poverty alleviation. As such funding from private foundations is absolutely necessary to address challenges related to the environment, especially the climate change as it involves the entire human race.
Toyota Foundation have always cared for the well being of the earth and its people by providing funds to minority groups who need it most (I was just being polite – I think you have no idea what priority is). As such we believe that the voice of the neglected Southeast Asia will be heard and the importance of protecting the ozone layer will be felt as much as the minority Civil Society Organisations (just found out that they represent not the actual Civil Society Org. but government bodies – Faizal and Mr.Chee Tong Yew and Dr.Sundari know more about this…ask them please…ASK THEM…I can’t because they’re my friends –if they still want me..) in the region.
Let’s join hands in saving our sky.
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Change your ways and behave yourself. This is my message to the society at large. At large because it is a very large message and we are going to tear it down to atomic size. A voice just asked me where have you been Amaravathy and I answered ‘DEAD’. Let them ask me what it is ---who? –society! We are all DEAD! WE need to FEEL again. To all Indians out there
‘‘Listen to the following song that Mohan mimicked for Revathy in this…. my short term memory lost due to marijuana addiction is not at all good for the society because I have a message to give ….“once again, go to the CD shop above the restaurant that is opposite Laxmi Narayan Restaurant (can’t remember names at all) at Lebuh Ampang (my favorite haunt) and buy yes…Utahaya Geetham movie…Mohan mimicked THIS Song From a Prison to Revathy “can’t remember as the Tamil news at the back is disturbing my flow of thought”… YEA…it sounds
‘ithayam oru kovil, athil uthayam oru pahdal, ithil vaalum thevi nee’…this is me. (translation: our heart is our temple, there emerges a song, you’re the goddess who lives in the heart – English words never justifies the beauty of my language)
I live in my heart and not in my head…I feel, therefore I am the force of nature.
I just found new meaning to it, sitting here at the reception of this cheap hotel in the company of an Indian man from Chennai – he’s at the other side of the desk…just hold your suppressed thoughts…he’s very decently reading Part 1 & 2 of the story of my life…just see how suppressed my mind is…GOSH!- Anyway I cried here just now thinking of what I was doing to Baskaran because I know that he was such a private person…liar…you became famous before me and made it big right…in newspapers way back … I won’t make it easy for the media…let them do some work…. As if they are interested…they rather …. Never mind….no time/
Oh! Baskaran … what have I done to you. Am I sounding like an Indian Drama Queen? Is this what you want? Baskaran I am not at all affected but what am I doing to YOURSELF! I am killing you to recreate an independent and better person. Die today. Wake up tomorrow different. Don’t give a FUCK to what this people say about us. It was our life and I am proud of it. I am better today because of you. Thank you. Tell them to FUCK OFF! I almost did to a journalist from Star called Wani (I have now)…I have a message and all she was interested is in my marijuana addiction … her question “Did your husband beat you up in addition to getting you hooked on marijuana”. Such a bitch. Ask them all to fuck Off. She didn’t even read my story This is the kind of society we live in. I said all those nasty things about you to get the attention of the media. Now that I have it, I will tell the truth. We did marijuana together, you were a bad influence but you did not force me. NO ONE CAN FORCE ME AS I AM FORCE OF NATURE AS ALL WOMEN ARE WHEN THEY ARE AWAKE.
Do you know that all women are enlightened – if they escape the tyranny of men!
I am an independent women with her mind of my own. I quit marijuana without any ones help right? What does this say? I could have done it anytime but I didn’t because I was having a good time with baskaran and did not want it to end because our relationship was a ganja relationship and I am proud of it. For those of you who have not experienced a ganja session, go to Bukit Bintang, Jalan Alor and ask the parking attendants there, please give them RM50 (minimum) and they will give you something worth RM20 until they trust you enough to get you more.
Why don’t Wani try some, perhaps she may understand that marijuana addicts do not beat their wives but have some and give them a good lick/blow. Learn before you call and ask cocked up questions. Very sneakily she threw my ex-friiends name who were and is journalists at the STAR Shamala Velu and Grace Chin. Where are you Shamala? Hiding under Singams sarong? I am laughing so hard as I am writing this because I have no idea if Singam wears Sarong! Why is our local media so FUCKED UP? Don’t you keep abreast with what is happening at world at large. Come out of the dark corners of your mind and embrace the sun. We need light in these moments of dark and desolate period. Now I remember…Bob Marley my ganja fellow partner said…let me repeat this again
EMANCIPATE YOURSELF FROM MENTAL SLAVERY BUT NONE OURSELVES CAN FREE OUR MIND! HAVE NO FEAR FOR ATOMIC ENERGY COZ NONE OF US CAN FIGHT THE TIME! HOW LONG SHALL WE KILL OUR PROPHETS WHILE WE STAND ASIDE AND LOOK…i miss you osho…i am OSHO back to haunt you BUSH!
I am not going to read this before publishing it because one of myself may delete this (accidentally as I have …article on danes and me…aiyah…will rewrite later…not now as the ENVIRONMENT/NATURE/EXISTENCE need me…OSHOs LOVER!
am scared…i think i will die if not for the support of restoran nasi kandar pelita at Kuala Lumpur in the vicinity of Ampang Point….oooohhhhhaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh sob! sob! the world is dying and all we care about is killing prophets and going after turbans and women…where is justice …who is going to be the voice of the environment/nature/existence…I AM as I AM PART OF NATURE: EXISTENCE:GOD:YOU ARE TOO MY FELLOW SIBLINGS FROM MY HOME EARTH THAT HAS A ROOF:OUR SKY.
The following article was a flow that occurred on Friday, May 25, 2007 entitled : Treachery of a Local Indian Journalist that I typed frantically from …. Until 11.58pm for it to go on air at 12midnight as I had my dear friend Rud waiting (I don’t know) but I know that wani of the STAR said that she’ll view it (perhaps) after her tamil serial on the telly that she said she was watching because she was at peace with herself (is it?...read on).
Guess What? I’ve been checking by blogsite everyday but using a silly mistake its suppose to be www.amaravathy3.blogspt.com but I’ve been typing it as www.amaravathy3@blogspot.com Hence I could not find my sites and thought they were hacked and removed. Little did I know that this one remained but with a little twist, the text were missing and my title that I named “AMARAVATHY OSHO LOVER” is now “AMARARAVATHY OSHO LOVER” all accompanying text missing…you tell me what’s happening. I HAVE BEEN HACKED AND MY ARTICLE REMOVED. Why would someone hack into my blogsite, I am just a-frail-looking-soft-voiced-big-hearted-strong-gazed-powerful-women-that-would-be-40-in-July-and-from-that-god-forsaken-town-of-Kuala-Pilah, actually god-filled-as-nature-is-still-intact.
Mr. Subramanian, is it you or your disciples? Have you got a hit list? Am I on it? Why are you doing this Mr. Subramaniam? Is it you Mr. Subramaniam? IS THIS YOU MR. SUBRAMANIAM? I am laughing as I am typing this thinking about the same article that I am going to feature here… I am a Sherlock Holms, I’ve read all his stories and I know what to do? I am going to drag you sorry-fat-ass across the streets outside Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita, Jalan Memanda 1, Poskod 68000, Ampang, Kuala Lumpur as this is my second home now. I am taking you to task Mr. Subramaniam…actually I already have…where are you hiding? In a little hole at the back of your hosue? Or is it a black home now…
Do you know what a black hole is? Wow! It’s an amazing phenomenon…I want to know what’s at the other end of the tunnel (dark hole). Mr. Bush do you know? OSHO KNEW YOU IDIOT! He would have taken me there or thought me about it…DID YOU KILL HIM? How much of your budget money have you spent on this? You could have spent it on plugging my ROOF you know. My ROOF IS ALSO YOUR ROOF MR. Bush…its our Sky. I am thinking so hard (almost 1 full minute) … what have you done for a compliment? I want to give you a compliment…but what ah!
Back to our issue with Mr. Subramaniam, you made me feel my heart in your 7-DTJ Program but you took it away in your DK2, where are you hiding it? I want it back. Baskaran are you keeping it? Please return it or I will get Ms. Parames (Dr. Sundari’s best friend) to sue your ass.
Actually, what’s my relationship with OSHO. I think – I must confess – that he’s the only one I will allow to touch my body. Ha1Ha! My bed is filled with his photos (actually the other single bed in Hotel Palm Inn above the REstoran nasi Kandar Pelita in the vicinity of Ampang Point, Kuala Lumpur). OSHO is my companion as I have many fears…I fear…please read my article entitled “MY FLAGITIOUS LIFE 1”. OSHO IS ALSO MY NOTEBOOK – the only friend I have chosen to have in this dark and illuminating period of my life (it used to be dark and desolate period but now it has changed). OSHO IS ALSO my body, anyway, anything that I love, I NAME OSHO. Thank YOU FOR EVERYTHING MY BELOVED OSHO. I wish I have met you, ha!ha! I have..take that President Bush. He’s with me now. He is my GURU who thought me all that I know and more about EXISTENCE and ME and YOU and ALL and PRESIDENT BUSH..shall I go on Mr. President? Mr. President, shall I continue? SHALL I PROCEED MR. PRESIDENT?
I AM RUNNING AMOK COMING AFTER YOU WITH A PARANG (MACHETT) but I would prefer a chair
Actually there are about 30 people at the Restaurant Nasi Kandar Pelita. Your black suited and ray banned thugs can’t get me here… we will all run amok (amok is a Malaysian word..learn from us) after you with parangs, daggers and knives and also chairs (me esp.).
THE WORLD NEED TO KNOW WHAT GOES ON AT AREA 51…who can tell us? I have a feeling that its not good…they are doing something menacing…and we need to stop them…who can help me…an abused(?)/Indian/little-looking-women/from-the-god-forsaken-town-of-kuala-pilah…actually it’s full of god because nature is still intact…
Anyway, AREA 51 is in the god-forsaken-desert of NEVADA, USA. I say god-forsaken-desert because there are no plants there. However I believe that desert is also part of existence, hence I will not call Nevada god-forsaken anymore…apparently I can’t do that because it is god-forsaken because of AREA &^*, GOD HAD LEFT THAT AREA.. oohhhaaahhhh! I am getting scared.. this is scary. I am pretending to laugh because this one is sending shivers down my spine, bony ass, thighs and legs. I look very solemn now.
They have a 55km perimeter of security features, including high fencing/cameras/spotlights/etc…watch discovery/national geography more or meditate and try astral traveling …wish OSHO was alive to teach us…is this why you killed him… jerk! I am here now…ask me…I think I need to run out to the rakyats (malay term for citizens) of Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita (It’s a restaurant that sells nasi kandar (find out..I am wondering how you’re going to find out because if I don’t know nobody knows…so nasi=rice and kandar=is a special term). You black suited men wont be able to touch me here…Do you know there were researches with powerful cameras and video cams around the fencing to find out what these fuckers were up to…army trucks are always seen in and out but nothing can be seen because it is all underground…they have smelly and nasty skeletons to hide in their cupboards if they are this secretive isn’t it…the moment outsiders are spotted…they come with their machine guns and army trucks to intimidate and chase...wonder how many people they killed…must interview their families…as if we know them…I WILL FIND OUT and drag your sorry ass on the streets outside Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita.
Actually I can’t write anymore because I am scared and just the thought of AREA 51 gives me the creeps and turns my heart cold. I live in my heart and I feel…very sensitive-lah! As such I feel it in my bones that there’s something sinister going on there, I have pictures flashing across my mind from various Hollywood movies that mess human minds/bodies/soul…am really scared…stopped all work for today. Un-relentless voice in my head just
I can see 2 beautiful-middle-aged-well-dressed-big-tits-women (not as big as mine…fucker baskaran, you only like ass it is? Gay or what? Oh!oh! just realized, maybe you like tiny tits?) ..one of em smoking away. Malaysia is a mix of rojak, colourful, vibrant and very, very, delicious… have you tried rojak, come to Pelita, yummy! I am Osho’s lover ma (Chinese colloquial way of talking..finally I got the spelling right, read my other articles and you’ll know how good I am with spellings?!@).
Dei…did you kill president KENNEDY… dei (die) Bush…did you kill OSHO? And Kennedy? Why? And people in NASA who wanted to come clean about your planetary projects? Did your presidency actually land on moon? Is that why you killed Kennedy? I heard that your moon landing was a simulation in your god-forsaken-desert-of-8r32847q38947. If only I had OSHO with me right now? I had the photos as evidence with me…(baskaran fucker, give me back my files..its marked personal you idiot) now. Anyway do you know that one of the photos had a reflection of the photographer…mana ada cahaya di bulan…vacuum-mah! (direct translation: where got light in moon…its vacuum!)? Dei… Bush give me the photos that Mr. Armstrong took on the moon in 2nd July1967 – is it? I was born in 18 July 1967, otherwise I would have followed them like Sherlock Holms…I love the intelligence of that man…wish I had met (f<>*&*) him.
Whats with this jews and Israel uh! Why can’t you all give that small piece of land to the poor ppl of Palestine…stingy like my sisters valar and van is it? Please read my article entitled ‘My Flagitious Life Part 1 for more information on my twin sisters Valarmathy d/o Sivalingam and Vanmathy (now Vannmathy) d/o Sivalingam (a spineless coward who hides behind my ma’s ass…sorry…very sorry!
Why so stingy…who is their main man now…Arial (little mermaid) Sharon (Hariharan – my-ex-one-sided-best-friend – more below) or whom? Wsas too long in my head to keep abreast with the world…since …former ganja addiction….now I am backw=fja..in …why Arial (little mermaid) were you so stubborn with the poor people of Palestine…thye are suffering like my pavin (my muslim convert nephew Hafez bin Abdullah – read article My Flagitious Life and more, in fact all)… is it because …hhhmmmm…whats the word … in thamil we call this ‘varatthu gowravam’ (tamil term for ‘useless ego’ – did you know that I sent this article to BBC earlier today…I am sure there’s a flurry of activity checking tamil-english dictionary if I didnt’ mention it here…poor things, why waste their time and money right?)…
Whats the date today Mr. Presisent? I am too busy with you to notice, May 28th 2007, A voice in my head says ‘enough amaravathy with the President’ and I answer ‘never’. Are you shaking like a leaf Mr. President … I am laughing so much. Mr. Bush thanks a million bringing laughter back into my life again, I shall never forgive …ooopsss… I meant forget YOU! My heart hurts…WHY DO YOU KILL GOOD PEOPLE, what a waste to the human race, MY BELOVED OSHO.
EMANCIPATE … CONSTIPATE .. I can’t do this now as I’m on a different flow…
Its now 2.53am at Restoran Nasi Kandar Pelita, Kuala Lumpur and I am too scared too move, about to shake like a leaf just thinking about AREA 51, what does this say…there’s something fishy/smelly going on man…lets do something ok.
We must ask Mr. Bush to allow unlimited access for the Discovery and National Geography Channels and ME to go in there as and when we like. Give us a place to stay and study what they are doing there. IS THAT OK MR.BUSH? WHAT ARE YOU HIDING THERE? OSHOS REMAINS? Or KENNEDY’S REMAINS of ALL THE REMAINS OF ASTRAUNAUTS THAT WERE INVOLVED IN YOUR MOON PROJECT…do you want me to name names, I will personally go to their families and interview them and come after you. You Don’t Mess with the RAKYAT Bush, we will come after you. Who Killed the Entire Kenney Male Clan man…why so vindictive? I have tears in my eyes when I think of all the things that you have done to the people of earth and our EARTH. The Whole is suffering because of you. THE HOLE IN THE SKY IS THERE BECAUSE OF YOU. You are the biggest Carbon emitter in the world…AM I RIGHT MR. BUSH? WHY HAVE YOU NOT SIGNED THE KYOTO PROTOCOL? Why uh! Mr. Bush? Why! Sob!Sob! WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO FIX MY ROOF, YOU FOOL! Do you want to die soon? I mean do you want all of us to die soon? I am giving my friend SOHO (notebook) such a contempt look…am scared. Actually Mr. Bush, we don’t know if you did it or your people did it without telling you. Do they tell you anything? Are you just a puppet going after turbans, taking all the attention of the world to a different direction – away from your AREA 51.
Did we have visitors from Alpha Century in 1947? DID WE HAVE VISITORS FROM ALPHA CENTURY? Actually I am very influenced by HOLLYWOOD and AMERICAN BOOKS THAT fiction has merged with reality…IS IT? My source is not the internet you know…they are instincts…the best source of information in the entire world… Read…baskaran give me back my beloved OSHO’s books …I am so lost without them now…what am I going to get Bush to read…do you read Mr. Bush or do you get your body guards read for you during bed time? Are you eating right Mr. Bush? Have you been to AREA 51? Are you eating right Mr. Bush? If you are, then the body will tell you if something sinister is going on at AREA 51. I am going to come to US and feel that area and if my instincts tells me something fishy, I AM TAKING YOU TO TASK YOU FUCKER…if my rakyat (actually my rakyat is very many but don’t know who) allow me and give me money. I think this is a political statement but I say it as it is…the truth…as Sharon H Says…are you Hairy or are you Bush Fire or are you the WORLD? WE’RE GOING International soon.
Mr. Bush, Are You Hiding Under Your Toupeh? Why did you kill Saddam? Is this Human Rights? Poor man was hopelessly hiding in a hole, why can’t you forgive him and give him a home and a women/man companion, where is your compassion…world leader, MY BONY ASS! Time for a women leader, I AM HERE MR. BUSH, TAKE ME! TALK TO ME! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
A family (I think because there are 2 kids involved) of 4 muslims or Indians (don’t know the difference because we are rojak) just walked in and I think the couple (maybe early 40s – like me but not so cute asses though…bakaran..get that…) had just fucked. Guess how I know…instincts…he!he! her hair is wet and that shows that she had showered…common sense ma…(Chinese colloqial way of saying …am shaking in laughter…somebody tell me how to spell the word..now you knwo) we Malaysian, most of the time, shower after fuck coz its too hot here … the weather…why? Climate change..ohoham am I right about the shower fellow Malaysians, my entire female family clan does, except for me coz I love my BODY. I don’t know what I am saying, actually I do, just need to think longer…and commune with myselves/ourselves…want to know more…read OSHO/DR.DEEPAK CHOPRA/DR.BRUGH JOY/PARANJOTHI MAHAN (his only book I GOD – a must read that Tamil book for Mr. BUSH because the English version does not justify the fucking meaning).
Mr. Bush I will read and explain Paranjothi Mahan’s thin book if you call me and pay for my ticket from KLIA to Washington Airport, give me a ROOF TO STAY…oi…Mr. Bush, do you know what will happen if you don’t have a roof at your white house…think about it…at least take 5 full minutes, get me. FIX MY ROOF first, then call me at +012-292 0107 (my maxis mobile) or never mind, just call me…I can read you the book and explain…somebody must teach you a thing or two, but you went and killed him right? Why uh? DID YOU KILL MY BELOVED GURU OSHO…tell me Mr. Bush. I am AN ABUSED(?)-INDIAN-WOMEN-OF-THE-EARTH-WITH-SKY-AS-MY-ONLY-ROOF and looking very small and frail and soft voiced asking you “DID YOU KILL MY GURU OSHO, YOU FUCKER?” Answer me…dei… Mr. Bush, please. I will let you go if you say yes, but you must look me in the eye because I know when you lie. Did you? call me…I feel so liberated! Thank you mr. president, if you read my life history, you’ll understand how you’ve helped me too.
Has any Indian on earth called mr. Bush Fire Dei (die)? Has any women on earch called mr. Bush Fire Dei (die)…I just wish I can walk up to the 4 young muslim people (3 males and 1 female) and share this with them. Alas I am an Indian Women in her 40s, bony assed, laughing my head off with my GURU OSHO. How is this possible? Call me Mr.Bush.
I just found out that the police are here watching me typing away and laughing my heart out (under-cover-agents-in-their-black-mafia-looking-4-wheels) and waiting for this article. Actually they are here protecting me from various parties including your thugs Wild Fire Bush. THE BUSH FIRE IN INDONESIA DESERVES A SLAP…another chapter.
poor Baskaran had to do time for nothing…you all (Bush Fire and Little Mermaid) should be in PUDU – the former oldest prison in the world (I think)…Prime Minister Abdullah, can we do something about these muslim hating god forsaken men?
Is it true that the world is ruled by this minority jews who control major financial market of the world…saw what soros did…I think there’s something fishy here..spielberg (or iceberg) are you too involved …I am pissed off with you because you no longer show your movies [my favorites next to Peter Jackson (Lord of the Rings Director – my hero)] in Malaysia. Peter Jackson featured Lord of The Rings so magnificently that it surpassed my own wild imagination. I was awed because the scenes were better than my fantasy. What does this say? Am I imaginative? People of the earth, are my claims on Bush Fire and US wild?
Just because Dr. Mahathir (then PM of Malaysia) wanted to censor that one scene (people running around naked when the nazi officer shoots poor jews – my heart ached when I read Schlindlers List and watched that movie in….Singapore (Singapore-you deserve another chapter you piss-drinking, sterile-communists-as-my-ex-friend-sharon-calls), (how are you Bala Subra of Singapore – you wanted to lick me right?)) ..ooopsss….I am lying about watching Schlindlers List in Singapore, enlightened women cannot lie..sorry..but wont tell/cannot share/maybe arrested under ISA,1995 – is it?
Mr. Iceberg, why must you must deprive us of the joy of watching all good movies? I hate you? I have to huddle like a thief at …to buy…CDs at…just necasue of you…can’t I watch it decently in a cinema – big screens, sound systems, chachos and vanilla cocks (oops cokes) are absolute joy… is it…power play? Is it…or ego…maybe your cock is too small that’s why you’re trying to show power play with us small Malaysian…don’t you understand that we are sensitive to naked bodies..we are yet to evolve…have some understanding man….
What’s with yuou men…akka, come lets take them all to task… they go around making arrangements shaking hands or fighting and what-not (perhaps womanizing …Tan Sri Razali….am coming after you too…) and who is suffering. Dunno about him…I love him too…he was and still is my hero…WHY? Coz he was in the UN that’s all not because we fucked or that I’ve seen his cock. We give these bastards power, our tax money and our consumer money…what do they do to us…fuck our ASS!
This is what our world is facing…we need a women leader…in &*^$R#&*Y^E of course United Nations …somebody to empower these sleepy heads…what the hell are they doing with our monies…arguing over a single word for 3 days in a 10 day International Conventions…? Have you any idea what goes on around the tables of International Conventions..all you see is big words, technical jargons and big shots…baruahs argue over I word and finish up gallons of cofeee they buy with our monies. I was there in Costa Rica, in 1998 (is it…baskaran give me back my files) during the International Conference on Wetlands (or Ramsar – you want to know why – give me money – Convention on Wetlands)..I was initially exhilarated but now I know their techniques..thye use big words, technical jargons, boring tones and put you to sleep, get you to sign at that somnolent state…wallah (or ya allah!)…the money is in their pockets for them and their cronies…probably taken to womenize around the world…/
Oi…Bush.. (am laughing away) what are you doing to CNN man….what’s with your IRAQ or IRAN story all the time…stop messing with the muslims and do something more real like plugging the hole in the sky. Do you know that the sky (ozone layer) is our roof…idiot…what happens when there’s no roof at your white house? What happens? You’re in danger right? You get wet (oopss..I am not) right? Your … are you wearing a toupeh Mr. Bush (like Dr. Samy VEllu…Doc. you don’t look handsome with that on – remove it – accept yourself and be yourself and I will love you more – I have accepted myself for what I am … I no longer shave my you know what just because baskaran likes it that way..and am very happy…I had and hated Venus Shaving Blades..now I don’t have a shaving blade in my possession at Pelita and I look hairy and divine) or is your hair real hair? Its just that I saw your photo featured along side a chimp in Jay Leno late night talk show and could’t see the difference much…
Oi…Bush…why don’t you sign the KYOTO PROTOCOL…Why uh! Mr. Bush, why don’t you sign the KYOTO PROTOCOL… sob! sob! is it to support your money making cronies … have you reduced your countries carbon emission…or have you carted it off to some poor countries…You can do so much for humankind, instead you’re wasting your time running after the turbans…why? Are you an IDIOT or WHAT? Oh! oh! I better ask the local expert…what’s his name…MR. Lim Kok Wee is it…the former Director General (is it?) of the Malaysian MEtereological Services…did they sign the KYOTO PROTOCOL already? Last I knew … in 2004…they still did not…
Do you want to know what THE KYOTO PROTOCOL Is? Ask Faizal Duncan Parish? He’s the NGO expert on Climate Change. If you need me to explain more, please get me my precious files from Baskaran? I have so much to say and that idiot is hoarding my database – my second mind (or the 10th mind)…Am hotnowneedaircond…am so pissed off with Mr.Bush…shall we hao=lkdant bhimame nowwwwoa.ha!ha!ha!ha!
Do you know that Developed Countries can help conserve peat swamp forests at developing or poor countries and calculate how much carbon they can store…then they go and produce that amount in their country. How? What do you think your factories emit..what do you think you emit…what do you think plants emit during the day when they produce food through photosyntheses (what spelling?) and Carbon! At least the plants and trees do their part by emitting oxygen at night when they are sleeping (right) what do we do…we take and take and take…what do we do in return…no need to do-lah…at least don’t lah take until there’s nothing to take…DO NOT BE GREEDY WITH THE ENVIRONMENT..we can be greedy with everything else I agree (as with our late OSHO – do you know he ones bought 93 rolls Royce at US in a single – read more) even sex is ok…you can even fuck 10 at a time – if you have no problems with it or don’t feel guilty about it – but NEVER TAKE TOO MUCH FROM THE ENVIRONMENT…we have no where else to go to…oi Bush really you are sending people to Mars or cheating us?
Anyway, carbon causes a hole in the sky. Can we stop breathing? No! So what do we do…reduce other carbon emitting stuff right? What have you done to our world BUSH? You are taking advantage of the voiceless environment.
Ask all about carbon trading…you buy peat forests (carbon store) from developing/poor countries and use up that much in your country – you continue to pollute the air with your factories/cars/etc…Faizal enlighten these idiots…who comes up with such arrangements and who agrees to it…the minorities of poor/developing countries are bullied/paid – perhaps under-table money for this right? What is happening to this world? Why is everyone ASLEEP just like Ms. wani ofsadkfawwtaeweg, Did you understand what I am saying wani?
Peat forests…where do I begin…why is there a hole in our roof? MY ROOF? Because of some gases that we use – they are called greenhouse gases – they are Cloro-floro-carbon, etc…need to recall more but to my understanding now..(more later) its mostly carbon…this is the fucker that is causing our ozone layer to deteriorate (do you know this word wani?) that means its thinning and I think at some parts there are holes - experts are not telling us the truth..why…they don’t know…tell me who is going to the sky with a measuring tape? TELL ME WHO IS GOING TO THE SKY WITH A MEASURING TAPE? Can the satellites that roam the earth (probably peeping into peoples houses) identify these holes, take pix of them and show us? Can someone show me the hole in my roof? What is the evidence that there is a hole in the sky? Who is the expert? How do you know these things? Is science developed enough to know about the environment/nature/existence?
No One can know these things unless they meditate and/do astral traveling … science is not that advance to measure our climate or environment or nature or EXISTENCE, you don’t even know what’s roaming at the basement of your mind…you don’t even know what happens when you die…oohhhhhoooohhhhh…amaravathy,…. we…are…..waiting….fior fdsfayuoiououo…!
We are wasting our money…what we need to do is… chronological order (I think)…when we prove that the hole is true ..prove to whom? To the rakyat (malay word for public (not pubic as my late/former boss Mr. Menon wants it to be..)
Mr. Menon, what did you do with the funds you collected from HSBC and BBMB – worth RM1M – with the help of then, Finance Minister Daim Zainuddin (as you aptly say that he’s in your pocket, or is it?..forgot as stml due to former ganja addiction) that you collected to do up the PAYA INDAH WETLAND SANCTUARY…you finished it wehre? London? Paris? Where ? oi…Mr.Menon, what did you do with the RM1million that you collected for those poor wetland eco-system…can they ask you?...haunt you…no…but I can…and I am…I am their voice…answer me …dei Menon…
Back to hole in my roof..first…
a. enlighten rakyat on what’s with the hole…show the measuring tape that you took up to the sky and tell us how you measured the hole…show me exactly where it is and how you know the CFC is causing it? I am a jobless rakyat of Malaysia now … explain please…no more technical jargon to cheat us...let me ask the experts…who understands…come forward and give a press conference and tell us…Faizal….say it as it is...as I am saying now…english/malay/tamil please…Oh! Faizal can’t speak tamil but he’s fluent in English and ok in malay…I can translate…I have tamil background ok…don’t play…play (direct translation for jangan main-main)…
How come the tamil newspapers never talk about these issues uh…why always talk about India..hangover from the past is it….come out to the sun…I called and you came in late 90’s now nobody is calling you all right…Kali, why you never call them thought Najua? Doc. Sam why have you not asked the tamil nesan to cover issues on environment…this one deserves another article…
1. Publish the list of all products that cause the hole in the sky (MY ROOF) to deteriorate.
2. Inform the public of how important this is?
3. Teach the public what to do – stop using/buying/supporting them.
4. Publish the list of bastards that produce such products.
5. Hit the heads of these fuckers with chairs or go after them with parangs and daggers…they need to be taken to task.
Now…is this so difficult? What’s the point of going to MARS if we can’t do simple things like this? Who is running this world? It now needs a women and I am here…take me! President Bush…answer this…is your country fit to run/rule the world
I still think this is not enough because time has come for science to merge with spirituality…all those green-house-gas-emission-product-producers and environmental-experts and politicians…come see me and sit and meditate with me…I will take you places…I think I need to run out of the room now…ha!ha! COME SEE ME IF YOU HAVE THE BALLS! Am running out now…to PELITA to be with the rakyat…
Before that…go to KINOKUNIYA and order OSHO’s book “AWARENESS – A coureagous way to live (is it?…Baskaran Fucker … give me OSHOs books…he needs me now). They managed to order some book for me but failed after sometime … perhaps blocked …just like all my email accounts…WHO BLOCKED ALL MY EMAIL ACCOUNTS AND CUT ME OFF THE WORLD… is it you BASKARAN… ada balls-kah? WHO? Why don’t you come and see me in person…I am such a frail looking abused/Indian/exd-maijuana-addict/fromthegodforsakentownofKUalaPilah…actually full of god as nature is still intact…GET ME BASKARAN…. 30 pages coming on you son-of-a-bitch….he!he!he! Dunno wat am sying… Bye
This was my plea to the TOYOTA FOUNDATION…
8. Reason why a Toyota Foundation Grant is needed?
(Why is funding from a private foundation necessary?) I too bought into the story until just now…we need to see the measuring tape first…whats with UNFCCC (United Nations Framework Convention on Climate Change – those fuckers with the measuring tape and money..soo much of our monies – give them to osho’s ashram in Bombay so they can sit and meditate and tell you what to do - another chapter on you.. fucker bush fire …that’s for killing worlds most important asset, he knew the answer you IDIOT…now I know!)
The loss of ozone layer means annihilation of the human race and all that we love. We need all the funds available for the environment to protect the thin layer of atmosphere that is protecting human race. Most of the Southeast Asian governments are still combating poverty alleviation. As such funding from private foundations is absolutely necessary to address challenges related to the environment, especially the climate change as it involves the entire human race.
Toyota Foundation have always cared for the well being of the earth and its people by providing funds to minority groups who need it most (I was just being polite – I think you have no idea what priority is). As such we believe that the voice of the neglected Southeast Asia will be heard and the importance of protecting the ozone layer will be felt as much as the minority Civil Society Organisations (just found out that they represent not the actual Civil Society Org. but government bodies – Faizal and Mr.Chee Tong Yew and Dr.Sundari know more about this…ask them please…ASK THEM…I can’t because they’re my friends –if they still want me..) in the region.
Let’s join hands in saving our sky.
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Change your ways and behave yourself. This is my message to the society at large. At large because it is a very large message and we are going to tear it down to atomic size. A voice just asked me where have you been Amaravathy and I answered ‘DEAD’. Let them ask me what it is ---who? –society! We are all DEAD! WE need to FEEL again. To all Indians out there
‘‘Listen to the following song that Mohan mimicked for Revathy in this…. my short term memory lost due to marijuana addiction is not at all good for the society because I have a message to give ….“once again, go to the CD shop above the restaurant that is opposite Laxmi Narayan Restaurant (can’t remember names at all) at Lebuh Ampang (my favorite haunt) and buy yes…Utahaya Geetham movie…Mohan mimicked THIS Song From a Prison to Revathy “can’t remember as the Tamil news at the back is disturbing my flow of thought”… YEA…it sounds
‘ithayam oru kovil, athil uthayam oru pahdal, ithil vaalum thevi nee’…this is me. (translation: our heart is our temple, there emerges a song, you’re the goddess who lives in the heart – English words never justifies the beauty of my language)
I live in my heart and not in my head…I feel, therefore I am the force of nature.
I just found new meaning to it, sitting here at the reception of this cheap hotel in the company of an Indian man from Chennai – he’s at the other side of the desk…just hold your suppressed thoughts…he’s very decently reading Part 1 & 2 of the story of my life…just see how suppressed my mind is…GOSH!- Anyway I cried here just now thinking of what I was doing to Baskaran because I know that he was such a private person…liar…you became famous before me and made it big right…in newspapers way back … I won’t make it easy for the media…let them do some work…. As if they are interested…they rather …. Never mind….no time/
Oh! Baskaran … what have I done to you. Am I sounding like an Indian Drama Queen? Is this what you want? Baskaran I am not at all affected but what am I doing to YOURSELF! I am killing you to recreate an independent and better person. Die today. Wake up tomorrow different. Don’t give a FUCK to what this people say about us. It was our life and I am proud of it. I am better today because of you. Thank you. Tell them to FUCK OFF! I almost did to a journalist from Star called Wani (I have now)…I have a message and all she was interested is in my marijuana addiction … her question “Did your husband beat you up in addition to getting you hooked on marijuana”. Such a bitch. Ask them all to fuck Off. She didn’t even read my story This is the kind of society we live in. I said all those nasty things about you to get the attention of the media. Now that I have it, I will tell the truth. We did marijuana together, you were a bad influence but you did not force me. NO ONE CAN FORCE ME AS I AM FORCE OF NATURE AS ALL WOMEN ARE WHEN THEY ARE AWAKE.
Do you know that all women are enlightened – if they escape the tyranny of men!
I am an independent women with her mind of my own. I quit marijuana without any ones help right? What does this say? I could have done it anytime but I didn’t because I was having a good time with baskaran and did not want it to end because our relationship was a ganja relationship and I am proud of it. For those of you who have not experienced a ganja session, go to Bukit Bintang, Jalan Alor and ask the parking attendants there, please give them RM50 (minimum) and they will give you something worth RM20 until they trust you enough to get you more.
Why don’t Wani try some, perhaps she may understand that marijuana addicts do not beat their wives but have some and give them a good lick/blow. Learn before you call and ask cocked up questions. Very sneakily she threw my ex-friiends name who were and is journalists at the STAR Shamala Velu and Grace Chin. Where are you Shamala? Hiding under Singams sarong? I am laughing so hard as I am writing this because I have no idea if Singam wears Sarong! Why is our local media so FUCKED UP? Don’t you keep abreast with what is happening at world at large. Come out of the dark corners of your mind and embrace the sun. We need light in these moments of dark and desolate period. Now I remember…Bob Marley my ganja fellow partner said…let me repeat this again
EMANCIPATE YOURSELF FROM MENTAL SLAVERY BUT NONE OURSELVES CAN FREE OUR MIND! HAVE NO FEAR FOR ATOMIC ENERGY COZ NONE OF US CAN FIGHT THE TIME! HOW LONG SHALL WE KILL OUR PROPHETS WHILE WE STAND ASIDE AND LOOK…i miss you osho…i am OSHO back to haunt you BUSH!
I am not going to read this before publishing it because one of myself may delete this (accidentally as I have …article on danes and me…aiyah…will rewrite later…not now as the ENVIRONMENT/NATURE/EXISTENCE need me…OSHOs LOVER!
am scared…i think i will die if not for the support of restoran nasi kandar pelita at Kuala Lumpur in the vicinity of Ampang Point….oooohhhhhaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh sob! sob! the world is dying and all we care about is killing prophets and going after turbans and women…where is justice …who is going to be the voice of the environment/nature/existence…I AM as I AM PART OF NATURE: EXISTENCE:GOD:YOU ARE TOO MY FELLOW SIBLINGS FROM MY HOME EARTH THAT HAS A ROOF:OUR SKY.
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